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"You don't have any prior work history on your resume," Luna said, "Am I to believe this is actually your first job? That seems a bit odd for a college student."


Chelsea - the young woman being interviewed - stared at Luna. Luna sighed and set the resume down on the desk, then cupped her tentacles on the table.


"Am I making you uncomfortable?" she asked, "Is it the tentacles?"


"They don't help," Chelsea said, making Luna chuckle.


"I know that this is weird," she said, "but we don't often get human resumes, that's partially why I wanna take a gamble on you. You seem like a smart young lady, and I wanna help you pay for your education. You only have to work nights, so it won't cut into your school time. I hope we can come to some sort of arrangement. Now tell me, you've never worked before?"


"I used to do chores that I got paid for and one summer I was a lifeguard," Chelsea said, brushing her blonde hair from her eyes.


"Oh yeah? How'd that go?" Luna asked, picking up the resume once again.


"Not great, a kid drowned," Chelsea said, "but that wasn't my fault, for what it's worth. He had asthma, he shouldn't have been swimming to begin with. If anything it's his moms fault really."


A moment of silence passed as neither woman said anything.


"You...you wanna blame the mom of the dead kid? You really wanna go with that?" she asked.


"...I mean, do you have a better excuse?" Chelsea asked.


"Chelsea, there won't be much work here, for what it's worth. We don't get a ton of business, especially at night," Luna said, "so I'm gonna give you the job on a trial basis. Come with me, we need to get you a uniform, and then I'll show you how the job works."


Luna stood up and slithered out of the room, Chelsea right behind her, making sure not to step in her slime trail. As the women headed down the hall of the backroom, going to, Chelsea presumed, the uniform department, Luna kept talking.


"It's a pretty basic job, like any convenience store. You run the register, help customers, keep things clean," she said, "We have a janitor, but you likely won't see him much."


"Why not? He doesn't work nights?"


"No, he's invisible. So if you see a dustpan moving on its own, don't freak out," Luna said.


They finally reached a door, which Luna opened with her tentacles and inside was a blindingly white room with just a single enormous creature of incomprehensible shape. Chelsea followed Luna slowly inside, staying cautiously behind her as they approached the creature.


"I need a uniform for Chelsea here, a size..." Luna said, snapping her fingers.


"Uh, 8," Chelsea said.


"You heard her," Luna said.


The enormous creature nodded, or at least Chelsea thought it did, before grabbing a piece of itself and tearing away from its flesh what was a uniform. It then handed the uniform to Luna, who thanked them as they exited. Back in the hallway, she handed the uniform to Chelsea.


"You can change in our bathroom," Luna said, "I'll meet you at the register when you're done."


"What...what was that?" Chelsea asked.


"That was Todd," Luna said, "He's where all our uniforms come from. He's a creature made entirely of clothing materials that take any shape he wants them to take when he peels them off himself. He's a literal skinsuit."


"His name is Todd?"


"No, but his actual name is something you cannot pronounce," Luna replied.


"Of course it is," Chelsea said, heading to the bathroom.


                                                                            ***


Chelsea Teages had never had a job before because, quite frankly, she'd never needed one. She came from a fairly well off family who agreed to pay for her college if she agreed to get a job to chip in, to teach her responsibility. Chelsea had never really done well with responsibility. When she was 9, they got her a hamster as a pet, and after strapping it into her Barbie Convertible and sending it down the stairs and off a ramp, she realized why they had been so hesitant to get her a pet in the first place. She simply didn't do well when it came to taking care of things.


So working at Last Shop On The Left was her chance to prove herself to her folks, and even to herself to an extent. She'd only found the job offer because a flyer had been taped to a crosswalk light nearby her college dorm, and there was only one application attached, which she thought was odd. She took it, and when she went back the following day, the flyer and the crosswalk light were both gone. So she filled out the paper, sent in the application and then was given detailed directions to the store. Now, standing in this bathroom and admiring herself in her new uniform - which somehow, despite its origins, wasn't slimy or remotely damp in the slightest - Chelsea was feeling good about herself. She'd taken the initiative, and she was going to prove to her folks that she could be responsible.


Just...maybe not in the sort of way they'd expected.


                                                                            ***


"What the hell is that thing?" Chelsea asked, pointing at the machine on the counter.


"This is the register," Luna said.


The register was fleshy and made gurgling noises. Luna pressed a protrusion on it, and it slid open, revealing the money within. Chelsea was, admittedly, disgusted by the register, but she didn't want to make he revulsion that obvious to her new boss, so she kept her mouth shut.


"You got into college so logic dictates you're capable of doing at least basic mathematics," Luna said, "Figuring out how to make change and whatnot shouldn't be that difficult for you. You're also free to eat anything in the store, free of charge. Call it bonus compensation. Can't have you going hungry while you're here."


"Anything?" Chelsea asked, tugging at the collar of her uniform shirt.


"Yes, although I highly recommend you make sure it's safe for humans to eat. There's a lot of stuff in here that's made specifically for interdimensional monsters, so please be careful," Luna said.


"I'll, uh, keep that in mind," Chelsea said, starting to feel somewhat nervous.


"Now, I'm going to take off for a bit. When I get back, I'll assess your work for the night, and we'll talk about future employment," Luna said, "I shouldn't be gone too long. And, for the record, if The Muck comes out, if they try to consume you and make you a part of them, the broom to shoo them off is right there."


And with that Luna exited the store, leaving Chelsea simultaneously confused and terrified.


                                                                           ***


Nothing much happened during Chelsea's shift, much to her relief.


She spent most of the time familiarizing herself with the 'register', and doing some light reorganizing and restocking. She even managed to get into the radio tuner that played over the store speakers and found a channel called MICT, or Music for Interdimensional Creatures of Terror, which played something sort of close to what Chelsea considered music, so she found that most acceptable to her ears. While she was kneeling, pushing bags of what looked like pretzels but were probably tiny edible bones from what Chelsea had learned so far about this place, she heard the bell over the door ring.


"I'll be right with you!" she shouted over her shoulder.


After she finished putting the things on the shelf, she headed back to the front of the store, went around the counter to behind the register and then looked up at the creature standing in front of her. Her polite smile turned to a concerned grimace, but she tried to hide it. The thing standing in front of her was a creature about 7 feet tall with no discernible facial features (or a face, for that matter) and just a single gaping hole in where its face would theoretically be. Chelsea sized this creature up, then bit her lip.


"How can I help you?" she asked.


The creature didn't respond, they merely made a horrifying sound with their mouth hole and Chelsea nodded afterwards. She looked around behind her, then grabbed a pack of cigarettes from the shelf and handed them to the creature. The creature stood there momentarily, then picked them up, stuffed them in their craw, then tossed some money on the counter before exiting. Chelsea carefully picked the money up and put it into the register before exhaling.


Of all the jobs she could've applied to, she thought.


                                                                              ***


Chelsea spent the remainder of her time reading magazines that she didn't really understand, with names like "Splork!" about extreme sports for interdimensional beings. Luna had been right, business at night tended to be rather slow, so she just made sure to keep the place tidy and in check. After a bit, she heard the bell ring again and when she finally looked up, she saw a faceless man in a pinstripe suit standing in front of her at the counter. She was starting to wonder if anyone in this place had a face.


"How can I help you?" she asked.


"How can you help me when you can't even help yourself?" he asked, catching her off guard. She hadn't actually expected him to be able to respond.


"Wh...what?" she asked, flustered.


"I'm kidding," he said, laughing, "I'm just here for a pack of cigars and a bottle of wine."


"You can't go to a liquor store?" Chelsea asked as she turned to get the cigars.


"At this time of night?" he asked, "Please. I know the wine here isn't the best, but it's at least available."


"Would you like to carry these things out, or should I deliver them to your rolls royce?" she asked, smirking, making him snap his long pale slender fingers and point at her.


"You're funny," he said, "Seems like Luna finally found a good fit for this place. Last one wasn't as funny, last one also didn't last long. Got themselves caught up in a robbery."


He lit up the cigar as Chelsea leaned on the counter, curious and grateful to have someone to talk to.


"Really? What'd they take?"


"Their skin," he replied, "And most of their internal organs. Zepids, horrible little creatures. They take anything that isn't nailed down and resell it on the black market for high prices. Mostly dabble in human organs and the like. Personally, I recommend you buy a gun and keep it under the counter."


"Can a gun kill something from here?" Chelsea asked, her brow furrowing.


"I guess we'll find out if you do it," the man said, taking his wine and, cigar on his face, extended his hand for her to sake, which she did as he added, "I'm Polaris. It's nice to meet you Chelsea."


"How...how did you know my name?"


"It's on your nametag," Polaris said, pointing at her shirt, making her chuckle nervously.


"Oh, hah, right," she said, "Sorry, this has been a weird day."


"And it promises to get weirder," he said, almost sinister like as he motioned towards the front door and exited. Chelsea stood there, somewhat surprised at the conversation she'd just had. Maybe this job wouldn't be interacting with just monsters. Maybe things would be sort of normal from time to time. Maybe she'd worried too much, and sometimes customers would come in that would be almost normal.


And then the large sentient hand walked in and demolished that hope.


                                                                           ***


"You did...exceptionally well," Luna said, standing with Chelsea at the counter as Chelsea shoved her uniform into her backpack, preparing to leave.


"Yeah, well, it was weird, but there wasn't much business like you said, so," Chelsea replied, pulling her backpack onto her shoulders after she had zipped it up; she turned to Luna and asked, "So...do I have the job then?"


"...I'd say so, yeah. Come on in tomorrow night and let's see how this continues," she replied.


"Hey, uh, this guy named Polaris came in, and-"


"...he did?" Luna asked, now sounding concerned, "Chelsea, Polaris is a dangerous individual. Don't let him get inside your head, okay? If he comes in again, tell him to leave without talking to you. That's how he gets to people. All he has to do is talk. Now hurry up or you'll miss your cab."


Chelsea looked outside and noticed the taxi sitting outside with human fists for wheels. She sighed and headed towards the door.


This was gonna be a weird year.

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Violet hated water.

She liked it when it rained, but otherwise she hated water, and she especially hated water in communal situations; pools, the beach, etc. She just felt uncomfortable around all these people in their hideous swimsuits, and she felt self conscious in her own one piece, sitting on the side of the pool, just kicking her feet gently in the water. She heard footsteps, and looked to see Courtney approaching her, seating herself and handing Violet a soda she'd gotten from the machine inside. Courtney twisted the cap off her own and took a long drink.

"I'm so glad it's summer," Courtney said, "I mean, the heat sucks, but it's nice to not be in school."

"Yeah, school does suck," Violet replied, opening her own soda and sipping some.

For the past few months, Violet had been seeing a speech therapist, recommended by Noreen, to help her with her stuttering and difficulty with words. It had been paying off, as Violet hadn't found herself stuttering or stammering anywhere near as much as she once had, and she was feeling better about herself. She kicked the water again a bit, and looked back at Courtney.

"Do you wanna stay over tonight?" Violet asked.

"Okay," Courtney said, smiling, "We could get BBQ for dinner. It is summer, after all. You have to eat BBQ in the summer, it's, like, the law or something."

Violet laughed as an older boy - maybe two years older - walked past them and said hello before climbing up the ladder on the lifeguard tower. Courtney couldn't help herself but stare, biting her lip. After a minute, she focused her attention back to Violet.

"Is your mom home?" she asked, "She won't mind if I stay over?"

"Nah, she likes you," Violet said.

Indeed she did, this much Courtney knew full well. After all, not that Violet knew this, Nat had offered to pay for Courtney's medical needs when she had the money necessary, and judging how well things had been going, that should be anytime now. Courtney smiled at the idea of spending the night in the Simple household. It always felt warm and welcoming, unlike her home. Ever since her mother was gone, her home hadn't felt the same, so she always appreciated having a stand in mother like figure to fall back on, and Natasha was nothing if not loving.

                                                                                              ***

"A book?" Nat asked, sitting with Corrine on the couch in the editing bay at the studio.

The studio was in actuality simply a small building on a lot they'd rented out for production, and they'd since moved all of Corrine's editing equipment into it so she didn't have to edit at the college anymore. It wasn't an enormous building, but it had everything they required to continue producing the show at a profit, since the price of rent was just right. Plus, with the subscription model Jay had implemented on the site, not to mention sales from the merch store, Nat was in better financial shape than she maybe had ever been in her whole life.

"Yeah, you know, everyone who works in TV eventually writes a book," Jay said, putting his feet up on a stool and putting his hands behind his head, adding, "like, you could really delve further into the topics you cover on the program, but with more detail. Really get into these things, maybe help people."

"I'm not a writer," Nat said, "That's why I wing everything."

"We could hire a ghost writer. You tell them what you wanna say, and they mesh it into something workable, publishable," Jay said.

"Question," Corrine said, raising her hand, "...why's a book a good idea?"

"Because it helps further her presence. When the show is off air, as it is during the summer, it's important to remind those who might otherwise forget about you that you're still here, and that you'll be back," Jay said.

"If they forget about her because she vanishes for a few months then are they even really fans?" Corrine asked, making Nat chuckle.

"It's just a suggestion, jeez," Jay said.

"I appreciate your ideas," Nat said, "I do, but I'm not sure how comfortable I am about that. I like the medium I am in and I chose it for a reason. The kind of things I say require a visual, not just text. I don't want to water down my message simply for the hope of a few more dollars."

Nat's watched beeped, and she looked at it before nodding and standing up, stretching.

"I have to go, I'm having lunch with my sister," she said, "Anyone care to join?"

"I don't wanna intrude, plus I have things to set up here still," Jay said.

"I don't mind intruding. Free food is good food," Corrine said, standing up as Nat laughed and walked to Jay, kissing him on the head before she and Corrine exited the room. They headed down the hall and out the building into the parking lot. Corrine climbed into Nat's car in the passenger seat as Nat got into the drivers seat and pushed the key into the ignition. Corrine put her seatbelt on and Nat sighed.

"I hope I wasn't too harsh on him," Nat said.

"I don't think you can be too harsh on him. I don't think he feels things like judgement. I think he just rolls with it," Corrine said, "Now, someone like me, I feel judgement in every single thing said to me, even in the times when there is no judgement I will sense it. I will create judgement out of no judgement. But I suppose that's what comes from a lifetime of being judged."

Nat wanted to say something, but she wasn't sure what. She knew Corrine's relationship with her parents was rough, but she also didn't want to pry. Instead she just said she understood, and drove in silence. Noreen had suggested they meet a bistro downtown - Noreen was a big sandwich fan and it was something that Corrine could find something to eat as well - so Nat parked across the street and she and Corrine walked over. They found Noreen almost instantly. She was seated by a window, in a brightly colored striped sweater and jeans, her hair in duel buns. She smiled at the girls as they sat down at the table with her.

"Hi Corrine," Noreen said.

"Yes, hello, good afternoon," Corrine replied.

"I hope our lunch isn't interrupting anything important," Noreen said.

"Oh, please, like anything I do is important," Nat said, making Corrine chuckle; Nat slid her overshirt off and hung it on the back of her chair then asked, "Have you ordered anything yet, or?"

"No, I figured I'd wait for you guys so we could order together," Noreen said, "what are your plans for the summer?"

"I'm just going to try and relax," Nat said, "Honestly, I've been working myself to the bone. I need some time off. Recoup and all that. Not that that means I'm not thinking of ideas or anything during this time. Just means that I'm not working 24/7 as usual. In fact, we were just at the studio talking shop, so."

"And you?" Noreen asked, looking at Corrine, who just shook her head.

Corrine had been planning to go to Hawaii to see her girlfriend, but a week before leaving the trip was suddenly cancelled and she hadn't talked about it since. Nat let her keep the money she'd given her, because that was a gift more than anything, but she hadn't pried. Curious as she may have been, she felt she shouldn't intrude that overtly into Corrine's private life. She felt when Corrine was ready, if ever, she'd tell her.

"Sleep. I like sleep," Corrine said, "Nat's got the right idea. Rest."

"Maybe you guys should get a bed at the studio so you can take naps together," Noreen said, making Nat raise an eyebrow as she glanced at Corrine, who blushed.

"What do you say?" Nat asked, "I'm open to trying anything at least once."

                                                                                              ***

When Courtney and Violet got back to the house, Nat still wasn't there.

This was good, actually. This meant they could take some time to get settled in before she got home and they asked about dinner. The girls went upstairs to Violet's bedroom and played music while Courtney, true to her word, helped Violet learn how to properly apply makeup. After a while, Courtney stepped back and looked at her work, as Violet looked at herself in the vanity mirror.

"I look...pretty," Violet said.

"You have good bone structure in your face, and that helps a lot," Courtney said, "Honestly, a lot of girls would kill to have the kind of face you do. You take my advice and you'll have a boyfriend in no time."

