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"What do you think they sell? Just coffee or maybe pastries too?" Monica asked, as she floated in front of the large storefront window beside Chelsea and Juno.


"How are they gonna sell pastries? They can't make pastries. They don't have an oven, they're a cart," Juno replied, sounding annoyed, "they're more than likely just a coffee cart. I'd be surprised if they sold anything else. Maybe cold muffins."


"God I love cold muffins," Chelsea said.


"Who would ever eat a cold muffin?" Juno asked, sounding disgusted, giving her a look.


"It's bread, you eat most bread cold, what goddamn difference what shape or form it comes in?" Monica chimed in, with Chelsea snapping her fingers and pointing at her.


"I could go for some coffee," Chelsea said, "and not just cause the girl serving it has the head of a goat. I mean, that's cool, but I really could go for some coffee. It gets tiring working here. All the stocking and stuff. Exhausting. Kinda need to rejuvinate my energy."


Chelsea stood up and walked around the counter, then stopped and looked at Juno.


"Do you want a cup? I'm buying."


"I don't drink coffee," Juno said, shrugging, "I have enough energy as it is."


"Fair enough," Chelsea said, exiting the shop. Juno and Monica watched from the window as Chelsea nervously approached the cart. Juno was chewing on gum while Monica just floated absentmindedly in the air. After a minute, Juno looked up at Monica, who glanced down at her.


"What?" Monica asked.


"You ever miss things from when you were alive?" Juno asked.


"Depends," Monica said, "stuff like chocolate cake? Absolutely. Things like diarrhea? Absolutely not."


"Gross," Juno said, the both of them giggling. Meanwhile, Chelsea got into line, which only consisted of 4 people ahead of her, and anxiously waited to approach the cart window. As she stood there, checking the money in her hand, she tried to think of an excuse other than wanting coffee to want to come outside and meet this girl. She did have the head of a goat, and that was interesting, but she wondered if there was more...and she knew there was. She just didn't want to admit it. After a minute, she felt a long finger tap on her shoulder and she glanced up to see Polaris standing there.


"Oh, hi," she said, smiling.


"Good afternoon," Polaris replied, "I see you're as intrigued as everyone else by this new establishment."


"Can a singular cart really be called an 'establishment'? Don't you need a building to claim that title?" Chelsea asked, and Polaris snickered, patting her on the back.


"I have to say I'm surprised by the turnout, but I suppose when one lives somewhere for an eternity, anything new opening must be absolutely enthralling. When things are so stagnant for so long in your surroundings, the simplest little change or addition can feel downright exhilirating."


Chelsea nodded in agreement, then turned her focus back to the cart as they moved up one, the person in the front of the line having moved on ahead. Chelsea wanted to think about coffee, but all she could think about was Xorlack.


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"So what about you? You've never really lived as a person like I or Chelsea have, what would you like to experience most?" Monica asked as she floated down the chip aisle - or what most closely resembled the chip aisle - while Juno swept. Juno stopped and chewed on her lip, thinking about it.


"How do you know I never got to live as a person?" Juno asked, raising an eyebrow.


"Because you don't strike me as someone who existed outside of this place," Monica said, "but please, prove me wrong. I love nothing more than to be put in my place."


"If I could name something," Juno said, stopping sweeping and leaning against one of the freezer doors at the end of the aisle, "I would have to say connections with others. Or...at the very least, the chance to make them."


"You don't think the connections you make here are as real?" Monica asked, "you don't consider Chelsea or I your friend?"


"I wouldn't say that, but I do think you and Chelsea would agree there's an inherent difference between connections as a living person and connections as an ethereal being. Humans are messy, raw, but they're real. A lot of them, more often than not, hide their feelings, sure, but so many others wear their hearts on their sleeves and that's good too. They can connect over the smallest things, a band they both like or something like that. Here...everything is so surface level. We are friends because there's no better alternative in proximity. That isn't to say I don't like you guys, but let's not make it out to be more than it is."


Monica floated as she watched Juno go back to sweeping and felt her heart, if she still had one, drop a bit. What had happened to Juno to make her feel this way? Hell, even Polaris - the coldest, most distant mother fucker around - would agree with them that the connections they shared here in the shop were as real as anything else. Chelsea, however, might currently agree with Juno.