Courtney started packing up some of the makeup, as Violet stared at herself in the mirror. She cleared her throat, then lowered her voice.

"I don't know that I want a boyfriend," she said.

"Oh?"

"I don't know that I want anyone," she followed up with, "I just...I don't understand romance and how you feel compelled to be with someone like that. That much intimacy is terrifying to me. I don't even really find people attractive. I feel weird, like there's something else wrong with me."

"There's nothing wrong with you, Vi, some people just...aren't wired that way," Courtney said, putting the makeup bag down and sitting on the bed cross legged, adding, "It's totally fine if you are. If anything it'll make life easier I'd say. Less bull to deal with. Unlike me. That guy at the pool, the lifeguard who's about our age, god...I wanna get to know him. He's so cute."

"He is?" Violet asked.

"Yeah! And he's always really nice to me the few times we've talked," Courtney said, "I was thinking of maybe trying to be a lifeguard. Or, like, a helper or something. That way I could spend more time with him during the summer."

Violet didn't respond. She didn't want to say anything that might hurt Courtney's feelings, so she just looked back at herself in the mirror, admiring her face. Her entire life she didn't have a single friend except her mother, and she felt protective of Courtney, and now it seemed like she might lose her to some random boy. This was going to be a bad summer, Violet could feel it.

Eventually, Nat came home, Corrine in tow, and they agreed to get BBQ for dinner. Even Corrine had some, which surprised Nat considering her aversion to eating most things, but Corrine stuck mostly to one particular item, so. After dinner, the girls watched movies upstairs in Violet's bedroom, while Corrine and Nat sat downstairs, eating cookies from a box and watching music videos on mute. As Corrine dug into the box and pulled a handful of cookies out, Nat glanced over and sighed.

"So," Nat said, "Um, about what Noreen asked, I was wondering the same thing."

"What, you wanna sleep with me?" Corrine asked, making Nat laugh.

"No! God no, I mean, no offense, you're cute and all but no, but about the summer in general," Nat said, "You know, what your plans might be and stuff. I know you canceled your trip to the islands, and I just...I wanna make sure you're okay. Is everything okay?"

Corrine stopped chewing and looked at Nat, keeping eye contact for once.

"You don't have to mother me," she said sternly.

"But I like mothering you!" Nat replied.

"I just didn't go. That's all there is to it," Corrine said, "Who cares what the reason is. It just didn't happen. I'd rather stay here and work on things anyway. I like to spend most of my spare time in the editing station at the studio. Learning some of the new equipment is going to take some time, and I'd rather get familiar with it now than before the new stuff starts being made."

Natasha sighed and looked away back at the TV. Corrine put the cookie box down on the couch and folded her arms, her long black shiny hair covering her face, and Nat was surprised when she heard her start to cry. Nat didn't say anything, but after a minute Corrine - surprising Nat to the nth degree - climbed across the couch and laid her head in Nat's lap, sobbing. Natasha, surprised but not shaken, stroked her hair and just held her.

"It's okay," Nat said, "You're okay here. Whatever happened, you're okay here."

Between Corrine, Violet and Courtney, when had Natasha become a mother to three?

                                                                                           ***

"Do you think I'm a good mother?" Natasha asked as she and Jay lay in bed one morning.

"Yeah, I do," Jay said, "Why do you ask?"

"I don't know, sometimes I worry that I'm not, that I'm too focused on helping everyone else instead of just being with my own daughter," Nat said, "but like...the other night, Corrine just started crying on my couch, and I just had to hold her for a while, and it just made me feel like I'm more a mom to other people and while it feels good to be there for these folks, it also makes me worry about my relationship with Violet."

"The mere fact that you worry about whether or not you're a good mother, and don't just take it on assumption that you are, is enough proof that you're a good mother. Those who automatically believe they are would never second guess themselves. They'd consider themselves infallible. But you're always striving for more, asking to be better. That's enough for me."

Nat smiled and looked up at the ceiling, sighing.

"...when I got pregnant, I was scared that I wouldn't know what to do. That I wouldn't do the right things or that I'd do the right things in the worst possible way. I wasn't even sure I wanted to be a mom, honestly. But I think a lot of women go through that, so. Even still, I hated questioning myself. I want to be self assured and confident, but more often than not I'm worried that I'm screwing everything up in ways I can't notice until it's too late."

"Nat," Jay said, leaning on his elbow, "a year ago you dissed an entire school assembly because they didn't treat your daughter kindly, you dissed their parents failings to their faces, and you're letting your daughter see her father even though your relationship with the man crumbled and burned. You always put her first. Please don't ever think anything less."

Natasha smiled as Jay leaned over her and kissed her, running his hand up her face and into her hair.

"You're a good woman, it's just that society has conditioned women to believe the worst about themselves," he said quietly, "so listen to those who know you best. You're great, and you do great, and I love you."

Natasha blushed and leaned up, kissing him back. It was hard to argue with him. Besides, she couldn't risk making him angry.

He ran all her camera equipment and he'd be expensive to replace.
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It was a slow and quiet morning. The kind of mornings that Molly loved. She'd wake up, make a pot of coffee, warm herself up some leftover pastries from the nearby bakery, and maybe do the crossword. That was, in fact, exactly what she was doing this particular morning. She figured she'd take a nice bath after this and then get to work drafting in her home office, until the knock came at her door. Visitors at 9am? Who the hell would be here now? She groaned, pushed herself up from her breakfast nook in the kitchen and headed to the front door, which she opened to find, of all people, Zoe standing there with a few bags.


"...I need help," Zoe said, "I need to hide."


"Hide from what?" Molly asked as Zoe exhaled.


"My folks," she said.


Now that, Molly felt, was relatable. She let her in without a single hesitation. Zoe set her things down in the living room, then walked into the kitchen and sat at the table as Molly poured her a cup of coffee and warmed her up a pastry as well, setting both down in front of her before seating herself once more.


"Everything okay?" Molly asked as she sipped her coffee.


"I woke up to my mom folding my underwear, does that answer your question?" Zoe asked.


"Oddly enough, yes," Molly replied.


"I can't be around them," Zoe said, "I just...I had to bail and fast, and you were the only place I could think of to go to. I couldn't go to Allie's."


"Why not?"


Zoe didn't want to admit it, but she had thought about going to Allie's first, actually. At least until she remembered Nick was back in the picture. These days it seemed as if all of Allie's spare time was taken up by her relationship. And she felt uncomfortable going to Effie, asking if she could stay with her for a while. Sure they'd been together for over 6 months now, but it still made her feel icky. Zoe sighed and ran her hands over her face.


"thanks for letting me in," she mumbled.


"I have a guest bedroom," Molly said, "You're welcome to stay as long as you want. I'm happy for the company."


Zoe smiled. Perhaps, despite not actually being her first choice, Molly really was the best alternative after all.


                                                                               ***


Truth be told, Allie wouldn't have answered the door anyway if Zoe had gone there, because that morning in particular, she was on her back in bed, with Nick on top of her, thrusting away like there was no tomorrow. After they were finished, Allie lay there and stared at the ceiling, feeling better than she had in ages. During their brief time apart, she'd forgotten how good he was in bed, and she was grateful to be reminded now. Allie grabbed her cigarettes from the bedside table and lit one, taking a few puffs as Nick was in the bathroom, combing his hair and brushing his teeth.


"Was there anything else besides me you wanted to do today?" Allie asked, making him laugh.


"Actually," he said, "I was hoping to go check out this antique shop. I'm trying to redo my apartment, and I'm tired of living in essentially a college boys dorm. I wanna be more like a classy older man, you know, the kind of guy who drinks scotch and reads russian novels and collects things from the 20s."


"Oh okay, you wanna be a stereotype, I got it," Allie said, making him laugh again as he pulled on his shirt over his head and entered the bedroom. Allie sat up, still naked, still smoking. He sat on the bed and pulled her in, kissing her. She didn't hesitate for a second. She was, if anything, extremely happy to see him be this romantic towards her. Maybe, she thought, getting her life together was for the best after all, especially if it meant he wanted to be with her again.


"You're gonna come with me, right?" he asked.


"Of course, why wouldn't I?"


"I don't know, I don't know when your practice days are or anything," Nick said.


"Ah, we're not practicing lately. We're just doing the same show for a while," Allie said, "lemme get dressed and we can go, so long as we can get tacos while we're out."


Nick watched as she started to stand up, then he jumped back on the bed and held her down, kissing her neck, making her laugh.


"Well," he said, "maybe you don't have to get dressed just yet. Antique shop's not closing at 10 in the morning after all."


"You're a tiger," she said, "but, you know, the kind I'd like be mauled by."


Nick threw his head back and laughed. Allie's dark sense of humor was always one of his favorite qualities about her. So they stayed in the bedroom for another hour, before showering together and finally going out antique shopping. The place Nick wanted to go was called Cleopatras Closet, and it was on a somewhat abandoned drag in Vegas. In fact, the only other places opened on the same street were a Pho shop and a dirty bookstore. This was my kind of neighborhood, Allie thought, as they headed inside.


Trinkets and tchotchkes galore lined the shelves inside; old magazines, marionettes, vintage lamps. Whatever it was you were in the market for, there was a good likelihood that Cleopatras Closet had it. Allie was impressed at their selection, as she strolled along and looked at all the various items. Nick was apparently looking for things that were western themed, as he'd long since been a fan of the genre, so Allie kept her eyes peeled for anything of the sort; horses, cowboys, etc.


As she turned a corner, she bumped into someone and immediately apologized, before realizing it was her cousin Megan.


"Oh, hi," Allie said flatly.


"What are you doing here?" Megan asked.


"Shopping with my boyfriend, wherever he is now," Allie said, "What about you?"


"Shopping for a friends birthday," Megan said, as they continued to walk down the aisle together; she brushed her hair out of her face and continued, "but I'm just not good at birthday shopping. You remember, all the awful gifts I gave you over the years."


"No, I don't, cause I returned them for better ones," Allie said, making Megan laugh. They stopped and she started flipping through a scattered collection of old black and white framed photos.


"So I hear you're doing really well, you have a big marquee at the new casino and everything," Megan said.


"It's been good, yeah," Allie replied, "Zoe's been a great teammate honestly, and I've stopped drinking and taking pills, and...I mean, I occasionally have a drink and I do take painkillers if I have a headache but, I'm doing much better. I'm nowhere near as messed up as I was even just a year ago, and it feels good, it feels good to be sober and in control. It's like, you never realize-"


Allie just noticed Megan was crying. She reached out and put her hand on Megan's shoulder.


"Uh, you okay there, champ?" she asked.


"Jeff is cheating on me," she said quietly.


"What??"


"Yeah," Megan said, nodding, "He, uh, he doesn't know that I know, but I do know. I don't know what to do about it. Do I confront him, do I just leave, and then there's Lane and how would she react? Do I do what a lot parents do and stay together for the kid? I just...I never thought this sort of thing would happen to me. Jeff was always the best, he was always so supportive and romantic and..."


They heard a cluttering sound and looked down the aisle to see Nick and a little boy playing with old metal trucks together and laughing. Allie and Megan couldn't help but smile.


"...Nick's a good guy, Allie," Megan said, "Don't lose him this time. Do whatever it takes to make it work. Um, I'm free a lot of nights now, if you wanna maybe catch up and get some dinner or something. I miss you."


Allie leaned in and hugged her cousin tightly.


"I miss you too," she replied.


After Megan walked away to purchase her items, Allie couldn't help but think about how things had turned around so much. Just a year ago or so, she was the one with the relationship problems. She was the one who was breaking down. Now everything was topsy turvey and Allie was on top of the world, with the best boyfriend one could hope for. Maybe she'd invite Megan to do magic with her and Zoe some time, for old times sake. She heard the sound of metal beside her and looked over to see Nick there, holding a old toy firetruck.


"What happened to the whole western theme?" she asked.


"I mean, I still like it, but firetrucks are cool," Nick replied.


"You know you shouldn't just play with other peoples children like that," Allie said, "You're a guy, it looks weird."


"I'll try to remember that next time I'm about to abduct a child," Nick said, making her laugh.


                                                                           ***


Molly's home office was lovely.


It was filled to the brim with plant life and books about architecture and, of course, her multiple drafting tables and equipment. All of it was set in front of a large bay window, and when the sun hit at just the right time of day, yes, it was the nicest room in the house and Zoe felt lucky to see it. Standing there, looking through the bookshelf while Molly did a little work at her table, she couldn't help but notice the only photograph, framed even, sitting on the shelf in front of the books. Zoe picked it up and looked at it; a teenage Molly with, presumably, her parents.


"These your folks?" she asked, glancing over her shoulder.


"Yep," Molly said, not even looking back.


"You not on good terms with your parents either?" Zoe asked.


"I..." Molly started, then turned around in her chair and looked at Zoe, "uh...not particularly. Um. I was sexually assaulted when I was in high school, and when I told them, they blamed me for some reason, even though that was like the first relationship I'd ever had. Anyway, I got a scholarship to a college here, moved away and we haven't really spoken much since. My mother has since sort of backed away from the whole religious conservative mindset that soured them, but my father's a whole different story entirely. If anything he's only gotten worse with age. My mother has apologized to me, but everything is still on shaky grounds."


"I'm sorry, I didn't know," Zoe said, "my parents think I'm a criminal, for what it's worth. Not that they're far off...the problem is, they act as if the things they've said or done have been justifiable, and aren't even remotely aware of how their actions have hurt me, so I've just avoided them. Been living with my sister for years now."


"It hurts. Not having family," Molly said, playing with loose threads on the knees of her jeans, "I mean, it's good to not be around that much toxicity, but to not have family it makes the world feel a little smaller, a little colder. Makes holidays less enjoyable. You realize what so many others have that you don't and you feel a weird combination of jealousy and anger and regret, even though you know you're better off without them. It's...it's hard."


"It is, but that's why it's important to have found family, like Allie and I. I can't imagine not having her in my life," Zoe said, "Growing up I was such a fan, and now I'm her partner in magic, like, that's mind blowing to me, you know? You're our friend too, that's why I came here, cause I trusted you."


Molly smiled.


"Well, thank you," Molly said, "I appreciate being your friend, and I'm glad you know how I feel about family. I'm glad we're on the same page there at least."


"What are you designing?" Zoe asked, walking towards the table.


"Nothing official. I design homes for fun," Molly said, "I think I got into architecture because I came from a broken home. In my off time, I design some of them for fun, places I'd love to live but could never afford to build. But it helps seeing the dream on paper, you know? Makes it feel tangible, if nothing else."


Zoe nodded as she pulled up a seat and watched. Magic was good and all, but she liked seeing someone else make something out of nothing.


                                                                          ***


"Anything?" Agent Tropper asked as he approached Siskel's desk. She had feet up and was sucking down noodles from a chinese takeout box while her phone tucked under her chin. She shook her head and he groaned, sitting down. After a minute, she thanked the person on the phone, then hung up.


"I don't get it, this guy is the son of the governor, but nobody knows what happened to him?" Agent Tropper asked, "How's that even possible? How does a governors son just up and disappear?"


"I don't know man, but we're getting nowhere," Agent Siskel said, "All I do know is that he and Claire were mutual benefactors. Hell, he probably supplied a good portion of the people in this city. What we need to do is get access to his apartment, you know? Get a warrant and get in there, see if he left any kind of paper trail."


Agent Tropper leaned back in his seat and sighed.


"And what do we do about Driscoll?" he asked.


"Eventually she's gonna have something else for us," Agent Siskel said, "Especially if she wants to not get the death penalty. If she wants to work out some kind of deal, she's gonna have to work with us on this. I think she knows more than she's letting on."


"Why would she hide it if she did?"


"Loyalty? I don't know. Running a cult can create a kind of mindset that you can trick anyone into doing anything. It's like a magic trick, you know? You create an illusion out of nothing. She got these people to believe in something just by being charming enough, and a magician never reveals their secrets."


"You're a dweeb," Agent Tropper said, making the both of them laugh; he groaned, stood up and sighed, "Welp, guess I'll try and get that warrant. Otherwise we have no leads and it's gonna go cold before it even started."


With that, each agent went back to their respective work, each not knowing where it all would eventually lead. In the end, it would turn out that Agent Siskel was far more accurate in her comparison than they could've ever anticipated.


                                                                              ***


"I like it," Allie said, admiring the firetruck now sitting on Nick's mantel in his apartment. She was holding a glass of wine, as he came into the room, holding his own.


"It's okay if you drink wine, right?" he asked.


"Hard liquor is my issue, but yes, a glass or two is okay," Allie said, "I'm capable of restraining myself...can I ask you a question?"


"Certainly," Nick said, sitting on the couch as Allie paced in front of him.


"Do you see any kind of future?" Allie asked.