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"I hate change," Chelsea said as the next person in the front of the line departed.


"Well, I could lend you bills if that's what you're asking," Polaris remarked, making her chuckle.


"You know what I mean," she said as they moved forward, "I don't like it when things are different. I think losing my sister, especially the way I did, made me scared of anything ever being different. That's partially why I never dated too. I didn't like the change it would bring to my single life, and then didn't like the change it would bring if we broke up, so I just flatout avoided the entire situation until I came here and met Xorlack."


"How is that going, by the way?" Polaris asked, pulling a cigar out from his tin and lighting it.


"And the thing is," Chelsea continued, ignoring his inquiry, "...I didn't hate the way it changed my life, actually dating someone, and that surprised me. I guess, because, if you meet the right people, it doesn't change much at all. All you have now is a better support system. But living in one dimension, working and dating in another, it's hard. I don't...I don't know how long I can go on like this for and now THAT change scares me."


"The universe is constantly in flux," Polaris said, taking a long drag from his cigar, "in fact, there's a famous saying that every ten years, all your atoms are replaced, making you an entirely new person, quite literally, but this is, in fact, not accurate. It's every year, not every ten. This is because your body is constantly undergoing cellular turnover, meaning old cells are broken down and new ones are built using nutrients from food, effectively replacing the atoms that make them up. So literally every year, regardless of the decisions one makes in their personal life, they wind up a wholly new individual come the following year simply because of change."


"That's...terrifying," Chelsea said, chuckling nervously.


"The universe often is," Polaris said, tapping the ash from his cigar to the ground, before adding, "and I think that's why I like The Elsewhere, because here, you know what everything is. It might be a monstrous abomination of unknown origin, but you can tell it's exactly that. Nothing is trying to hide itself. Everyone is so transparent, and in the case of folks like Monica, quite literally. But that world...the 'real' world....it was never like that."


Chelsea gave Polaris a confused look, furrowing her brow.


"How do you know?" she asked.


"I've been there more than you could realize," Polaris responded as they moved up in line, becoming the penultimate folks waiting now; Polaris adjusted his tie, puffing smoke into the air as he said, "all I'm saying, Chelsea, is that change is scary, understandably so, but it's also not inherently bad. After all, if you hadn't applied for this job, we wouldn't be having this conversation now, would we? That's a change worth being happy for, isn't it? Being here?"


Chelsea smiled and nodded. It was.


It really, really was.


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"Hey, come check this out!" Juno shouted, as Monica floated her way over to where Juno was currently stationed. By a wall, behind a single shelf unit, was a darkened doorway that led into a further darkened room. Juno and Monica gripped the shelf and started moving it aside, allowing Juno to slip inside as Monica simply floated right through. Once through, Juno stopped and looked at Monica, shaking her head.


"I always forget you can just go through things," she said.


"It is rather convenient," Monica replied.


Together, the two girls entered further, as Juno's left hand ran along the wall, searching for any kind of light switch. After a few minutes of scanning, she found it, and flipped it on, lighting up the room as they both gasped. The room was a full on arcade, filled to the brim with working cabinets, pinball machines, prize machines, ticket machines and everything. The two girls started to laugh in surprise.


"Why didn't I know this was here?" Juno asked.


"Considering it was covered up, I don't think anyone knew it was here," Monica remarked.


Juno and Monica continued further in as Juno ran her hands along the cold steel and bright plastic of the machines. She stopped at one, a pinball table designed to look exactly like the shop, and stared at it. Monica stopped beside her, floating, a gnawing feeling gathering in the pit of what was once her stomach.


"Are...are we just characters in an arcade machine?" Monica asked, and Juno laughed.


"Okay, The Elsewhere is weird, but no. I think Luna maybe had this built because she was proud of it at one point. Now she doesn't seem so proud of the store, and I wonder why. She's rarely here, she doesn't like Polaris being around, and she barely interacts with her employees. I wonder what changed."


"Peoples attitudes towards things they once loved can switch on a dime," Monica said, shrugging, "maybe the shop once meant something to her but now it means something else. Where once was something special now stands something...I don't know...painful. I'm just guessing here. But still, maybe that's why it's hidden. I think we should uncover it completely, open it up to the customers, I think they would appreciate it."


"Would Luna be okay with that?" Juno asked, and Monica shook her head.


"I don't know, I don't work for her, only you guys can decide that," Monica said, "I'm gonna go into the change machine and get some money though, and we can see if these things still run!"


With that, Monica turned tail and quickly zipped away, leaving Juno to stare at the pinball machine and wonder. Wonder why and how it came to be, and why it was buried now, like some intentionally forgotten relic of shame. She wondered if Luna was growing tired of the place proper, or maybe, as Monica had claimed, it didn't mean what it once meant to her, and this reminder was simply too painful to witness regularly. After all, she did barely come into the shop proper, so perhaps Monica's theory held water. Either way, when Monica returned with a bagful of quarters, they popped them inside and got to playing, and after a bit, the reason didn't matter anymore.


What mattered is they had it now.


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Chelsea stepped forward, but Polaris politely stepped in front of her, tipping his hat to the goat headed girl behind the cart counter and thinking as he glanced at his options on the little sign within. Chelsea crossed her arms and impatiently tapped her foot, indicating her annoyance.


"Hello, I think today I would like to try your #3 Special, that sounds delightful," Polaris said. The girl got him his coffee, handed it to him and he paid, then paid for Chelsea's as well, to her surprise, before thanking her and turning to face Chelsea once more, lifting the cup to his face and taking what she could only assume was a long sip before exhaling and saying, "Don't be afraid of change, Chelsea. That's what made Luna into who she is today. You're better than that."


With that, he turned and walked off, down the street, and into the void. Chelsea shook her head before smiling and finally going to the front.


"What can I get for you?" the girl asked.


"Well," Chelsea said, leaning in and reading her nametag, "Anais, pretty name by the way, I think I'd also like the #3 Special since my friend seemed pleased with it."


"You got it, one Hot Cup O' Joe comin' up," Anais said. As she prepared, Chelsea leaned on the little counter and watched her.


"Is this your permanent spot or do you intend on moving around? Figure with a cart you can go anywhere, not tied down to a specific location, you know?" Chelsea asked.


"Not that simple," Anais replied, "especially not in The Elsewhere, where every district has its own specific rules for what you can and cannot sell, so. For the time being, this is where I'll stay posted. Wanted to open a proper store, was supposed to get in some recent land developers plan, but he disappeared so now I'm just stuck in this cart. But I kinda like it, ya know? It's cozy."


Anais handed Chelsea her drink and she thanked her, taking a long drink before stopping and looking at the cup. She pulled the lid off and glanced inside, only to witness dozens of tiny, screaming faces peering up at her as they melted into the liquid. Chelsea looked back up at Anais, who just shrugged.


"That's Joe, he's bred specifically for this," she said nonchalantly and Chelsea sighed.


"Of course he is," she said, "why would coffee be normal here. So your plans changed and now you're just in this cart, huh? I work right over there, in the Last Shop on the Left."


"That's cool, I'll come by now and then for snacks," Anais said, "and yeah, I mean, it's unfortunate that my deal fell through but, ya know, sometimes change is for the better. I like it out here. Easier access to customers, fresh air, my own dedicated space. I think, in the end, it worked out for the best."


Chelsea smiled, nodding. Everything in flux, and seemingly for the best, it seemed. After she and Anais spent a bit of time talking, she finally returned to the shop with Anais in tow, where she found Juno and Monica playing in the now fully reopened and functional arcade room, and decided to shirk her duties for the remainder of the day, opting instead to join them. Besides, it had been a slow day anyway, there'd only been one customer early in the morning, so she wasn't worried. Standing in the room, drinking her literal cup of Joe, Chelsea couldn't help but feel like maybe Polaris was right, in some warped way. Everyone here was exactly who they said they were, and unashamed of it, and maybe that was for the better. Odd, Chelsea thought, that she felt more at home amongst what most would consider 'monsters' than the people she was supposed to be a part of the species with.