"You asking if I'm a seer, or?"


"No, idiot," she said, laughing, "No, I mean, like...what do you see for yourself, maybe, 5 years from now, you know? Do you see yourself ever owning a home, ever having a family, ever...ever having a wife? Does that sort of stuff ever cross your mind?"


"Yeah, I mean occasionally," Nick said, leaning forward, "...why, does it cross yours?"


"I like things the way they are right now," Allie said, setting their wine glasses on the table by the couch and climbing into Nick's lap, "but I can't say I'm not open to change. It just all depends. I just wanted to see what your head was at about it all."


Nick kissed her and then kissed down her neck to her collarbones, making her breath heavily.


"Let's just take it one day at a time," he said softly, and she nodded in agreement.


Seeing Megan so upset messed her up, and had gotten her thinking about her own future. Whether she'd ever want children. Whether she'd ever want to be married. And if so, could she see herself having those things with Nick? Megan wasn't wrong in calling him a good guy. Nick was, in fact, a good guy. He was the best guy she'd ever dated, and she was so happy to know him and to have him. But she couldn't help but think about the future. Things had changed so drastically in the past year that it made her think that maybe change wasn't all that bad after all.


Of course, by the end of this year, she'd go back to believing change was awful.


But like Nick had said, best to take it one day at a time.

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It was raining, but thankfully Angie's teacher had an umbrella.

Standing outside the school, holding Angelica's hand, the two waited for Angie's mom to pull up to get her daughter. It wasn't pouring, but it was wet enough for Angie to be wearing galoshes and a little rain slicker over her clothes. Her teacher checked her watch, and rolled her eyes. Angie's mother, Rebecca, was almost always late, but at least this time she had a reasonable explanation. The rain always screwed with traffic, and so it was likely this one wasn't her fault. After a bit, she finally saw Becca's car pulling up as it slowed to a stop and the passenger side door opened. Angie's teacher helped her climb inside and then shut the door as she looked through the window at Becca.

"I'm so sorry," Becca said, "thank you for waiting with her, you're an absolute dream."

"It's okay, I don't mind, I just wanna make sure everyone gets home safe," she replied, waving, "Have a good weekend."

The car lurched forward and Becca pulled away, heading back onto the road as Angie buckled herself in. For a little bit, they just drove towards home, neither one saying a thing. As the car came to a stop at a red light, Angie looked out the window at the rain dripping off the trees leaves and smiled. She liked it when it rained. She finally looked back at her mom, who smiled warmly at her.

"He's coming you know," she said.

"He is?"

"Mhm," Becca said, tapping her nails on the steering wheel, "He should be here soon. He was leaving a day ago, so he should be here anytime now. He's bringing you chocolate."

Angie smiled. She loved chocolate, and she loved seeing her father.

                                                                                                  ***

"Well," Leah said, sitting with Melanie in her office, "I think it's safe to say you're ready."

"Is it safe to say that?" Mel asked.

"Absolutely!" Leah said, chuckling, "You've shown remarkable growth and improvement, and as long as you stay on your medication, everything should stay the same, or improve. I'll schedule you for a weekly appointment, if you'd like, but I don't think you need weekly honestly. I'd say monthly would be better for you, but it's up to you."

"I like weekly," Melanie said.

"Weekly it is then," Leah said, jotting it down on her notepad as the door to her office opened, and they both looked at the door to see Emma entering, quietly apologizing as she took a seat beside Melanie on the couch. Leah looked back up at Melanie, capped her pen and said, "Congratulations, Melanie, you can go home."

Melanie wanted to cry. She never expected this day to come. She was going to be able to see her apartment again, to see Gus every day again, to do whatever she wanted, wear whatever she wanted. She wasn't 'cured', she knew that much, but she was as close to 'cured' as someone like her could get, and god damn if she wasn't proud of herself.

"You her ride?" Leah asked Emma, who nodded.

"Yeah," Emma said, "We're meeting with some friends for lunch to celebrate her release, and I'm who she asked to get her."

Just then Emma's cell rang, so she pulled it from her purse and answered it. It was Darren. She smiled as she exited the room, explaining how she was getting Melanie right now. After she'd left the room, Melanie stood up and stretched, as Leah walked to a small safe in her office and started turning the lock.

"I have something for you," Leah said, opening the door to the safe and reaching inside, pulling out a crown. She stood back up and turned to face Mel, holding it out to her, adding, "remember? You left this in my care, and I said I'd hold onto it until you got back."

"...my...my crown," Melanie said, staring at it blankly.

"Don't take it if you think it's going to hurt you, obviously, but I figured you'd want it, especially after...well...you know."

Melanie took the crown and smiled, her eyes wet with tears. She then threw her arms around Leah, hugging her firmly, making Leah laugh.

"I couldn't have done this without you, thank you," she said softly.

"It was my pleasure, Melanie," Leah replied.

After leaving Leah's office, Emma gathered Mel's bags that she'd packed the night before, and carried them out to her car while Mel searched around her room for anything else she might've left. As she stood in her room, she heard some feet approach the door and assumed Emma was back, but when she turned, she saw Amelia standing there, looking at her shoes. Mel walked towards the door, but Amelia wouldn't look up.

"You're getting out?" Amelia asked quietly.

"Mhm, leaving any minute now. I was going to stop by and see you before I went, so I'm glad you-"

"I made you this," Amelia said, holding out a small picture book, which Melanie took and looked at, before looking back at Amelia.

"You can come," Melanie said, "You're not stuck here. You can come with me."

"...I like it here," Amelia said, "It's safe in here."

"It can be safe out there too, if you have the right people," Melanie said, "let me be the right person."

Amelia blushed, but shook her head. Mel felt her heart drop, but she knew she couldn't push her to do something she didn't feel comfortable doing. This was where she lived, and who was Melanie to make her leave her home? Melanie ran her hand up to Amelia's face, making her finally look up, their eyes catching one another. Melanie smiled, then leaned in and kissed her for what felt like an eternity. After it ended, she rested her forehead on Amelia's, both their eyes shut, and she smiled.

"I'll come back for you," she whispered.

Melanie joined Emma in the car a few minutes later, and together they drove towards a nearby BBQ place, where they were to meet Gus and Bea and Darren. Sitting in the car, watching the mental home get smaller in the distance, Melanie wanted to cry. All her life she'd been terrified of winding up in a place like that, and now she was terrified of leaving it behind. She felt Emma put a hand on her thigh, and she smiled, resting her hand on Emma's. At least she had her friends.

After all, what's a princess without her loyal subjects?

                                                                                                    ***

It had been weeks, and no phone call, no arrival, no chocolates. Angie was heartbroken, and Rebecca was furious, though she didn't let Angie see this. She kept trying to call, but she only ever got voicemail, and eventually, even the phone was shut off. Now she had no way of reaching him. How could this happen? How could he just vanish like this, without ever saying a word?

Then, one morning, when preparing to drive Angie to school, Rebecca was approached by a cop in the lot of the apartment complex. The windows were up, so Angie couldn't hear anything, but she saw her mother talking to the cop momentarily, before cupping her mouth with her hands and screaming before dropping to her knees. She watched the cop kneel and console her mother, but she didn't have any understanding as to what was going on.

After a few minutes, Rebecca climbed into the car and started it, trying her best not to cry anymore.

"What's wrong?" Angie asked.

"...nothing's wrong, baby, let's go to school," Rebecca said.

This news would have to be delivered delicately, Rebecca thought as she turned the key in the ignition, hearing the car roar to life. After all, how do you break it to a little girl that her father is dead? The things that kind of loss could do to a child, she thought.

                                                                                                  ***

"She's got you beat, dude, give it up," Gus said as he watched Bea and Darren have a rib eating contest while waiting for Emma and Melanie to arrive. They were seated at a long table by a window in the back, and he was nothing if not impressed by Bea's abilities to scarf down food.

"This is bullshit," Darren said, tossing a bone down on his plate, "she's younger than me, she's got a better metabolism."

"Dude we're the same age," Bea said.

"Really?"

"Yeah huh," Bea replied, nodding, setting her own bone down now and grinning, "I can't help it if I'm a glutton."

"You keep showing me new skills and I keep finding each one more impressive than the last," Gus said, kissing her cheek, making her laugh as Emma and Melanie arrived at the table. Emma sat beside Darren, while Melanie sat on the other side of Gus, who leaned over and hugged her, making her giggle.

"I'd hug you too, honey, but I'm all saucy," Bea said, wriggling her fingers at Mel.

"Boy if that ain't the truth," Gus said, making them laugh.

"So," Darren said, leaning forward and wiping his mouth on a napkin, "How's it feel, kid? To be out of there? Be back on the outside? Got any plans now that you're among society again?"

"She didn't get released from prison, Darren, what the hell," Emma said, chuckling as she lifted his iced tea to her lips and sipped.

"It's...weird," Melanie said, "When you go into a place like that, it seems like it'll be for forever, but...it isn't for forever, and eventually when you're let out, it feels like you were never there before. But...I wanna apologize to everyone, because my behavior wasn't-"

"No," Gus said, interrupting her, "no, I mean, yes, your weren't stable and it was dangerous, but...honestly, Mel, our lives were awful before you, and now they're better because of you. These two were milquetoast as hell," he said, motioning at Darren and Emma, both of who laughed as he added, "and me...I was a barely recovering alcoholic and I didn't think I could ever trust anyone to get close to me again, and you kicked in my door and forced me to be friends with you, and I don't think I could ever thank you enough for that. Recognize you were ill, certainly, but don't apologize for it. It wasn't your fault, and now you're better, so it all worked out."

Melanie wanted to cry. She had the best friends anyone could ever ask for. She leaned her head on Gus's shoulder and shut her eyes. And yet, happy as she was, there were still lingering issues in her mind. She missed Amelia, and she hated that she wouldn't leave the home, and of course, there was the issue regarding Shane's apartment...

After a while of gorging themselves on BBQ, Bea goaded Darren into beating her at pool, while Emma watched, leaving Gus and Melanie alone at the table. They watched from the table and laughed, each drinking a soda of their own, until Melanie finally cleared her throat and looked at Gus.

"I need your help," she said.

"Yeah, with what?" he asked, scratching his nose.

"...I need to clean out Shane's apartment," she said, "Mom wants to give it up, obviously, so we need to clear it out. She can't bear to do it herself, so she's asked me, and now I'm asking you, because I'm not sure I'm strong enough to do it on my own, to be honest."

"Yeah, that's no problem, I could do that with you," Gus said, "When?"

"I was hoping tomorrow," Mel said, "I mean, unless that doesn't work for you, or whatever."

"Naw, tomorrow's fine. Bea's got training anyway for the faire this year, so I'll be free," he said.

"...do you still like me?" Melanie asked quietly, surprising him.

"What do you mean?" he asked, "Why wouldn't I?"

"I guess I just always believed that people didn't like me when I was, I don't know, stable? Once I was admitted, I worried that if I got better, you guys would stop liking me. You wouldn't wanna be my friend anymore because I wasn't interesting anymore-"

"You weren't 'interesting', Melanie, you were worrisome. Don't ever think your poor mental faculties are what made you interesting. What makes you interesting is the fact that you decided it'd be better if you were healthier. That's a strength not everyone has," Gus said, "Hell, it took my marriage to fall apart for me to admit that my drinking was a detriment, not a quirk. You're stronger than I am, and I'm stronger now for having known you."

Melanie smiled and looked at the table, trying not to let him see her cry. She reached across the table, and he held her hand.

"I love you, Melanie," he said, "you're my best friend, man. I'm so glad you're home."

"I'm glad I'm home too. I love you too, man," she said, "thanks for keeping my shit together while I was gone."

"Thanks for getting your shit together while you were gone," Gus said, the both of them laughing.

Yes, it was a wonderful first day of the rest of her life. She'd worry about Shane's apartment the next day.

                                                                                                  ***

Angie had been morose since Rebecca had told her about her fathers death.

She wouldn't play the way she used to, she didn't like anything she used to like, and frankly, Rebecca was beginning to get worried. She watched Angie lay on her bed and color, but she didn't color with vigor anymore. It was more like something to do to pass the time, not an activity she actually enjoyed. Becca walked away from the room and sighed, scratching her head and fighting back tears. She thought back to when Angie had been born, and what he'd said that day...

"I'll always be here when she needs me"

Sure, he'd said it, but where was he now? When she needed him most? Now he was nowhere, and children don't cope well with that level of abandonment, intentional or otherwise. She knew from the start he had another life, a life he couldn't bail on, but when he told her he was finally coming home, she knew that life was over and they could finally be a family. And now what were they? A broken family? No. A broken family was a family that couldn't find a way to be a family. He'd wanted them to be a family. This was an accident. They were broken, though.

Just not in the traditional sense.

                                                                                                   ***

"Wow, nice digs," Gus said as he and Melanie entered the apartment.

Shane's place was well kept, organized, and minimal. It almost didn't even look lived in, as if he didn't spend a lot of his time here. Melanie shut the door behind them as they entered and she stood in the center of the living room, hands on her hips, exhaling, blowing her bangs from her eyes.

"...this doesn't feel real," Melanie finally said, "This...this doesn't feel real. That's the only way I can describe it, as unreal, and as someone who's spent a good portion of her life dealing with unreality, let me tell you that I know what I'm talking about with confidence."

Gus chuckled as he walked in more, looking through Shane's CD collection in the tower.

"Had good taste in music, we could've been friends," he said.

"He was always able to make friends, I was the one who had trouble," Mel said, walking to the table by his couch and opening it, pulling some things out as she added, "even then though, it always seemed like he was alone more often than not. I think he was scared. After dad died, I think he was scared to get that close to someone again, in case something happened to either himself or them."

"Understandable," Gus said, pulling a CD from the tower, "ooh, this album's out of print!"

"...this drawer has a fake bottom," Melanie said, catching Gus's attention.

"What's that now?" he asked, turning and walking towards her.

Melanie pulled the entire drawer out and then removed the false bottom, only to find an envelope underneath. She sat on the arm of the couch by the table and unclipped the top of the envelope, sliding out papers of all shapes and sizes. Gus sat beside her, looking at it with her, her eyes widening with each line read until they finally came to a photo.

"...oh my god,"  Melanie whispered, "...oh my god."

The papers? Birth certificates and other information regarding a little girl named Angelica, and a wedding certificate regarding Shane and a woman named Rebecca. And the photo? Well, the photo showed Shane and a little girl, presumably the same little girl the birth certificate belonged to, standing in front of a school together, as he hugged her tightly, and scribbled on the back was the writing

"Princess's first day of kindergarten w/ dad!"

Melanie collapsed back into the couch as everything she thought she knew about her brother melted away. Even Gus knew the implications, and didn't know how to react. The two of them sat together on the couch, staring at the apartment, unsure of how to go on.

"...he had a daughter...a wife," Melanie whispered.

                                                                                             ***

Shane and Melanie were standing outside the school a few months after their fathers death, and Shane was buttoning the collar on Melanie's shirt as she struggled to get free. He grinned at her energy, then knelt down to be eye level with her and touched her face.

"Remember to smile for your school photo," he said.

"Why?"

"Because you look nice when you smile," Shane said, "Remember? Dad always said you had the nicest smile he ever saw. I'll be back to pick you up after I'm out of school, okay? Just wait for me here. Now, salute."

Melanie saluted and Shane saluted his little sister back.

"Make the kingdom proud, your highness," he said.
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It was just another day for Claire Driscoll.


She would wake up, take a shower, get dressed and then drive a few miles out of town to the outer desert area of Vegas, until she finally came to the compound. She'd park, she'd walk inside and she'd eat breakfast that had been lovingly made for her. She would go over her speech while she ate, sometimes even rewriting sections minutes before reciting it, and once breakfast was done, Claire would slip into her black robe and put the wooden crown on her head. She'd walk slowly, cautiously, out to the stage and look out over the large group of people she had standing, waiting for her, who cheered upon her arrival. Claire shut her eyes and smiled, basking in the adoration from her followers, and then would hold up her hands to silence them, before clearing her throat and speaking.


"Hello and good morning to you all," she said, "This is a day we will not forget soon, for it is the day the last required death will be attained. I will do this with my own hands, like all the others, so you all remain pure. Once they have been killed, we shall we be protected, just as I have promised."


The crowd murmured, some light applause scattering throughout.


"As you all know," Claire continued, pacing across the stage, "It will take a while for the world to understand, and accept, what we do here. But in the end, we will be vindicated, and you will be saved, that much I can guarantee."


Suddenly her head throbbed and she reached up, touching her forehead before suddenly exiting the stage, leaving one of her higher ups to speak in her place. Claire leaned against the wall and groaned as another higher up of hers, a young woman named Annie, approached.


"Have we heard from him yet?" Claire asked, and Annie shook her head.


"He's still not answering his phone," she said.


"Ugh," Claire groaned again, pulling her crown off and running her hands through her large matte of red hair; she continued, "this is unacceptable, I need that medication. I needed it months ago. Find out where he is, okay? Do whatever it takes."


"Yes ma'am," Annie said, leaving with her cell phone again.


Claire Driscoll hadn't wanted to lead these people in this sort of ritual, but her poor mental health had overwhelmed her. In the beginning, she'd merely been a leader of a group of people who'd wanted something more out of life, but ever since her dealers disappearance - thus losing her access to her antipsychotics - she'd slipped further and further into her delusions, eventually leading her group to follow her as she began to kill people and store their remains in the walls of an abandoned apartment complex she'd purchased.


Eventually, when her crimes were discovered and Claire was finally arrested, she swore up and down that it wasn't her fault, that if she'd just had her medication, none of this would've happened. She told them to find her dealer, to find the man who had been selling her pills since she couldn't attain healthcare, but they didn't listen to her. To them, it was just a flimsy excuse for her actions, but Claire swore she'd somehow discover what had happened to the man who'd been keeping her in line with his access to pills.


She'd discover what had happened to Sunny Sykes, the drug dealer Allie Meers had killed and buried.


                                                                               ***


Allie rolled over onto her side and opened one eye, her focus blurry, as she saw Nick lying in the bed beside her. She smiled and reached over, rubbing her hand down his arm, making him wake up a little and smile at her. After a moment, he scooted closer to her and climbed on top of her, kissing her neck, making her moan. After fucking, Allie and Nick showered, got dressed and went to get breakfast at a nearby pastry place that Zoe had been going to and raving about lately.


Zoe was already there, standing in line, with Molly by her side, waiting to order. It had been about half a year since the opening of The Card Shark, and things had only gotten better for them all. Every morning the four of them got together for breakfast at a different place, and Zoe had recommended this place the previous night because she'd been here with Effie time and time again. Waiting to order, Zoe folded her arms and sighed, tapping her foot.


"Do you want coffee?" she asked, glancing at Molly, who shook her head.


"No thanks," she replied, "No, I'm in a constant state of anxiety without the help of caffeine, thank you very much. I've been trying to drink less coffee for a few months now."


"How's that working out for you?" Zoe asked.


"Well, let's put it this way," Molly replied, "I was hired to make a suite of offices a month ago and I haven't started conceptualizing because I'm too tired all the time. That answer your question?"


"It answers my question about whether or not you're a grouch in the morning," Zoe muttered, the both of them chuckling.


Zoe suddenly felt a hand on her shoulder and looked to her side to see Allie standing there, smiling, as Nick went and got them all a table. Allie's hair was braided and she was wearing jeans and an orange v-neck with a green windbreaker. Molly was in a blouse with jeans, while Zoe was in a striped shirt with slacks. The three women stood their place in line, almost at the counter.


"What about you, you're still drinking coffee, right?" Zoe asked, glancing at Allie.


"Me? Yeah, duh. Why, who isn't drinking coffee?"


"Heyo," Molly said, raising her hand.


"You're not drinking coffee? What do you drink in the morning?" Allie asked, sounding concerned.


"Oh, usually I just lift up the toilet seat and take a few laps out of the bowl," Molly said, staring at her sternly, "I drink tea, I drink water, what the hell do you think I drink? At least I'm not out here drinking half a flask of scotch before noon."


"Don't knock it til you've tried it," Allie said, making them all chuckle.


Yes, things had been great for the girls in the six months since the Card Shark had opened, and each woman had never been better. Zoe was becoming more and more proficient in her magic skills - to the point where she was, at times, outright opening for Allie instead of just assisting her - while Molly had gained more attention for her work on the new casino and had since been offered multiple jobs by high profile clients. And Allie? Well, Allie was as Allie always is.


Astounding.


                                                                               ***


Zoe awoke in a flash, sweating, breathing hard. She'd been having these nightmares for a few weeks now, and she was beginning to get tired of them. She rolled over and looked at the clock on her bedside table, which informed her it was only 3am. She sighed and sat up, running her hands through her bushy hair. She got out of bed and headed down the hall, to the kitchen, where she made herself a sandwich and got a soda from the fridge before seating herself at the table.


She hadn't thought about Sunny in months now, so why all of a sudden was his death invading her dreams? She just tried to shake it off, best she could, and focus on her sandwich. She wondered if Allie ever had dreams like this. If Allie ever had nightmares about Sunny...about what they'd done to him. She shook that off as well, trying to outright ignore anything Sunny related now. Sandwich. All that mattered was the sandwich. She heard footsteps approaching, and glanced to the doorway to see her sister Thea coming in, yawning.


"Bad dreams again?" she asked, stretching as she took a seat.


"Yeah, why are you up?" Zoe asked.


"Period cramps," Thea replied, making Zoe nod in understanding; Thea took a sip of Zoe's soda, smacked her lips then said, "so, uh...mom called me last night while you were at work."


"Really?" Zoe asked, genuinely surprised, "Why would she ever do that?"


"Heh, I guess she just was feeling melancholy. She asked how you were doing. I told her you were doing great, and that you had a good job and a good circle of friends. She sounded actually happy for you. She said she'd like to talk to you."


"Yeah, well, that would require me wanting to talk to her, and I don't see that happening," Zoe said.


"Fair 'nuff, just thought I'd tell you," Thea said, shrugging, "Well, if you're having trouble sleeping, or are afraid you might have more bad dreams, try listening to some white noise. That always seems to relax me. But who knows, might not work for you. You might not find the soothing sounds of ocean calmness as soothing as they claim to be."


Thea stood up, kissed her little sister on the head and then headed back to bed. Zoe stayed seated and continued eating her sandwich. Once she was done, she washed her plate, crushed her soda can and tossed it in the recycling can, and then headed back to her bedroom. God. Mom...mom wanted to talk to her after all this time? Ugh. As if she didn't already have enough people she was trying not to think about without adding her parents to the mix.


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Allie was seated at the bar, eating pretzel sticks out of the bowl on the counter while watching the television that was hung up overhead for patrons. The bartender, a 30sish woman by the name of Portia, walked up and started wiping the counter near Allie.


"Not working today?" she asked.


"Not til tonight," Allie replied, "these pretzel sticks are stale."


"I didn't know nor do I care. I am not the one who keeps these snack bowls filled. You wanna lodge a formal complaint, take it up with whoever that guy is," Portia said.


"Who is the guy who fills these bowls?"


"I don't know, his name's probably Greg or something, I've never met him. I just show up and they're filled, as if by some magical unseen snack loving force."


"Sounds like something a guy named Greg would do," Allie replied, the both of them smirking as Effie climbed onto the stool beside Allie and pulled a granola bar from her pocket, ripping it open with her teeth and biting into it. Allie slowly looked over at her, one eyebrow raised.


"I didn't have breakfast," she said mouth half full of granola bar.


"You're also not having breakfast now," Allie said, laughing.


"It's the closest thing I could get!" Effie said, as Allie turned Effie's wrist and looked at the wrapper.


"Honey, marshmellow and chocolate granola," Allie read, "Yeah, sounds like a real part of a balanced breakfast."


"So," Effie said, swallowing her mouthful of granola, "Zoe's not here yet?"


"I haven't seen her, no," Allie said, "She didn't spend the night with you?"


"Nah, I had to work late and then I had to do some press junkets for a TV special, so," Effie said, "I didn't want her waiting around for me. She's been doing good in her magic, I've stopped by to see her open for you and boy she's really coming along."


"Yeah, she's a very talented young lady," Allie said.


"That make you nervous? Like she could usurp you?"


"Usurp me? I'm not a king."


"You know what I mean," Effie said, laughing.


"I mean," Allie replied, shrugging half heartedly, "Sort of I guess but I also know she respects me and that we're friends. I trust that she wouldn't do that sort of thing. She has admiration for me, and frankly I've gotten used to having her around, so it wouldn't be the same without her. Besides, now we're known as a team basically, despite not being billed as such, so that sort of change would confuse showgoers. You know how the public is, they need everything to stay simple and stay the same. One little move to the left and you've got them all worked up."


"It's true," Effie said, "Once, instead of doing a set of comedy, I came on stage and performed open heart surgery. They just didn't get it."


Allie threw her head back, laughing heavily, as Effie smirked. Allie knew she should find Zoe at some point, preferably before the show that night, but until that happened she didn't mind just sitting here with Effie and having fun. Life hadn't been fun for so long, she was having a good time getting used to it again.


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The door opened, and a man and a woman entered the room. The man, younger, the woman, older, both in suits. They sat down at the table, looking across at the young woman sitting opposite them, who wouldn't bring her eyes to their level. After a moment, the woman in the suit sighed and slid a file across the table towards the other woman.


"It's pretty bad," she said, "You're looking at a life sentence. Anything you wanna inform us about before the justice system makes some kind of assumption?"


"...I needed medication," Claire finally said, "...I don't think I would've done what I did had I been properly medicated. The health system is a joke, so I turned to outside sources, primarily drug dealers, and primarily one drug dealer in particular. But when he stopped returning my calls...that's when I got bad again. That's when I started spouting all that stuff about rebirth."


"So you don't believe any of it?" the man asked.


"I do, because it's all I have to believe in," Claire said, "but this is just as much his fault as it is mine, for letting me down."


The man and woman exchanged a look, then stood up and started to exit. As the woman started to pull the door shut behind her, Claire turned her head and spoke again.


"His name was Sunny Sykes," she said, "and if I'd gotten the chance, I would've killed him too for what he did to me."


With that, the door shut. The man and woman found themselves standing in the hall now, staring at one another.


"Well that's an admittance of sorts," Agent Tropper said, shaking his head, "I mean...she flat out admitted she'd have killed her own drug dealer. Then again, trying to rope him into the blame for her actions...I mean, on some level she's not wrong, cause yeah, he stopped providing her and let her slip into unreality, but he wasn't the one who carried out these acts."


"This is pretty clear cut," the woman, Agent Siskel, replied, adding, "she committed the crimes, drug dealer or not, and now she's the one who'll be facing the penalty for it. I don't think we have to work too hard to convince any judge or jury of her crimes."


"You wanna get lunch?" Agent Tropper asked.


"Yeah, sure," Agent Siskel said, the two of them heading down the hall. Suddenly, Agent Siskel stopped, her eyes glued to a board on the wall. Agent Tropper walked back to her and watched her momentarily, snapping his fingers.


"Everything alright?" he asked.


"Look," she said quietly, pointing.


There, on the board, was a "Missing" poster for a man named Sunny Sykes...and below it, a statement which read:


                           "Help find the Governors Son! Any information welcome!"


"...shit," Agent Tropper whispered.

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Emma was standing in front of her bathroom mirror, looking at herself. She wanted to cry, but she was also afraid her makeup would run if she did, and then her parents would be annoyed with her for making them run late for services. Instead, she bit her lip and left the bathroom, headed down the stairs and climbed into the car to stay out of the rain. A few minutes later, her parents joined her, and together they drove to the cemetery for her sisters funeral.

Now, standing in front of her bathroom mirror once again as an adult, Emma found she wanted to cry. But this time, she wasn't going to be berated for doing so, so she did. She put her hands on the bathroom counter and she cried. She'd fix her makeup afterwards and if she were a few minutes late, nobody would care. She let herself sob hard, sob deeply, mourning a man she'd only known for a few months. She finally looked back at herself in the mirror, took a long deep breath, then started reapplying her makeup.

After a few minutes, Darren entered the bathroom, leaning on his cane as he looked at Emma. He reached out and touched her shoulders, making her smile weakly. He said something, but she was so deep in thought that she couldn't make out his words. She just nodded.

Meanwhile, Melanie was sitting in her room at the institution, staring at her shoes. She wanted to scream. She wanted to cry. She wanted to whither away and vanish. Finally the door opened and she looked towards it to see Bea and Gus standing there. Melanie stood up and Bea entered, putting her arms around her, squeezing her tightly, finally making Melanie break and start to cry. After their hug broke, Melanie felt Gus wrap his arms around her and squeeze warmly. He put his lips to her ear and whispered.

"I'm so sorry your highness," he said, which made her smile.

Gus and Bea drove Melanie to the cemetery, knowing her mother would be arriving by herself, as she'd requested them to pick up Melanie. In the ride over, the rain falling hard on the car windows, Melanie couldn't help but think about what had happened that night in Gus's apartment. She shut her eyes and cried silently again.

Emma and Darren were still driving there as well, as Emma also watched the rain outside.

"It always rains on funerals," Emma said.

"What?" Darren asked, half laughing.

"It always rains on funerals," Emma repeated, "Every funeral I've ever been to, it's inexplicably rained, as if its reserved for these very specific occasions. It's weird, that's all."

"Huh," Darren said, "I guess you're right. I've never really thought about it, but you're right, now that I look back at my life, it has always rained on funerals. That's...bizarre. God I hope Melanie is going to be okay. We haven't seen her since it happened, and I can only hope that she's stable enough mentally now to cope with this sort of loss. I mean, we know how her fathers death impacted her, I can only imagine-"

"Stop talking Darren," Emma said, to which he did.

                                                                                                ***

Karen was, unbeknownst to the others, actually already at the cemetery, sitting in the temple, looking at the casket. She sighed, checked her watch, then stood up. She approached the casket, closed, her shoes making an echoing sound throughout the empty temple. As she reached the casket, she reached out and touched the casket lid, and a smile immediately broke out on her lips, but she couldn't understand why.

"I'm so sorry Shane," she whispered, "I wish I could've seen you before this happened. I wish...I wish I could've given you a better childhood, or a better family, or a better mother in particular, but I did the best I could in spite of what we went through. You were the best son I could've ever hoped for, and your father loved you, even if he showed it the way he showed it with Mel. But trust me, he loved you."

She sighed and looked around the temple, smiling.

"It's beautiful," she said, "The temple, I mean. I think you'd like it. You always had a soft spot for religious iconography."

She ran her hand down the casket and her smile faded slightly.

"You were the last Irres," she said, "The last male anyway. The line is dead now. God. An entire bloodline dead within a few decades. It doesn't seem fair, does it, Shane? You were also the only male McMeyers, so there'll be no more of those either. Your father and myself will both be responsible for ending our lineage. Ironic."

The door opened and a Rabbi entered. He walked up to Karen and smiled warmly at her as she turned to see him.

"Hello," she said.

"Are we almost ready?" he asked.

"Everyone should be here soon," she said, "...Rabbi, can I ask you a question?"

"Certainly."

"Suppose someone didn't go to temple regularly, suppose they didn't consider themselves particularly religious in the slightest...they still go to Heaven, right?"

"God welcomes all with open arms," the Rabbi said, reaching out and rubbing Karen's arm gently, adding, "He doesn't judge us for our choices. He gave us free will after all. If he wanted us to be fearful, he wouldn't have let us do whatever we wanted. He would've made certain we all believed. And giving us free will certainly wasn't a litmus test, a sort of 'well, the real believers will find their way back to me and those will be the ones I reward' because why would he claim to love us all if only to damn some of us outright from the offset? Your son has a place in this universe, Mrs Irres, believe me."

"Thank you, Rabbi," Karen said, watching him turn and leave as she looked back at the casket and smiled again.

Shane had a place in the universe. He always did, even when he felt like he didn't. Karen started to cry. Her son was dead, and her family was smaller. This gaping hole left behind by the loss of her husband had only grown larger now, and she was unsure if anything would ever fill it.

                                                                                                    ***

"I love cemeteries," Bea said as they parked and climbed out of the car.

"You would, you fucking goth," Gus said, making her laugh.

"No, really, they have such a lovely calm atmosphere that you just can't find anywhere else," Bea said, "It's like a spookier botanical garden. A botanical garden full of dead people."

"You really know how to brighten up a day," Gus said as they looked back at the car, realizing Melanie hadn't gotten out yet. Bea looked at Gus, then headed back to the car and leaned in, pulling the front passenger seat up so she could see Mel in the back clearly.

"You okay?" she asked.

"If I go out there, if I attend this, he's gone," Mel said quietly, "It's real. If I acknowledge it, it's real."

"It is real, Mel, acknowledgement isn't necessary to reality. Things happen whether you believe them to or not. But you have Gus, you have Emma and Darren, plus your mom is already here it seems. We'll be with you, you know that. You don't have to go alone."

Mel looked at Bea, who smiled at her and touched her face.

"We're your friends, sweetheart," she said, "we're not gonna let you deal with this alone, okay? Come on, come inside."