But maybe her atoms had just rearranged that way.

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"Hopefully you've taken some of what we've discussed today and manage to apply it to your life. I just want you to be the healthiest, happiest version of you that you can be. And while I still have your attention, I'd like to say that this episode is sponsored by Freelings, a journal with daily instructional steps to help you feel your feelings more freely," Nat said, holding up the book, "and I for one, fucking hate myself for it."

"Alright, cut," Jay said, stepping away from the camera, and rubbing his hands over his face, "alright, that was funny, but, ya know...maybe don't insult the advertiser. It was one of the least sleazy we could manage to find."

"The whole thing about selling stuff to people I'm trying to help just feels gross. I recognize we need the financial backing, but...there has to be a less intrusive, slimy way to go about it, right?"

"Advertising on the whole is slimy and intrusive," Misty said, sitting at the table, taking notes for the book, "but it can often be presented in a way that isn't so. That's the trick, I think, to find a way to make it appear like you're genuine about what it is you're attempting to sell to them, and not just using your platform as a way to make excess income at the expense of your gullible audience."

Jay turned and looked at Misty, who was eating a bagel. She just shrugged and went back to work as he scoffed and turned back to the camera.

"Listen, we cannot survive on subscriber base and merch payments alone," Jay said, "I know it's awful to hear, and everyone likes to complain a singular 15 second adspot now, but it's just true. Advertising is what pays for things. Plain and simple. It's why television worked the way it did for so many years. Not necessarily because it was the only option with no real alternative competition, but because its model flat out worked. So just try to recognize that Corrine and I picked the best possible ones for you to work with, and let's shoot this thing right."

"I guess you're right," Nat said, sighing and looking at the journal in her hands, "...I just wish..."

A moment passed as Jay prepared for another take.

"...I just wish I wasn't a salesman," Nat whispered.

But, truth be told, her money was, in fact, going to good causes.

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"I'm scared," Courtney said, sitting propped up in the hospital bed, Violet standing next to it. Violet was holding one of Courtney's hands, squeezing reassuringly, as Courtney tried to brace herself for the coming operation. After a moment, Courtney exhaled and added, "it's so funny, without your mom this might not be happening for a while, and it's all I've wanted for a long time now, but I'm still so scared."

"I think it's, uh, normal, ya know, to be scared of medical stuff," Violet replied, "no matter what it is. I think that's natural."

"...you're not gonna see me differently, are you?" Courtney asked, and Violet gave her a confused look. Courtney sighed and explained, "because, ya know, you've known me this way for so long now, you won't...this isn't gonna change how you see me, right?"

"I could never see you as, um, I guess, ya know, anyone other than who you are," Violet said, shrugging, "so no?"

Courtney smiled and blushed. Violet really was her best friend, she knew she could count on her support no matter what. But the idea...the idea of having her bottom surgery, of being, physically, identical to a cis woman, it still scared her. This was a big part of her identity for so long now, and yet it still made her anxious to know that, in a few short hours, she would no longer be the person she used to be, physically anyway. That was going to take some getting used to. A nurse entered and told Violet she would have to leave a minute, as they began to prep Courtney for surgery, and Violet nodded in understanding response.

"You'll be here when I wake up?" Courtney asked.

"Where else am I gonna go? I don't drive," Violet said, making her laugh. Courtney took Violet's hand in hers, their fingers interlaced, and brought it up to her face, rubbing her hand against her cheek, sighing comfortingly.

"Thank you," Courtney whispered, as Violet blushed and nodded slowly. After this, Violet was forced to take leave of the room, and wound up back in the waiting area where Corrine, who had driven her here, was still sitting, reading an outdated magazine. Violet plopped herself down in the chair beside Corrine and chewed nervously on her fingernails as Corrine turned the page of the magazine and scoffed.

"This might've been good advice two years ago, but it's pretty outdated now," Corrine said, "medical science moves fast."

"Can I ask you something? And you have to promise not to tell my mom," Violet said, getting Corrine's attention. Corrine put the magazine in her lap and turned to face her fully.

"Sure, what's up?"