Bea exited the car and, taking Melanie by the hand, led her out into the parking lot. Melanie hadn't been to a cemetery in a while, it felt like, not since she'd shown Gus her fathers grave. She hated cemeteries. She hated the idea of death and non existence. She hated that she didn't have a brother anymore, thanks to the insecurity of one man. This wasn't fair. Melanie started walking through the yard, past the headstones, and eventually stopped at a moss covered bench, seating herself.

"I just...I need a minute, I'll come in, I just need a minute," she said.

"You take as much time as you need, okay," Gus said, he and Bea heading in without her.

Melanie sat there for a while, listening to the wind howl, and feeling the light rain hitting her face and her hair. She was playing with the lace on her dress sleeves when she heard someone sit beside her and looked over to see Emma. Emma was holding an umbrella, covering them both, but neither woman spoke, not immediately anyway. Melanie looked around, but didn't see Darren.

"He's inside," Emma said, "I told him to go in without me."

"Why?"

"So I could talk to you," Emma said.

A long moment passed, full of silence, until Emma spoke again.

"I loved your brother," she finally said, "I...I started to have feelings for him, but he rebuffed me, as he should've, and reminded me how lucky I already am to have someone like Darren. Darren and I have our problems, but they're not insurmountable. We can overcome them if we just work together, because that's what a relationship is, it's effort. You wanna be with someone so badly that you'll do whatever it takes, to an extent of course. Your brother, though...he understood me in a way Darren never will."

"Shane was like that," Melanie said, pushing some of her silky blonde hair behind her ear and sighing, "He...he just kinda got people automatically, even within minutes of meeting them. He was always there to hear you, to help you...god, listen to me, I'm eulogizing him outside of the temple."

Emma chuckled and rubbed her hand up and down Melanie's back.

"...I hope he knew how appreciated he was," Mel said, "I hope...I hope he knew that we loved him. That I loved him. That I was really sorry for making him throw away his adolescence so he could protect me. That I regret making his life more difficult than it should've been, all because I got stuck with my fathers sisters mental problems."

"No, he wouldn't an apology," Emma said, shaking her head and taking Mel's hand in her own, rubbing it, "He loved you for who you were, and if you'd been different, he'd have loved that version of you. He loved you, for you, Mel, because you were his sister. Mental instability or not, he loved you. The last thing he'd ever want is for you to be sorry for yourself to him."

Melanie nodded, smiling weakly.

"Come on," Emma said, "Let's go inside and-"

Melanie suddenly threw her arms around Emma and started sobbing, taking her by surprise. After regaining her sense of surroundings, Emma just held Melanie, rubbing her back and stroking her hair.

"You cry as long as you need to, it's okay," she said, "I'm here."

                                                                                                   ***

"Shane was my first child," Karen said, standing in front of the casket in the temple, staring out at the select few who had come to pay their respects; she took a deep breath, blinked a few times and then continued, "and to lose a first child is...hard. To know that they won't see the things you saw, live the life you lived. Shane never got married. Shane never had a kid. He kept his private life exclusive to himself as he got older, and I don't blame him for that, but...to know that he won't leave anyone behind but his family...it makes you wonder about what our purpose even is here."

She looked across the crowd and noticed Melanie, sitting next to Emma, who had her arm around her. Karen smiled.

"He struggled, after my husband died, but he struggled internally. He felt it was his duty to take care of his little sister, be the man to her that their father now couldn't. That was too much pressure for a young boy but...he did it to himself, I never asked him to. I asked him for help, but nothing to the extent that he wound up giving. I think he couldn't stand the thought of a family being torn apart, so he did everything in his power possible to keep it from happening more than it already had. Chris and I...were...not the kind of people who should've been married. We're not the kind of people who should've had kids. Especially not with eachother. We had too many differences, too many problems, but we did, and we made a concerted effort to give them the love and support our own families failed to give us. Chris went above and beyond, and that's where Shane got his strength from, I think, because he did the same thing."

Karen looked down at her hands and sighed, shaking her head.

"And even in the last moments of his life, how did he spend them? Saving someone else, someone he barely knew," Karen said, "Friends of my daughter, of his sister. My only regret with Shane's death isn't that he's dead, because I knew he'd die eventually, we all do. My regret is that I didn't get to see him live. Truly live. Live as he was, as he wanted to be, as he could've been. Live as the man his father tried to be."

She started crying quietly, and excused herself as she turned back to the casket and put her hands on it, exhaling.

"I love you baby," she said, "Momma loves you."

Nobody moved, so Darren finally stood up and approached, taking Karen by the arm and gently leading her back to the pews where she seated herself. Melanie exhaled, knowing it was her chance to speak if she wanted to. She stood up, then looked at Emma.

"Come with me," she whispered, and Emma nodded, standing up and walking to the front with Melanie, standing by her side for support. Melanie tapped the microphone on the podium and exhaled again, looking out at the crowd the way her mother had.

"I just realized something, looking at everyone here," she said, "Nobody who's here actually knew him. Nobody in attendance for my brothers funeral was actually a friend of my brothers. Emma here kind of knew him, but the rest of you...the rest of you barely even met him. His life was so private, so distant from ours, that nobody he knew even showed up. I can't imagine being that alone. Not anymore. Not now that I've gained a support system. Shane was my support system for so long, and I...I think I'll rest easier knowing he'll rest easier knowing that I'm cared for. When we were kids, he followed me to and from school to make sure nobody hurt me. When I moved out, he made sure to have every address I ever stayed at. When I finally lost my shit, he made sure to come to therapy and talk with me."

Melanie started crying, but she bit her lip and soldiered on, feeling Emma's hand on her back.

"I loved my brother so much," she whispered, "and I just hope he knew that, because I don't think I said it enough. You think you do, you think you say it enough, but trust me you don't. You don't. And when the time comes when you finally can't...that's when it dawns on you how many times you could've but didn't. We get caught up in our lives, in the unnecessary drama and the day to day tedium that we think means so much but it doesn't mean anything compared to the people we know. We don't put enough stock in our relationships, and that's where we lose the most."

Mel turned and looked at the casket.

"I'm gonna keep getting better so that my brother would never have to worry about me again," she said, "Because he deserves to finally have some peace and relaxation after all the effort he gave me. It's only fair."

Mel approached the casket and, putting her hands on it, smiled, tears rolling down her face.

"I love you, Shane," she said quietly, almost to herself, "Say hi to dad."

Emma, as Darren had done with Karen, walked Melanie back to her seat, then approached the podium herself, much to everyones surprise. She cleared her throat and pushed her bangs from her eyes.

"Hi, my name is Emma, and I'm a friend of Melanie and Shane's. I only met the Irres about a year or two ago now, and, uh...when I was a teenager, my little sister threw herself off a bridge. My parents didn't grieve. They instead acted as though it never happened. That fucked me up. But...having known Shane, and knowing Melanie, I feel like I can relate to the loss and the grief that comes with losing a sibling. A sibling you try so damn hard to help. I'm not family, but I feel like I am now because of how much time I've spent with these people. I just wanted to take a moment and say that it doesn't matter if you're related, and it doesn't matter if you're not...all that matters is that you care. I cared for Shane. He was my friend. And I'm always gonna care for Melanie because, strange as it sounds to say after what we've been through...she's my best friend."

Melanie smiled, still crying, which made Emma laugh a little. Emma looked back at the casket, but unlike Karen and Mel, she didn't approach it, and she didn't touch it, and she didn't say anything. She just looked at it, the same way she used to look at his face across the diner table, and just appreciate he was there. Then she took her seat.

Eventually the service concluded, and the casket was lowered into the grave. Karen, still rather inconsolable, was taken home by Darren, who said he'd happily drive her car there later if she gave him the keys. Gus and Bea had to visit Chiako, make sure she was doing alright and that Leaf was doing alright with helping her mother. Waiting for Darren to get back, Emma and Mel stood in front of the headstone.

"...I'm your best friend, huh?" Mel asked.

"It's crazy, I know, and...and I can't believe I even said it but...Melanie before you came into my life, it was dull and ordinary. I was just a teacher. I lived simply and had a nice boyfriend and it was all so...plain. You guys made it not so plain, and I'm grateful for that shakeup," Emma replied, looking at Melanie.

"I'm sorry I tried to steal your boyfriend, I...I didn't know at the time that I-"

"No, and I know that, and I don't want you to apologize. Society molds us into the people it thinks we should be, and being anyone other than that is a serious act of rebellion, so I'm proud of you, just like he was," Emma said, "Come on, let's go inside, it's cold out here."

She took Melanie by the hand, and together they headed back into the temple. As they approached the front doors, Melanie took one more look over her shoulder at Shane's grave, and she smiled. He'd done what he'd set out to do, after all.

He had made sure she'd be okay.
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Shane Irres was standing in his apartment, one hand in his pocket, the other wrapped around the phone that was pushed against his face.

"No, I know, and that's why I'm leaving," he said, "Look, I'll be there soon, okay? Things around here have calmed down considerably, and I don't need to be here anymore right now. I think my sister is capable of taking care of herself now and even if not she has a much better support group than she's ever had before. It's...it's no longer my responsibility, and I wanna come back now."

He let the person on the other end speak for a minute, and once they were finished, he smiled.

"Yes, and I'll bring her a box," he said, "She likes white chocolate, right? Okay. I'll be there soon."

Shane hung up the phone, then walked to the suitcases he'd packed the night before. Emma was right. It was time for him to move on. He pulled the suitcases to his car and pushed them into the backseat and the trunk, then walked back into his apartment and sat down on his couch, pulling his pad of paper and a pen to his lap. He thought for a moment, then started to write. Yes, Shane Irres was about to leave town, but first he had to write his sister a letter and leave it at her apartment.

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"He's dangerous," Chiako said, sitting on Gus's couch, "He's dangerous, and he knows he's dangerous and he doesn't care that he's dangerous. That's not exactly a great combination. He's very good at acting like a sane stable human being, but once alone, he...well, you can see."

Gus wanted to scream. In all the years he and Chiako had been together, he'd never once hurt her, not physically anyway. Oh sure, he'd said some stuff he'd later come to deeply regret, and his alcoholism had gotten way out of hand, but he'd never struck her. Gus knew you never hit a woman, unless perhaps it's in self defense, and even then he still would've felt bad about it. He paced back and forth in front of the coffee table as Bea sat on the couch beside Chiako, rubbing her back gently in circles.

"You can't just, you know, go to the police? Get a restraining order? For god sakes, there's physical evidence now," Gus said, finally turning to face her on the couch; he continued, "I mean, sure, he could violate the order, but-"

"Not could, would," Chiako replied, "He would absolutely violate the order and he'd be so mad about it that this bruise would be the least of my concerns. After what he'd do to me if I did that, I'd beg for this bruise. No. And I can't leave. I can't leave cause he'd find me, he'd know where to go, he'd...he'd hurt us if we left."

"Go to your folks, go out of state, somewhere you know he'll never find you," Gus said.

"I'm stuck, Gus," Chiako cried quietly, dabbing her eyes with the end of her sweater sleeve, "I...I'm so stuck and it's so scary."

Gus looked at Bea, who motioned with her head for him to follow her into the kitchen. Once inside, she lowered her voice and looked back over his shoulder at Chiako.

"We can't just send that poor woman out there on her own," Bea said, "As someone who's faced violent men in her personal life, I feel like I have an obligation, a duty of sorts, to help other women who are in the same situation. Look how badly he hurt her, and she's right, if this was for something minor, imagine what he'd do for something major."

"Okay, but what CAN we do, Beatrice? I mean, fuck, she can't just stay here," Gus said, "Wouldn't that be awkward?"

Bea hesitated, then chewed her lip.

"Do you...still love her?"

"I always will, we have a child together, but...god no, no, I'm...Bea," Gus put his hands on her arms and looked her square in the eyes as he smiled and said, "I will always love her for what we have together, but my love for her now is different from my love for her then, and it's not the same as the love I have for you. You're the girl in my life, she's the girl from my past. I can manage both without feeling torn. You're never in danger of being replaced, trust me."

Bea smiled and blushed, looking down at her feet. She leaned in and kissed him, just as the door to the apartment flew open and Jeremy strode inside. With a look of shock on their faces, nobody knew how to react, not that there was time. He saw Chiako, then saw her glance towards the kitchen. He then turned his sight towards Gus and Bea, then raised his gun. Bea quickly reached for a knife on the counter as Jeremy put his finger on the trigger, but Gus grabbed the knife from her and shoved her against the fridge as the gun was fired, and Gus was pushed back against the wall, bleeding from his chest. Bea screamed, Chiako screamed, and Jeremy shut the door behind him, locking it.

"You always come back here," Jeremy said as he approached the couch, "why? Look at him."

Chiako wouldn't look, so Jeremy grabbed her chin and forcefully turned her head.

"I said look at him!" he screamed, "That pathetic piece of shit couldn't even stop drinking and yet you still come back here! Is he better than me?!"

"Anyone's better than you," Bea mumbled, catching Jeremy's attention. He looked up and furrowed his brow, his hand squeezing the gun tightly as Bea wiped her face on her arm, her eyeliner running down her face as she put one hand on Gus and used the other hand to help herself up against the fridge.

"Excuse me?" Jeremy asked.

"You fucking heard me," Bea said, "Anyone's better than you. You're not a man. A man doesn't have to inflict violence on the people he claims to love to get them to love him back. You call Gus a pathetic loser, but at least he recognized his drinking was a problem for those he loved and removed himself from the situation because of it. Because he didn't want to hurt them. You're the one who's fucking pathetic."

Jeremy grinned as he stood fully up now, walking towards her. To his surprise, unlike Chiako, Bea didn't back down as he approached. She firmly stood her ground and stared him in the eyes.

"I like you," he said, "I admit it, you've got some guts. I can't imagine what you see in a guy like Gus here, but that's not really my business I guess. But you could do better, really. So do you want me to shoot him again? Would that make you feel scared? Because if not, then I suggest you sit the fuck down and shut the fuck up until I'm done."

Bea looked at Gus, who just shook his head gently, his eyes fluttering open and shut, and she did as she was told. She lowered herself back to the floor and put her face down on Gus's chest, holding him tightly as Jeremy walked back to the couch and knelt in front of Chiako.

"So let's talk about our relationship," he said coldly.

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Melanie walked into the room after being instructed to enter and shut the door behind her, leaning against it. Amelia looked up from where she sat on the bed and smiled at her.

"Hi," she said, "How was seeing your mom?"

"I need to talk to you," Melanie said, walking further in and sitting on the bed; she scratched the back of her head and sighed, "Um...look, I...I've never really known who I was, and I guess maybe I won't for a while. A few weeks ago I had my friend help me create a personality for my therapist, because I was so unsure of myself that I didn't trust myself to answer her questions correctly. The only thing I've ever known about myself was that I was a princess to my father. Every dad calls their little girl princess, you know, but mine took it seriously."

"I'm sorry," Amelia said, "Losing him must've been hard."

"Yeah, it...it was, and it's taken me a very long time to get to this point, where I'm finally capable of seeing that loss for what it was, loss, and not an excuse. I'm like my father, but I'm not my father. I'm not afraid to be who I am like he was. A lot of that, I guarantee, is simply due to the time periods we each grew up in. He had a lot more reason to be afraid. Thanks to how society reacted, and how his parents would've reacted...but my mom isn't like his parents, he wasn't like them. I wasn't afraid to be a princess and I'm not afraid now to say that I like you and I want you to leave with me."

Amelia smiled again, and took Mel's hand in her own, rubbing it gently.

"I appreciate that," Amelia said, "I do, but I'm not supposed to leave. If you liked me, you'll like someone else. Trust me, outside here, I am not...not okay."

"Neither was I, but now I will be, and now I can help you," Mel said, "Please, let me prove that-"

"No, I...you said it yourself. Your brothers adolescence was stolen from him because he had to constantly watch out for you. I don't want your adulthood stolen from you for the same reason. I'm not worth that. I'm happy that we met, and that maybe I somehow helped you come to these conclusions about yourself, but if you liked me, go like someone new."

Mel felt her chest begin to hurt. All she wanted to do was be with Amelia. Why was this so hard?

"Why are you here?" Mel asked softly, "If you're not going to come with me, at least tell me why you're even here."

Amelia sighed and looked around the room. She wanted to, she did, but she was afraid of what Melanie might think of her if she did. She looked back at Melanie and, leaning in, kissed her on the cheek. Melanie smiled weakly and blushed.

"You're a good person Melanie," she said, "I feel grateful to have known you."

"Come with me," Melanie begged, but Amelia just shook her head, starting to cry too.

"I'm sorry," she whispered, "but I can't."

Melanie just pushed her head into Amelia's chest, and Amelia stroked her hair. Through the doors little window, Karen watched. She wanted Melanie to have love, to be happy, and she could see how much this was hurting her. She sighed and pulled her purse up further on her shoulder by the strings when she heard shoes approach her and turned to see Leah.