"Um, well...when you...when did you, ya know, growing up, realized that, uh...ya know...you..." Violet started, before trailing off and looking down at her hands in her lap, clearly anxious, "...when did you first like girls?"

Corrine's eyes widened in surprise. She'd never taken Violet as someone to even have crushes, but let alone one on the same sex. Corrine exhaled and leaned back in her chair, folding her arms as she bit her lip and thought about it. When had it started? She'd never had a crush on a boy, that much was certain, but when had she first officially crushed on someone? For a good chunk of her adolescence, Corrine had been entirely detached from social interaction for the most part, opting to avoid her peers and instead spend time alone. So...Freshman year in high school, maybe?

"I think when I was...15," Corrine said, "I mean, in hindsight, there were definitely girls I thought were pretty when I was little, but I didn't really understand what that meant until later on, you know? But the clues were always there, even if I was bad at picking up on them. But then, when I was a freshman in high school, whoo boy. There was this girl in my science class that I just lost my mind for. She had this long, wavy chocolate colored hair and these amber eyes, and she was really, really smart. Wanted to go to college for genetics and stuff. That was probably my first major realization."

"I never thought I would, ya know...feel, um, feel anything romantic for anyone," Violet said, almost shaking, "cause I...I'm not, uh, I'm not, ya know...normal."

"You're perfectly normal," Corrine said, putting a hand on Violet's back and rubbing comfortingly, before adding, "...why don't you want your mom to know?"

"I don't know."

"You know she wouldn't judge you, right? Hell, her entire identity is based around accepting others and helping them be happy as themselves, why wouldn't she want that for her own daughter?" Corrine asked, before adding, "I mean, sure, things change a bit when it's your kid, sometimes, but I don't see your mom as one of those kinds of people. But if you don't want me to say anything, then your secret is safe with me."

Violet smiled and nodded, still staring at her lap. It felt good to get it out of her. To have said it at least once. Even if it wasn't to the woman she trusted most in the world.

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"I know how you feel," Misty said as she and Nat sat at the table while Jay worked on lighting; Misty continued, "the idea of having to accept any kind of questionable funds with equally questionable morals is...it makes me uncomfortable. I'm lucky inso that I only write for others, not myself, and that means the money is already taken care of. But for those out there attempting to make a name for themselves via their text, I can only imagine how frustrating the whole thing must be, trying to secure some kind of finances when you know all they want in return is for you to shill."

Nat nodded, half listening. She was eating chips and dip, but watching Jay work on the set in the corner of the kitchen, where they often shot outros. All she could think about was how gross it felt to have to whore herself out to simply continue to do what she'd always done.

"In a way," Nat finally said, "the freedom leaving the station gave me is also crippling me creatively, because now I'm publicly funded, sure, but not on the same level as the station. Sometimes I wonder if it's even worth it to stay in the business, just because of that."

Misty finished her bagel and licked errant cream cheese off her fingertips before sipping her coffee, then setting her mug down on the table loudly with a thunk, causing Nat to fully look at her.

"It's funny, the way we both interact with our respective mediums; here you are, insisting you want to help others, being openly yourself, presenting things the way they are or should be and hoping those listening take your advice to hear for the betterment of their lives. Meanwhile I'm trying to be anyone other than me. I want to live in the shadows, do my work and stay unbothered."

"Did you ever write for you?" Nat asked, and Misty grimaced.

"Once, but...but not anymore, and not in a very, very long time," Misty replied, "that's the thing most people don't tell you about art. It's only worthwhile if it's financially viable."

"See I don't agree with that," Nat said.

"You don't have to, and you're right not, but when dealing with the corporate world...it's sadly the truth," Misty said, before going back to jotting down notes in her little booklet. Nat sighed and looked back at Jay, who was now adjusting features on the camera, and she wondered how he really felt about all this. Sure, he and Corrine went through and they gathered what they assumed to be the best of the worst possible sponsors, but did he really accept things as they were, or was he also angry with her, the way she was angry with herself, for having to go down this route? Especially now with the influx of new fans from her livestream, and needing the extra money to cover it, bandwidth costs and all. She wanted to ask him.

But she was afraid of hearing what she didn't want to hear.

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Corrine, after dropping Violet back off at home, went to Ashley's. Sitting cross legged in the bed, wearing nothing but her oversized sweater while Ashley returned with two cups of tea, Corrine couldn't help but feel weird about the interaction she'd had with Violet that afternoon. Clearly the kid was going through some kind of identity crisis, and, okay, she had asked Corrine not to tell her mother...but she had said nothing about telling her aunt. Corrine knew it was fucked, to out someone when they didn't want to be outed, but she needed advice. Ashley, after handing Corrine her cup, also climbed back onto the bed and sat back, leaning against the headboard.

"You know," Ashley said, after taking a sip, "I don't think I ever needed liquids as much after sex as I do with you."

"Is that a good or a bad thing?" Corrine asked.

"I'd say it's a positive, it means you wear me out," Ashley remarked, winking, making Corrine chuckle. Corrine then turned and faced her, legs still crossed, holding her cup between her hands.

"I need to ask your advice on something," Corrine said, "...and please don't talk to Nat about this, but...Violet told me today that she might have a crush...on a girl. She came to me for advice, asking when the first time I ever had one was, and I told her my experience. But the whole thing has left me wondering...what about you?"

A pause, and Ashley thought about it. Well, outside of the nurse in the hospital, there hadn't been one woman in particular she could think of that had been an 'awakening' of sorts, but she also, admittedly, had never liked women, or at least not accepted having liked them, until after her illness. She hesitated answering, lifting her cup to her lips and taking a sip.

"I was never with any girls, I didn't grow up liking girls, I didn't have feelings for woman until after I got better and, even then, they were pretty sparse, minimal, nothing major. So no, I don't have a 'story' like other queer women might, but that doesn't make me any less queer. Sexuality is fluid, after all, for a lot of people and can change over time. I think I just was so deep in the closet, trying to be so perfect, that I wasn't willing to let anything ruin that for me, you know? And then you showed up."

"I ruined it for you?" Corrine asked, half grinning.

"It was more like being punched in the face, this sort of...sudden holy shit moment where I realized, the moment I sw, what it was I was missing and what I'd always been looking for. So no, until you, nobody else ever piqued my interest romantically, if that's what you're asking."

A brief pause, as silence filled the room and Corrine swallowed her pride.

"Then what makes you think I'm so worthwhile? Why should I believe you won't just leave me for someone else?" she asked, near tears.

"Whoa, hey, what's....what's going on, are you okay?" Ashley asked, scooting forward, putting her cup down on the bedside table and placing her hands on Corrine's face, lifting it to look at her; she added, "Corrine, why would you...why would you think I would do that? Haven't I made it crystal clear that you're all I want?"

Corrine nodded and Ashley smiled.

"Exactly," she whispered, continuing, "so there's no reason to be afraid of me leaving or this ending. And as for helping Violet, you did your best, I'm sure, but maybe I'm the one she should talk to. I am her aunt, after all."

"You can't tell her I said anything," Corrine said, "I promised her-"

"I won't, but when the time comes, she needs to know I'll be there."

"And when will the time come? When will we be out together?" Corrine asked, and this one surprised Ashley, because she herself wasn't sure. She was still with Stephen, she was still technically in a heterosexual relationship, and she was, in a sense, having an affair with Corrine. When would she feel comfortable ending her ongoing life for something different?

"I don't know, but...but we'll make it happen soon, okay?" Ashley whispered, kissing Corrine on the forehead, "because, frankly, you're too special to hide from others."

Corrine pushed herself into Ashley and cried, while Ashley ran her fingers through her hair, comforting her. Corrine had a point. It was wrong to continue living in shadows, at least in their situation. If someone doesn't want to come out of the closet yet, that's understandable, but to be married to a man and still sleeping with a woman, that was an entirely different set of circumstances, and Corrine deserved better. They both did. And Ashley knew her time with Stephen was at an end. History or not, it was over.

It just kind of hurt to admit it.

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Nat was standing in the checkout line of the grocery store, picking up a frozen pizza and a handful of other items, when she felt a tap on her shoulder. She jumped a bit, while retrieving her credit card from her wallet, and turned just to notice Sharla standing there in her workout attire. Nat laughed, a hand to her chest, and nodded.