"Hi doctor," Karen said.

"I'm glad you came tonight," Leah said, "I need to talk to you about the Melanie's upcoming release."

"...yes, of course, certainly," Karen said. As she prepared to follow Leah to her office, she couldn't help but take one more glance through the window and smile. She knew this would work out somehow. Call it a mothers intuition.

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Bea was sitting on the cold kitchen floor, her fingers playing with Gus's as his breath got more and more shallow. He groaned and tried to sit further up, but she insisted her stay put. She leaned in and looked at the wound, and noticed it wasn't as bad as she initially thought. In fact, it was more of a shoulder wound than an actual chest wound, but it still needed medical attention and soon.

"Bea," Gus said, his voice weak and wobbly, "Hey Bea."

"Ye...yeah?" she asked, wiping her nose on her sleeve.

"You know what I just realized? You stabbed your dad in the shoulder because you hated him, and you stabbed me in the shoulder at the faire. Was it because you loved me?"

"Hah," Bea replied, genuinely chuckling as she shook her head, "Uh, yeah, I guess so. That is an odd mirroring, but sure. You're gonna be okay, okay? I'm gonna get you to the hospital and they'll clean and dress your wound and...and you'll be alright."

She reached in and pushed Gus's hair from his face and then leaned in and kissed him on the forehead. He smiled, then coughed. He never thought he'd be this lucky again to have someone love him this way.

"You're so beautiful," he said softly, which only made her cry more.

Suddenly, Jeremy grabbed Bea by her hair and dragged her away from him, into the center of the living room, throwing her to the floor.

"Sit here and stop talking!" he screamed, "I need to think and I can't fucking do that if you guys won't shut the hell up!"

"Don't you touch her!" Gus shouted, surprising even himself with his strength in the moment.

"Oh yeah? You don't want me to touch her? You gonna stop me?" Jeremy asked, raising the gun and aiming at Gus, who was now pulling himself up against the counter, groaning.

"Yeah," he said, "I am."

Outside, Shane pulled up the complex. He tapped the envelope he'd put the letter for Mel into on his steering wheel, then exhaled. He felt bad leaving without saying anything, but he knew it was easier this way. He put his hand on the door handle and prepared to exit the car when his phone rang. He sighed, reached over to the cell on the dash and looked at it. It was Emma. He smiled, then put the phone down. He'd call her when he got back into the car. Shane exited the car, pushing the envelope into his jacket pocket as he walked across the street. He pulled open the complex doors and headed inside, then headed up the stairs.

Shane walked until he found her apartment, and then he used the spare key to open her apartment and he entered. He'd been coming by regularly to help clean it and keep things in check, so he felt it was only fair that he come in one more time before heading out of town. He pulled the envelope from his pocket and leaned it up against the lamp on the bedside table, then looked at the photo Melanie had of herself and Shane as teenagers, and he smiled. She'd be okay now. He'd done his duty, and it was time to get back to his own life. He'd put it off long enough. Shane exited the room and, while locking it, heard crying. He turned and looked at Gus's apartment, right across the hall.

Shane cautiously approached the door and put his ear against the door, listening. He could hear crying, and he could hear a man shouting angrily. A man that wasn't Gus. Then he realized he couldn't hear Gus at all. Shane pulled away from the door and looked at it, his brow furrowing. It was probably fine, right? It was probably just an argument with a friend or something. Shane turned and headed down the stairs. He had a long drive ahead of him.

Inside the apartment, Gus was staggering towards Jeremy, whose finger was on the trigger now.

"Just sit down, man, you don't have a chance, look at you," Jeremy said.

"It doesn't matter whether I succeed, the fact that I'm trying is what proves my morality is superior to yours," Gus said, "I'm weak but willing to protect, and you're strong but willing to hurt. That's the core fundamental difference between men like you and I."

"Sit down Gus, I don't wanna hurt you again," Jeremy said.

"I will not sit down," Gus said, the knife still firmly in his hand, "I'm gonna make you pay for hurting my ex wife, my current girlfriend, scaring my daughter and, least importantly, shooting me."

Jeremy shook his head and aimed at Gus's head.

"We could've been friends," Jeremy said, "Shame."

Just then the door opened and Shane barreled through, tackling Jeremy. Gus staggered backwards, falling onto the ground as the girls screamed in utter surprise. Shane grabbed Jeremy by the collar and held him down, punching him a few times before Jeremy, finally realizing what was happening, managed to kick Shane off of him and scrambled for the gun. Shane looked around for anything to defend himself, to defend Mel's friends, but the only thing he saw was the knife Gus had. He then looked at Jeremy, who was standing tall again. Jeremy smiled, then aimed the gun at Bea's head, and everything seemed to freeze.

His entire life, Shane Irres had looked out for his little sister. For her well being. For her mental health. He'd protected her from bullies on the playground, he'd watched over her when she moved out. He was determined, even at the expense of his own life, to make sure she was okay. It was only now that he realized he'd never escape that. Without a weapon, Shane took the only opportunity he had and looked at Gus, nodding. Gus nodded back, almost like he understood, then Shane took off across the room, running full speed at Jeremy, surprising him. As he wrapped his arms around Jeremy, the two struggled through the glass door that led to the balcony, and then tumbled over.

It was all over in a second, and at first, nobody in the apartment knew how to react.

Somewhere in the distance, Gus swore he could hear a cell phone ringing.

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Emma put the phone back down and looked at the diner from her car, sighing.

It wasn't like Shane not to answer, and she was hoping to see him before he left town tonight. She groaned and felt her eyes burn. She wanted to cry. Why was this so difficult for her? Suddenly she heard the wailing of ambulances, and saw two cop cars and an ambulance speed behind him. Usually this sort of thing wouldn't catch Emma's eye, she wouldn't think twice even, but for some reason tonight it did. She pulled out of her parking space and followed them.

As she pulled up the apartment complex, she saw Shane's car, and she saw Bea and Chiako standing outside the complex. She didn't see Shane, and she didn't see Gus. Emma parked haphazardly and got out of the car, running across the street. As she approached, Bea walked briskly up to her and put her hands on Emma's arms, stopping her from getting closer.

"What's going on?" Emma asked.

"Don't come closer," Bea said, her eyes wet as hell, her hair a mess, "Just don't come closer."

"Where's Gus?" Emma asked.

"He's in the ambulance, he's okay, he'll be okay," Bea said.

"Where's Shane?" Emma asked, and Bea didn't answer; Emma knew the answer, but she asked again anyway, almost as if expecting something different as the words left her lips, "Where's...Shane?"

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Melanie was lying on her bed, staring up at the ceiling.

Why wouldn't Amelia leave with her? Why did all the people she want to love wind up not being able to stay with her? Her father, Lisa, and now Amelia...it just didn't feel fair. Suddenly there was a knock on her door, and she sat up, confused. The door opened and an orderly stood there.

"Is everything okay?" Mel asked.

"You have a visitor."

"But it's, like, really late at night," Mel said.

"She said it was an emergency," the orderly said, shrugging, moving aside and letting Emma walk into the room.

Melanie was, certainly, surprised but also thrilled to see her. She sat up and smiled, until she saw how Emma looked. She sat down on the bed and she looked at her shoes. She wouldn't even look at Melanie. Melanie tapped her on the shoulder and Emma finally exhaled, then pushed her bangs from her eyes.

"When we met," Emma said, "Uh, I hated you. I mean I hated you. You were bubbly and fun and everything I wasn't, and you were trying to steal my boyfriend from me. Now, though...now I can't imagine my life without you. I met your brother a few months ago. We started meeting regularly and having coffee and just talking. I grew to like him just as much as I like you. He helped me sort through my life, made me feel like someone really cared about how I felt, and it made me realize how much he loved you, because he'd spent his entire life doing that."

Melanie nodded, pulling her legs up to the bed and hugging them, listening.

"Um," Emma said, choking back tears, albeit somewhat unsuccessfully, as she continued, "...he was leaving town. He didn't wanna tell you in person, but he was leaving town for a while. Said he had some things to take care of. Uh, I was trying to meet with him tonight, but he wouldn't...he wouldn't answer his phone."

She finally cracked and started crying uncontrollably.

"He wouldn't answer his phone," she sobbed, her voice low and husky, "I'm so sorry Melanie."

"...Emma?" Mel asked, her voice wavering now.

"Your brother's dead," Emma said, before hugging Melanie and whispering, "Your brother's dead, and I'm so sorry. But I'm here, and I'll do what he did for you. I promise."

Melanie and Emma hugged and cried in that room on that bed for hours, each so appreciative of the other in that moment. It was then and there that each girl recognized they'd never once had a friend as good as eachother, and how grateful they were to have it now.

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Melanie was sitting on a swing in the backyard of their house, when Shane sat down in the adjoining swing. It'd been maybe a week since their father had died, and while Shane was keeping his feelings inside, Melanie was completely breaking down. She spent all her time alone if possible, and she simply immersed herself in not just her isolation, but also her storybooks about fantasy lands with dragons and wizards and, of course, princesses.

"You okay?" he asked.

"...why did daddy have to die?" Melanie asked, and Shane shrugged.

"I don't know," he said, "but...at least he's not in pain anymore."

"Who's gonna protect me now?" Melanie asked, "Dad always protected me."

"Well, I'll protect you," Shane said, smiling, rubbing her back, "After all, what're big brothers for?"
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Chris Irres didn't particularly like social situations.

He wasn't antisocial by any means, but he especially hated group things like parties. Right now, standing in the room next to the snack table, sipping his beer, he was wishing he could be anywhere else. He sighed, slipped his free hand into his pocket and leaned against the wall beside the table as he watched all the people chat or dance.

"You know, just standing here and watching is kinda creepy," a young woman standing at the table, dipping a chip before biting into it, said, adding, "like you're looking for just the right person to kill at the end of the night."

"Oh, god no, no, I only murder people I don't know. Don't shit where you eat and all that," Chris said, making her laugh; he smiled and held out his hand, saying, "I'm Chris."

"Karen," she said, shaking his hand.

She was pretty, there was no argument. She had medium length blonde hair, somewhat wavy, and big green eyes. She had the kind of figure you only have in your early twenties, and she had freckles across her face that time would eventually soften and almost vanish. Chris couldn't deny she was extremely cute, and he felt bad that she'd decided to talk to him of all people.

"So do you like being here?" he asked.

"Why? You asking so you can get me somewhere alone and kill me?" Karen asked.

"Darn," he said, snapping his fingers, "you saw right through me."

Karen smirked and ate another chip, then pushed her bangs from her face and sidled up beside him, leaning against the free bit of wall. They stood there, together for a few minutes in silence, simply watching the crowd. Chris finished his beer and shook the bottle, as Karen, her voice low now, whispered.

"You wanna go somewhere?" she asked.

"God please," he replied.

With that, they got their coats and headed out.

While walking down the street, Chris was surprised she'd been so forward. Rarely had anyone asked him to go anywhere, he was often the one who had to ask people, and more often than not he was turned down. It was cold out, but it wasn't freezing. Chris unzipped his jacket and then exhaled, running his hands through his fluffy messy brown bedhead. A few cars passed by, music blasting from the windows of some, and then he heard the sound of a lighter. Chris looked at Karen, who was lighting a joint and taking a long puff before offering it to him. He shrugged, took it and took a hit himself.

"I get it," Karen said, "I mean, the whole hating parties thing, like, that I get. But why show up in the first place if you don't like being there?"

"Eh, I came for a friend," Chris said, "Jeff, the guy who owns the apartment. How did you wind up there?"

"Oh, my friend Marsha invited me cause she met Jeff at work," Karen said.

"Imagine that, friends by proximity," Chris said.

"Is there any other kind?"

"Sure, genuine friendship, not just because you're in the same location but because you actually like the same things and actually like one another," Chris said, taking another hit before handing the joint back to Karen.

"So you don't actually like me?" she asked, catching him off guard and making him cough and chuckle nervously.

"Sorry, that...that wasn't what I meant," he said, "I, uh, yeah, of course I do, sure. You seem cool. You offered to get me out of there, which I'm grateful for, so there's that. Why? Do you like me?"

Karen stopped and took another long puff before exhaling the smoke into his face, making him laugh and cough. She smiled wryly and, standing on her tiptoes, she whispered.

"No, I don't, you just happened to be around, you know, that whole proximity thing," she said before kissing him. Chris was surprised by her forwardness, but he wasn't put off. He kissed her back, because, well, that's what you were supposed to, right? Men were supposed to find a woman to love and be with and start a family. Who cared if he was in love with his roommate at college, Eric? He could ignore that. He could. He could.

He told himself that repeatedly because he hoped it'd eventually come true.

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"What color do you want this?" Karen asked, looking at the two paint cans on the table in the kitchen. Chris stood up beside her and, chewing his lip, waited for a moment until he finally pointed at the pale green, which made her smile and say, "That's exactly what I was thinking too."

"Well then why'd you ask me?" he replied playfully as she picked up a screwdriver and popped open the lid to the paint can.

They'd been married for 4 months, and had bought this small home in a nice quiet neighborhood thanks to help from his parents. Chris has recently gotten a job doing editorial work on a magazine, while Karen continued her way through the law firm she was working at, hoping to eventually work her way up the ladder instead of just being a junior attorney. Chris knelt back down to the floor and dipped his brush into the can again, then tapped his fingers on the floor and looked around the kitchen.

"You know," he said, "We need to get some drapes for the window."

"Yeah, I know, I was thinking of going into town tomorrow and seeing what I could find."

"I'll go with you," he replied.

"You don't have to work?" she asked.

"No, I mean, I do, but it's not like I can't do it at night when we get back. I'll just stay up a bit late," Chris said, "it's fine. I'd much prefer to shop for curtains."

Karen laughed and shook her head. A man who liked to go shopping with her? For CURTAINS? How did she get so lucky? If only she knew the truth. Chris helped renovate the entire home, even doing things that normally a wife would be expected to do. But she just loved him all the more for it, and what started as proximity did easily grow into that genuine appreciation. Chris was soft and gentle, understanding and compassionate. He was intelligent and protective but not aggressively so. He was everything Karen McMyers could ever have wanted in a man, and she couldn't believe she'd gotten so lucky to have found him.

Karen's own mother had tried time and time again to find a man - she'd gotten pregnant with Karen in college - but it never really ended well. The more she thought about her mother, and thus her failure in love, the luckier she felt herself. She started painting a wall, then glanced over her shoulder at Chris and thought about what it'd be like to have children with him. He'd be a wonderful father, she thought, and soon enough she was proven right, because only a year later was their son Shane born, and then a handful of years later, Melanie, but...

...Shane was because they'd wanted to have a family, and Melanie was because they'd wanted to save their marriage.

                                                                                                 ***

"I'm sorry," Chris said softly, looking at the floor as he sat on the couch while Karen leaned against the wall across from him, near the entertainment center, exhaling smoke from her cigarette. She shook her head and didn't even know what to say to him.

"I just...I can't...I don't hate you, Chris," she said, "I just wish you'd told me this sooner."

"I was scared," he said, and she nodded.

"I understand," she said, "I'm...upset, I mean I'd be lying if I said I wasn't, but I don't hate you for it. But we have two children together, you can't just...leave."

"I don't wanna leave," Chris said, finally looking up, his face covered in tears as he wiped his nose on his sleeve, "god, I couldn't leave Melanie or you, or Shane. I...you're my family. I love you all so much. And...and maybe I don't love you in the way you hoped I would, but that doesn't mean I don't love you at all, because I do, I just..."

Karen walked to the couch and sat beside him, rubbing his back.

"I know, this has to be hard for you," she said, "but I am nothing if not open minded. For god sakes I smoked a joint in front of you within the half hour of our meeting. I think I can be trusted to be open minded. I understand why-"

"No, you don't, Karen," Chris said, "My parents were so hateful growing up, not to me, but just to people in general. So bigoted, and so closed minded. If they found out I...oh god, I would've lost my ability to go to school, we wouldn't have this house, everything would be so different, and I couldn't do that. I had to have things good. I had to have what everyone else had. I had to come off as...normal."

"Chris," Karen said, squeezing his arm gently, "you're normal, okay? People like you are normal. Please don't ever think you're not. We can make this work. You can...we can be a family without being together, and still live together, you know, for the facade or whatever. I want you to be happy. I do."

Chris half laughed and half cried. How had he been so lucky to meet a woman this wonderful? He looked at her, and she smiled at him, then leaned in and kissed his cheek. Just then, from the hallway, they heard Melanie's voice babble something, and Karen wiped Chris's eyes, then told him to take their daughter back to bed, which he happily did. He tucked her in, he read her a story, and he stroked her hair until she fell back asleep. Sitting there, watching her, he knew he couldn't leave. He couldn't leave this beautiful little girl. He'd been given everything a man should want, and yet it wasn't what he wanted, but he was still thankful for it.

She was his little princess, after all.

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Karen's voice was shaky, her hands trembling. She couldn't believe what she was hearing. Chris was standing there, the both of them in the living room. The kids were at school, but it was almost time for school to be out. Karen ran her hands down her face, then reached into her purse on the table for a cigarette, fumbling to get one out. After she did, Chris lit it for her, which she thanked him quietly for. She took a long drag, then exhaled and looked at him again.

"...what does this mean?" she asked.

"...you know what it means," he said.

"...what do we do?" she asked, "I mean, what do we do? The kids will...will obviously ask questions, especially as you get sicker, and..."

"I know, and I don't know," Chris said, "They're young enough that I think we can feed them some kind of medical bullshit and they'd buy it, but that isn't what matters right now."

"Am I sick?"

"Of course not, we haven't slept together in ages, and I was always protected when with you," Chris said.

"But never with them?"

"I was," Chris said, "I...I don't know how it happened, honestly. You've read the news, you've seen it in the papers, you know this thing doesn't care how careful you are. It's gonna happen, and it happened to me now. Now what matters is making sure you're taken care of."

Karen finally cracked, whimpering a little as tears rolled down her face. Chris stepped forward and wiped her face clean, then kissed her cheek. She looked up at him and smiled weakly. He took her trembling hand in his and squeezed it gently as she spoke.

"All I ever wanted was you," she said, "from the moment I saw you. I'm so glad I got to be with you in some capacity."

Chris smiled and nodded.

"Right back atcha," he said, "now come on, let's go pick the kids up. We can talk about this later."

But there wasn't anything to talk about. Chris had Aids, and there was nothing to be done. The future was set in stone now. Chris Irres was going to die, and Karen was just going to have to live with that. As the months passed, and Chris slowly began to get sicker and sicker - requiring Karen's help for anything and everything - she found herself taking her peace where she could. Late nights after he'd fallen asleep, she'd sit outside on the front porch and smoke, or she'd think about her mother. Her mothers failed romances. How ironic. Karen had been successful in love, and even then it didn't matter. Life still took it from her.

When Chris was finally taken to the hospital, because he couldn't be at home anymore and required more care, that was when it hit Karen the hardest. That was when it became real, in a sense. Sitting by her husbands bedside, his skin pale, his eyes sunken, she would sit and read to him from the latest issue of his magazine subscriptions, knowing that'd make him happy. Sometimes he'd smile best he could at something she was reading, and sometimes he'd almost laugh but instead wind up coughing. He appreciated what she was doing, and that was all that mattered to him. His folks, when they learned of his illness, cut him off entirely. They never once visited, they never offered to pay for his bills. To them, they had no son any more, but that was fine. Chris Irres didn't need his family. He'd made his own family, and they loved him to death, and beyond.

That night was still clear as crystal to Karen.

She noticed Chris's head rolling to the side, like he was looking out into the hallway at the nurses and doctors and other people, and she leaned in and tapped his hand. He looked back at her and smiled, which made her smile.

"You know," she said, pushing her hair behind her ear, "it's creepy to watch people like that. Like you're looking for someone to kill."

"Already done it. Killed myself," he said weakly, which made her laugh, half out of nervousness and half out of actual appreciation for his sense of humor; he weakly lifted his hand, but he couldn't lift it all the way up, so she took his wrist in her hand and guided his hand to her face, where she knew he wanted it. He caressed her cheek and she shut her eyes.

"I don't know what to do," she whispered.

"Hey," he said, "Neither do I."

She laughed again, her eyes soggy with tears.

"But you'll be okay. You're always okay. You always manage to find a way to survive," Chris said, "Which is great, at least one of us is good at surviving."

"don't leave me," Karen whispered, and Chris smiled.

"If I had a choice, I wouldn't," he whispered back.

It wasn't long before Chris was gone, and afterwards, Karen sat in the room by his now empty bed, until she saw Daisy enter the room. Karen stood up and walked across the room, hugging her tightly, which surprised Daisy but she happily hugged her back. Chris had been the one to be mad at her, not Karen, and Karen needed her help to arrange the funeral and lay him to rest. Who better than his own sister? As they hugged that night in the hospital room, Karen couldn't help but be grateful she was there.

"I loved him so much," she wept quietly into Daisy's ear, and she smiled, patting her back.

"Good, because he loved that you loved him," she said, "Somebody had to."

                                                                                               ***

"I won't sit here and pretend like I wasn't upset," Karen said, "I won't lie and say I was fine with everything, or how it all shook out, and I certainly won't act like I wasn't unhappy about the man I married liking other men, but I'll be damned if I was gonna be another person in his life who hurt him because of who he was. He deserved better than that. We gave eachother the best thing we could. I gave him acceptance, and he gave me you."

Melanie couldn't believe what she was hearing. Her father was gay? He'd died from Aids? Karen cleared her throat and played with her bracelet, smiling weakly.

"Your sexuality isn't a surprise, Mel," Karen said, "not when put into context, and just like I was with him, I'll never not love you because of it. You're my daughter, regardless of who you love, and he was my husband...regardless of who he loved. Far too many wives are happy to kick their husband to the curb once they're no longer the focal point of their attention, and in many cases it's fair, but this is not one of those cases. I vowed to love him, in sickness and in health, til death did we part, and that's what I did. He couldn't help but be who he was, and I wasn't about to be like his parents, and tell him I wouldn't allow it. If he was here today, god, he'd be so proud of you."

"I...I don't...even..."

"If you love a girl, then you love that girl with all the love that you can muster," Karen said, reaching across the table and patting her daughters hand, adding, "because it's the strongest feeling in the world. Chris knew that. That's why we stuck things out, because we knew nobody would treat us as well as we treated one another. Marriage is a friendship first and foremost, and that's what we were, best friends. I just want you to be happy, but I also want you to understand where you came from. Who you are. You're Melanie Irres, and you're not a surprise or a disappointment. You're a person. Your own person. So be you, while you have the chance to do so."

Melanie sat back in her chair and sighed. Everything she'd ever known about her father was now in a different context, and she wasn't sure what to think, except that - and this made her smile big - she'd never felt closer to him than in this moment.

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Jeremy was sitting in his car, gritting his teeth, his fingers wrapping around the handgun he'd brought with him. He'd followed Chiako to the apartment complex, and he was going to make things right. He opened his car door, stuffed the gun in his jacket pocket and headed across the street, reached the complex and headed through the door.

And within the next half hour, two people would be dead in Gus's apartment.
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Chiako opened her front door, her eyes wide, surprised to see Gus standing on her porch. She smiled and stepped aside, offering him entrance. He smiled and walked past her, hearing her shut the door behind them as Gus turned to face her, hands in his pockets.

"We need to talk," Gus said.

"We're divorced, you're not allowed to say that anymore," Chiako said, making him chuckle.

"This isn't about us, believe me," Gus said, "It's about Leaf, and...well, you, to an extent."

Chiako's brow raised, as she folded her arms and leaned against the wall.

"I'm listening," she said.

"So, a number of times recently I've either run into Jeremy or had Leaf stop by and things have been...concerning, to say the least. Leaf says she doesn't wanna be home when he's here, and he's outright vaguely threatened me more than once. At Mel's birthday, when we jousted, I just sort of assumed it was pseudo ironic masculinity posturing, but...apparently it was very much real masculinity posturing. In hindsight, that should've been a major red flag."

Chiako nodded and exhaled, standing up and walking up to Gus, but not looking at him.

"...you're not wrong to be concerned," she said quietly, "things have been weird and rough between us especially lately and he's got quite a temper. Leaf specifically signed up a number of after school activities or other things in the community simply so she doesn't have to be here when he is, and frankly I don't blame her."

Gus bit his lip and waited, listening.

"But, and I'm sort of ashamed to admmit this, I'm scared to end it. Which is ridiculous because I was taught to defend myself, to stand up for myself. Hell, it's what caught your interest in me to begin with, remember, was how outspoken I was? But there's something about his quietly seething rage that absolutely terrifies me and makes it hard to gauge whether it's safer to stay and endure it or risk him hurting me by ending things."

Gus squared his shoulders and put his hands on her shoulders. Now she looked up at him, her eyes watery.

"I promise I will never let anything happen to either you or Leaf. We may not be together anymore, and I may have screwed up what we had, but that doesn't mean I don't care. I will always love you, and her. You're still my family. I'll deal with him first hand if he ever tries anything. You say the word and I'll deal with it, understand?"

Chiako smiled weakly and nodded as she reached up and wiped her eyes on her sweatshirt sleeve.

"Thanks Gus," she said softly, "I guess I got pretty lucky having you in my life."

"Damn right you did," he replied, making them both laugh a little as he added, "I just wish I could've seen how lucky I was before I messed it all up."

                                                                                             ***

"I love puppets," Amelia said as she prepared one of the characters she and Melanie had spent the past week trying to create. They had a slew of characters ready to go, and had even announced they'd be putting on a puppet show for anyone interested in watching it. Now that the day was here, they still needed to finish some slight tweaking to their sets and cast, but otherwise were excited and ready; Amelia continued, "I know it's such an old fashioned form of entertainment, but I always loved it. I've always liked old stuff like that."

"Puppet shows are the best," Melanie said, gluing a little crown onto a puppet, adding, "I always asked for a puppet show during my birthdays. And seeing as I had no friends, the show was always just for me. It felt special. Made me feel like a real princess."

Amelia smiled at this story as she grabbed a gluestick and started fixing up one of the sets.

"You like princesses huh?" Amelia said.

"...I think I like the idea of feeling that important," Mel said, "like...I don't really know how to explain it, but...I guess...children are often unsure of their place in the world, and their worth, and I liked how lucky princesses seemed. An entire kingdom, all for them to rule, giving them power even when they're young, and everyone loved them. I liked feeling loved and heard. My parents listened to me too well, almost, but I appreciate it. Aside from my fathers death, I actually had a really good childhood, at least, while he was alive."

"I'm sorry he died," Amelia said, "My parents and I never really saw eye to eye, and I wish we had. They never understood that I was sick, and now I'm so over it. I'm okay being alone. Or, relatively alone."

Melanie blushed as she finished adjusting the now properly glued on crown. She set the character down on the table and sighed, looking around the room as she pulled her hair up and tying it into a messy bun. She looked at Amelia, who glanced at her as she affixed a tree to the set she was working on.

"Yeah?" Amelia asked.

"...um..." Melanie said, "...you aren't just doing this to hurt me, are you?"

Amelia's eyes widened in surprise.

"Excuse me?"

"I'm sorry, I...about a year ago, I met a girl in a support girl who got close to me only so she could more effectively hurt me, and my brother, and I guess it's made me somewhat wary of trusting anyone new. God, that sounds so shitty, but-"

"No, your PTSD is completely valid, I just...I didn't know that, obviously, so it caught me off guard. But no, I'm not, I promise. I like you. We like the same things. It's nice to feel safe around someone. I haven't felt that in years," Amelia said, sighing, holding the set up in front of herself and saying, "...I'm not going to hurt you. If anything, I'm more scared that I'm the one who's going to get hurt. I always get hurt. I always feel as though I have to put on a face around people I want to like me, like I'm in a play, so it's nice to find people I don't have to wear a mask in front of."

Melanie smiled and nodded, understanding. She completely felt that way too. That was part of why she appreciated Gus and Emma and Darren so much, because even after all she'd put them through, after the lowest they'd seen her...they still liked her for exactly who she was, and that, Melanie had discovered, was very hard to find in this life, and if you did get lucky enough to find it, you should hold onto it for dear life and thank the universe every day.

                                                                                                    ***

Bea was standing in front of the fridge when Gus got home. As she heard the door shut, she shouted hello, and when she finally came out of the fridge she found him standing in the kitchen, watching her. She had a celery stick in one hand and a jar of peanut butter in the other, and he just smiled upon seeing her. She slowly pulled the celery stick from her mouth, set the peanut butter jar down on the counter behind her and then brushed her bangs from her eyes.

"Hi," she said.

"Hey," he said, still chuckling, "getting a snack?"

"I like food, so sue me," Bea said.

"No, I like a girl with a healthy appetite, especially for destruction," Gus said, "...could you teach me to fight?"

Bea stopped, halfway through putting peanut butter on her celery, and stared at Gus. She waited, then slowly shook her head, which surprised him.

"What? Why not?"

"Because I don't wanna teach someone how to be violent," Bea said.

"You fight for a living!"

"...come with me and let me tell you something," Bea said, finishing her celery and walking to the living room and sitting down on the couch, Gus sitting beside her. She bit into her celery, took a few chews and swallowed, then exhaled and said, "Do you know why I fight, Gus? When I was a little girl, my parents fought all the time. So much so that they didn't really any time for me. And this wasn't a case of either one being better than the other, they were both equally awful. But one night my dad started outright beating my mother, and I knew I couldn't let it happen anymore, so I stepped in and he beat me too. I spent weeks in the hospital."

"Jesus, Beatrice, I had no-"

"Then," she said, interrupting, "I vowed I wouldn't let a man do that to me ever again. I was upset he actually physically hurt my mother, but far as I was concerned, I was far more interested in protecting myself. So I got books out from the library and learned about swords, and I took fencing classes, and I learned how to fight. That way, if that time ever came again, I could rest assured kick his ass back."

"Well good for you," Gus said.

"And that day did indeed come," she said, "At my high school graduation. He showed up at our house unannounced, and raving about how he wasn't invited. My mother had bought me a fairly expensive sword as a graduation present, something she'd saved up for for a few years, and when he came inside the house after I deliberately warned him not to, I did what I had to. I stabbed him."

"Jesus!"

"I stabbed my father," Bea said, "and he didn't die, it wasn't by any means fatal, I just stabbed him in the shoulder, but it was enough to prove to him to never touch me again. It was the right thing to do in the moment, but I don't like inflicting violence on people. Yet, it's my first immediate response. Fight or flight? I fight. I fight tooth and nail like a wild animal backed into a corner. So no, I won't teach you anything. I'll kick ass if I have to, but I will not impart that wisdom on anyone else. Nobody should ever be forced to have to defend themselves."

Gus could hear her voice cracking, so he reached behind her and rubbing her back, leaning towards her.

"I'm sorry, I had no idea," he whispered, "hey, Bea, it's okay. I love you. I love you so much. This doesn't change that, okay? You don't feel comfortable teaching me that, then fine. That's fine. I never wanna make you uncomfortable."

Bea turned and looked at him, before leaning in and kissing him hard. He shut his eyes, kissing her back. Gus had never expected to love someone again after his marriage failed, and yet here he was, proof positive that even when you reach the bottom, you're never cut off from redemption. They stayed on the couch the remainder of the night as he made Bea feel better, and he even cooked dinner for them. If her youth had been turbulent, he figured the least he could do was make her adulthood peaceful.

                                                                                              ***

Emma tapped her fingernails on her styrofoam coffee cup, then finally looked up and remembered where she was when she saw Shane smile at her across the table. He lifted his own cup to his lips and took a sip.

"You okay?" he asked, "You seem kinda distant."

"I'm wondering if I'm making all the wrong choices in regards to my relationship," Emma said, "A year ago, I would've said sure, I'd love nothing more than to be Darren's wife, but now...I asked him if he'd be okay and able to move on if we broke up, and he said he would be, and somehow that offended me. It shouldn't. I should be happy he's that capable. But..."

She looked up, embarrassed as she lowered her voice.

"...but you said you didn't wanna move on, and we've never even..."

"There's a number of reasons I can't move on, and sure knowing you is a part of that," Shane said, "but I also can't get involved for a number of other reasons. But you love this guy, don't you? Doesn't he make you happy, in general? If you could picture it, could you see a future where you two are together and happy? If not, then that answers everything for you. So tell me, do you see that future?"

Emma straightened up and thought long and hard momentarily, and she smiled weakly.

"I can, actually, yes," she said.

"I'm leaving town," Shane said, "Not forever, just for a few months. I have some stuff I have to take care of in a neighboring town. But I just thought I should let you know so that you aren't caught off guard by my sudden absence."

"Thanks for telling me," Emma said, taking another sip of her coffee before clearing her throat and asking, "you know, seems like everyone I know came from fucked up families, and that's sad. You think there's families out there who don't experience shocking loss and painful cruelty at the hands of an uncaring god?"

"Fuck dude, you didn't have to go that dark," Shane said, making her chuckle as he smiled and said, "but yeah, there have to be families with totally normal, happy people. I mean, the world works in some manner, right? Gotta have someone in charge of stuff to keep it all chugging along."

"You gonna see your sister before you leave?" Emma asked, and Shane bit his lip, shrugging.

"I might just leave her a note," he said, "I mean, I won't be gone long, so."

Emma smiled and nodded, then drank her coffee while Shane drank his. She appreciated having him around to bounce her issues off of, and she was going to miss him while he was gone, but he'd be back before she knew it, so what really was there to worry about? They'd have coffee again. They'd discuss her upcoming marriage. How funny, she thought, that the person to become her close friend was the brother of the very woman who'd upended her life?

Emma had nothing but pure appreciation for the Irres these days.

                                                                                                   ***

"Once upon a time," Melanie said, kneeling behind the setup she and Amelia had created, "there was a kingdom."

The story they wove was about a king, and his daughter. How he trained her to take over the kingdom once he was gone, and the dragon that eventually took his life, forcing her to take revenge. But, when given the chance to kill the dragon, instead she chose peace and understanding, and forgave it. The dragon, touched by this kindness, repaid the debt in any way it could by guarding the kingdom from any incoming invader, and in the end, it was love that saved the kingdom, because, as Melanie narrated, nothing was more powerful than love.

After the show concluded, the citizens of the home who attended clapped and cheered for the girls and their storytelling abilities. When the lights came back on, and everyone began shuffling out as Melanie and Amelia cleaned things up, Melanie found she felt better than she had in years. She stopped putting things in the box and, seated on the floor, looked around the home.

"...I'm gonna miss this place when I have to leave," she said, "to think this was the thing I was always afraid of, and now I can't believe I avoided it for so long because I genuinely thought I couldn't get better."

Amelia set her box down and crawled across the floor, sitting in front of Melanie and looking around as well.

"There is an odd comfort to it all, isn't there? Knowing you can come here, get your shit together, and leave with your life back on track," she said, "...promise you'll come and visit?"

"You don't have to stay."

"I can't manage it out there, not on my own."

"Then leave with me," Melanie said, surprising Amelia, making her laugh nervously.

"Excuse me?" she asked.

"Yeah, we'll share an apartment," Melanie said, "My apartment is on hold for me, we can just move back in and you can be as involved or uninvolved with life as possible. I'm going to have to get a job, but if you're not capable of that, then so what. Everyone has usefulness, whether it's on constant show. You can give back simply by being there."

"That's very nice of you and all, but..." Amelia said, her eyes looking at the floor, "...but I don't think-"

"I like you," Melanie said.

"Well, I like you too, that's why we-"

"No. I like you," Melanie said sternly, "...this is something I've...I've only come to terms with in the last few months, but...but it's something I've avoided my whole life. I'm tired of avoiding it. I'm tired of being alone. I like you, and I wanna be with you. I'm sorry if that's forward, I just...I'm sick of not being true to myself and letting good things slip by."

"I'm a good thing?" Amelia asked, blushing.

"You're a very good thing," Mel said, leaning in, her voice lowering as she put her hand against Amelia's face and whispered, "come, rule my kingdom with me."

Amelia leaned in and kissed Melanie, Melanie happily kissing her back. This. This was what Melanie had thought she might have with Lisa, but now she was having it for real. Honest, genuine understanding. Love, as she had said, was the most powerful thing there was. They sat there, in the empty living area, kissing for minutes on end, before the door opened and Melanie quickly spun her head around to see her mother standing there, smiling at them. Amelia stood up, excusing herself and taking their puppets and sets and whatnot back to her room. Melanie stood up and nervously approached her mother.

"I'm sorry, I-"

"Don't apologize," Karen said, "I watched your show, and then I had to use the bathroom. But please, never apologize for yourself. You know you're my daughter, and I love you for whoever you are and whoever you love, okay?"

Melanie smiled and hugged her mother.

"Besides, it's not all that surprising," Karen said, "Given..."

Melanie pulled away and looked at her mother, confused.

"Given what, mom?" she asked, and her mother sighed.

"I came to see your show, like you called and asked me to do, but...I think it's time you knew about your father. Who he really was. I think that may finally give you some understanding, not just about him, but also yourself."

Melanie didn't know how to respond.

                                                                                               ***

A knock, at this hour? Who the hell was knocking on the door? Bea groaned and rolled off the couch, while Gus continued to saw logs. She stood up, her eyes blurry, as she stumbled across the living room and pulled the front door open, only to find Chiako standing there, looking at the floor.

"Oh," Bea said, yawning, "uh, god, what time is it? Why are you-"

She looked up, and Bea understood. Her right side of her face was black and bruised. Bea felt like she'd just been hit by a car and immediately, instinctively hugged her, which made Chiako start to cry.

"I need to see Gus," she cried, and Bea nodded, patting her back.

"It's okay, you're okay, come inside," Bea said, "You're gonna be okay."

She shut the door behind them, completely unaware that, from across the street sitting in his car, having followed Chiako there, Jeremy sat gritting his teeth, his fingers wrapping around the handgun sitting beside him.
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Stacy Baker was doing something she usually didn't do. Cleaning. But since firing their nanny, she had to pick up some of the slack around the house, and since she didn't have work today, this seemed like as good a time as any. She walked into her daughters bedroom to put away her clothes when she was hit with a rank smell that made her gag and recoil. She set the clothes down on the bed, then started walking around, opening the closet door and some dresser drawers, trying to find out what this smell was and where it was emanating from. She turned back around, facing the bed, and kicked a toy boat on the floor. Her daughter, Kelly, loved the model toy boats that she was given, the kind that were remote controlled and you could drive in water. Stacy bent down, picking it up and then pulled open the lid to the toybox so she could place it inside.


That's when she screamed.


                                                                            ***


Kelly looked up at her mother, seated beside her in the waiting room, and raised an eyebrow.


"Why are we here?" she asked.


"Because you need to talk to someone," Stacy replied, "and I don't want to get your father involved, so we're doing this now. He'll question the bill, but I'll just say it was a normal doctors visit."


"But why are we here? What did I do wrong?" Kelly asked.


"Because what was in your toybox," Stacy said quietly, almost as if she herself were afraid to acknowledge it. The door finally opened, and another mother and her teenage son came strolling out. As they headed past and exited the front door, the doctor looked at Stacy and Kelly and smiled politely.


"Mrs. Baker?" she asked, "I'm Anette Benning. I'll be meeting with you and your daughter today. Please, come inside, won't you?"


"Actually, I'd prefer it if we did this in parts. Perhaps you start with her and then meet with me?" Stacy asked, and Anette nodded.


"That can be done, certainly," she said, walking over to Kelly and kneeling in front of her, smiling as she said, "Hi Kelly, I'm Anette. I'm gonna be talking to you today, okay? Why don't you come inside my office and we'll talk and play a game, yeah?"


Kelly glanced at Anette, then at her mother, then climbed down from the seat and followed Anette into her office, the door shutting behind her. There was a small sandbox in the office, and Kelly immediately went to sit in it, while Anette gathered her tools - a pen, a pad of paper, her reading glasses - and then walked across the office to sit in her chair. As she looked down at Kelly, who was now busy burying something in the sand, she leaned forward and crossed her legs.


"So Kelly, your mother told me she wanted me to speak with you because she's concerned. She found something inside your toybox, something that shouldn't have been in there," Anette said, "Do you wanna talk about what that was? Maybe why it was there?"


Kelly shrugged and said, "It wasn't anything."


"It wasn't 'wasn't anything', Kelly. It really upset your mother. You don't want your mother to be upset, right?"


Kelly shook her head, her braids swinging.


"Right," Anette said, "So why would you keep that in your toybox?"


"Where else would I keep it?" Kelly asked, stopping her playing and looking up at Anette now, adding, "...that's where I keep things I like to play with."


She didn't admit it to anyone, but that made Anette's blood run cold, which was made all the more chilling by the fact that this statement came when Kelly was just a little girl.


                                                                            ***


Anette Benning was the premiere child psychologist of the area.


At this point in time, she was in her mid thirties, and she was still single, but mostly because she chose to be. She preferred to keep her focus on the children she wanted to help, instead of on herself. She was who all the upper class parents sent their trouble kids to, and she usually was capable of working wonders with them, but this wasn't the case for Kelly Baker. The thing is, she never stopped seeing Kelly, even after this incident, because she preferred to keep close tabs on her. Even now, as Kelly reached her upper teens, she was still meeting with Anette.


In fact, she was sitting in her office at this very moment, while Anette gathered her equipment for note taking. Kelly was sitting in a chair, chewing gum and looking at her makeup in her compact as Anette secretly turned on the recorder she'd used to tape every one of their sessions, and then turned and, smile on her face, walked to her own chair and sat down.


"So, how are you this week?" Anette asked.


"I'm...okay," Kelly said, "I don't know, it's been weird lately."


"How so?"


"Just...I keep feeling like people are trying to use me, use my family," Kelly said, "and frankly, I'm sick of it. I'm sick of having to protect everyone in my life. I'm sick of people taking advantage of us. Using us. I'm not even an adult yet, legally, and I still feel like I have to act like one all the time because society sucks so bad."


"I'm sorry," Anette said.


"I went a party recently," Kelly said, "and this girl, who I thought was kind of my friend, just wanted to use me to get closer to my dad, maybe get a modeling career out of him. I know it's selfish, considering his line of work in that he has to interact with these women - often times extremely young and attractive women - but...he's MY dad, you know? He's MY person. I don't know, I feel very very protective."


"As you have every right to," Anette said, "...have you had any incidents?"


Kelly cleared her throat and looked around the room, like she was avoiding the subject. Anette smiled warmly, cocking her head.


"Come on, doctor/client privilege, you know I can't tell anyone anything unless you're admitting to actively planning to hurt someone or yourself," she said, "think of me as a paid confessional."


Kelly chuckled a bit, then ran her hand through her hair and sighed.


"...I still stop and watch him," she said, "I mean, I stop by his house and watch him sometimes. He acts like he didn't do anything wrong, like he didn't...like he didn't take something from me. And I wanna scream and I wanna hurt him, but...but I was told 'oh, the justice system will take care of him, you let the justice system worry about that', and then what does the justice system do? Not deliver justice, that's for damn sure. He gets away with everything, like what happened to me doesn't matter, like my experience means less than his freedom."


Anette nodded, writing in her notebook.


"This is, unfortunately, the way it is with many women," Anette said, "Men are rarely held accountable for their actions."


"And then I see some news story about some woman who offed a man who was abusing her relentlessly, and I think to myself 'good for you, you had the guts to do what the justice system wouldn't', and I'm told that's wrong, I'm told it's wrong to congratulate a woman taking control of her life, her body, while he gets to walk away with no repercussions, as if what he did wasn't wrong."


"You have every right to be angry, I would never tell you otherwise," Anette said.


"And yet I...I don't know that I'd do anything to him, even if I was able to, or given the opportunity. If someone put us in a room together and said there'd be no legal repercussions for my actions towards him, I still don't know that I'd be able to do anything because he conditioned me to care about him. I almost feel like...like him hurting me was normal, but me hurting him is unacceptable. Like women are meant to endure pain and trauma, just part of our shared experience, our collective misery, while men are expected - and allowed - to dole it out but not receive it."


Anette nodded, and sighed. This was one of those times where she felt genuinely bad for Kelly. She could see here was a young woman hurting deeply, even with her seemingly psychotic tendencies, and for a brief moment in time, Anette was able to see through the mask Kelly wore, and see the damaged little girl underneath.


"...anyway," Kelly said, exhaling, dabbing at her eyes with her fingertips, "Uh, I don't really wanna dwell on that."


"Okay, we don't have to," Anette said, "a good week otherwise?"


"...I guess," Kelly said, shrugging.


"Kelly," Anette said, crossing her legs and resting her arms on them, "Uh...you mention about how if there were no legal repercussions, would you be able to do something to him, and I just have to ask, even if you knew you wouldn't get caught, would you?"


A long moment passed, and Kelly started to smile.


"I guess we'd have to reach that point for me to make that decision," she said.


And once again, as usual with her interactions with Kelly Baker, Anette's blood ran cold.


                                                                             ***


"She scares me," Anette said, pouring a drink for herself and her date before walking back to the couch and sitting down, handing Tati her drink before adding, "I mean, she's a child, like a literal child, and yet she terrifies me. I've never run across a kid like this."


"Well, you've only been doing this a handful of years so far, so let's wait another decade and then see who turns up," Tati said, sipping her drink as Anette laughed nervously.


"This was our first session," Anette said, "and I was almost certain by the end of it that she'd somehow have found a way to kill to me in my office without being considered the prime suspect. She's just so...disengaged? Is that the right word? Like, like she...ugh..."


Anette leaned forward and put her drink on the coffee table as Tati reached over and rubbed her back.


"Hey, it's okay," she said, "It must've been weird and frightening, but it's over."


"No, that's the thing, it isn't. I have to keep seeing her," Anette said, putting her face in her hands, adding, "I have to...I can't pawn her off on someone else. I have to make sure that she never falls off this tightrope. That's up to me, now. That's my responsibility because she was brought to me. If I passed on her, and something wound up happening, then I'd blame myself."


Tati crawled behind Anette and rubbed her shoulders, leaning in and kissing her neck.


"You need to relax," Tati said, "you need to calm down, take some deep breaths and remember...you are not responsible for everyone. You cannot save everyone. You can only hope to help some people. We are here to listen, not guide. The moment you guide, the moment you get that involved, that's when all bets are off."


Anette reached up and ran her hands into Tati's hair, smiling as she whispered, "just keep kissing me."


These days Anette was single, but back then she appreciated having Tati's company. She wasn't sure if she'd been able to handle things without it, quite frankly. Now, however, she had to go it alone, and go it alone she would. She would do what she promised. She would watch over Kelly Baker, and make sure she didn't fall off that tightrope. Only trouble was...


...she'd already fallen long ago.


                                                                               ***


Kelly was laying in bed reading, when her mother entered her bedroom. She smiled and sat down on the side of the bed, reaching over and stroking her daughters hair. Kelly looked over at her and smiled back, and for a moment, Stacy was almost able to forget about the last 48 hours.


"I'm proud of you," Stacy said, "You went and you talked and you did well. I'm proud of you."


"Did I do something wrong?" Kelly asked.


"No, no of course not, and that's the thing," Stacy said, sighing, "I just...I dealt with some things when I was your age, and I was worried you might deal with the same things. That's why I wanted to make sure you got help. To make sure you'd be okay. What's going on isn't your fault, it's my fault if anyone's, because I'm the one who passed it down to you. But I was able to get help, and I've been stable, and now if you're having the same problems, then we'll get you the right help too."


"...I didn't mean to scare you," Kelly said, her voice quivering.


"Oh baby girl, you didn't scare me," Stacy said, leaning in and hugging her daughter now, rubbing her back comfortingly as she said, "I mean, I was scared because I wasn't expecting it, but I know it wasn't intentional. It's okay. You're okay, okay?"


Kelly nodded, smiling. As her mother pulled away from her and shut her light off, the glow in the dark overhead stars now illuminating the room, she leaned back in and kissed Kelly on the forehead.


"Now go to sleep," she said, "You have school tomorrow."


"Goodnight mommy," Kelly said as Stacy exited the room, blowing her another kiss. The door shut behind her, Stacy turned and began heading down the hallway. She down to her and her husbands bedroom and walked inside. He wouldn't be home for another hour at least, and she'd have ample time to take a shower and cleanse herself of this day. As she climbed into the searing hot water coming out the shower head, Stacy couldn't help but feel like maybe things would be okay. Maybe she could nip this in the bud like her own mother had done with her.


But the thing is, and Stacy had no way of knowing this of course, what Stacy dealt with terrified her. Kelly wasn't scared by it. To Kelly, it was normal. Ordinary. Perfectly okay. Stacy, as a child, had been mortified by her actions, and had wanted desperately to get better. Kelly, as it would turn out, would go the complete opposite direction. She reveled in her sickness. She made it a part of herself, unashamed and unafraid. She found strength and comfort in the horrors she unleashed.


And it didn't help that, because she watched her parents succeed in a line of work that insisted everyone involved be a fraud, she learned to be a really good liar.


                                                                            ***


Stacy fell onto her butt, slowly backing away from the toybox, hand to her mouth, her eyes wide with fear.


After a moment of collecting her breath, she managed to crawl cautiously back up to the toybox and open the lid once more. She wanted to vomit at the sight. A beautiful dove, its wings cut off, its body covered in stab wounds, sat on top of an old quilt, keeping it from touching the other toys below it. And if it'd just been a dead dove, even a mutilated one at that, Stacy might've been able to handle it. But it wasn't the dove that terrified her. It was the fact that, surrounding the dove, almost in a perfect circle...


...were the corpses of all its children.

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So Happy Together is a dramedy about couple Aubrey & Brent. After Aubrey plays an April Fools joke on Brent that she's pregnant, Brent confesses out of panic that he actually has a secret daughter with an ex wife, and everything changes overnight.

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