"Okay, don't do that again," Nat said, "you damn near spooked me half to death. I was so focused."

"Sorry, I'm just trying to be friendly," Sharla said, the both of them laughing now; Sharla then asked, "how're things going? We haven't spoken much since before the livestream."

"It's...weird," Nat said, unsure of how to explain it, before turning to fully face her and asking, "hey, do you have sponsors?"

"Sure, gotta. Can't survive otherwise," Sharla said, holding up her water bottle and shaking it, "like this company, they gave me a free bottle and all kinds of free healthy waters-"

"The fuck is a healthy water? Isn't all water healthy?"

"Yeah, drink leaded water and then come talk to me," Sharla said, chuckling, "anyway, they give me all sorts of perks just for featuring the bottle in my work."

"But you...you don't actually...advertise it?"

"No, it just being there is enough. The way I saw it was that I felt bad for trying to sell things to people who are just trying to stay in shape, get in shape, etc. I didn't want them to feel as though I was taking advantage of them looking for help by me trying to sell them useless crap. And sure, what I'm advertising isn't harmful by any means, it's a goddamned water bottle, but it still made me feel uneasy. So, I told them, I'll do this but under one condition...I don't say anything about it. It's just there. People see me use it, and some like it aesthetically and others like me enough to just be inspired to buy one and that's that. It's a prop. That's how you have to look at it."

Nat nodded slowly, taking this advice in. Sharla had a point. Look at advertising as a prop, just something to be seen during filming, and perhaps she could quash the gross feeling actually advertising it gave her in her stomach. Nat finished paying for her things, and then, after bagging them, looked back to Sharla.

"You know, you're really business savvy," Nat said, "I'm glad to have you on the team."

"Well thank you!" Sharla replied excitedly, sounding genuinely touched. She paid for her items, and together they started walking out of the grocery to their respective vehicles.

"So what do you think about a journal that encourages people, with templates, to express how they feel on a given day?" Nat asked.

"I think it sounds pushy," Sharla said.

"Yeah, that's what I thought too," Nat replied.
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The one thing you could say about Jackson Strange was that magic...was not exactly the career he'd been aiming for.


Unlike Allie or Benny or Rufus Heck, for whom magic was a passion, for Jackson Strange, magic was a job. A skill he knew he was proficient at and thusly could ride all the way to the bank. When he had been in high school, he'd attended a party and, while there, had done a few simple card tricks to entertain the masses. When their fawning over his easily understandable card tricks simmered down, that's when it hit Jackson...people were dumb, and would believe anything they saw. So he focused on magic, created a persona, and the rest was history. But Jackson didn't want to be a goofy stage magician with a fancy costume like he'd seen growing up, no, he wanted to be a cool magician, one that worked on the street and didn't play by the standard rules. Needless to say, he achieved his goals threefold. Whether that was a good thing or not remained to be seen, seeing as it made him somewhat of a pariah amongst the industry, many of whom worked longer and harder than he had and yet never attained the same level of fame he'd gotten in all their years. But Jackson found an audience, not in the traditionalists, but in the new age and outsider crowd. The gothic scene, especially. He was a big draw at parties, and there was no bigger outsider party than that of The Divine Arts.


The only problem now was...what did one wear to such an event? Molly Hatchet had no idea.


Standing in front of her mirror in her bedroom, wearing a plain black backless dress with a slit up to her hip and her hair pulled up into a messy bun, Molly almost didn't recognize herself. After learning this club was set in a grungy downtown underground club, Molly figured the best she could do was try to fit in. So she looked up gothic makeup tutorials - nothing extreme, just the basics - and made her face paler, did heavy eyeliner and dark red lipstick. She actually didn't dislike the way she looked, which was perhaps the most surprising part of all. Benny entered the room, finishing up tying his tie, when he stopped and looked up at her.


"Alright, we need to move if we're gonna make this thing and...whoa," he said, "damn. Look at you."


Molly turned her head and blushed, looking at him.


"Well, dare I say I think I'm gonna be there with the best lookin' girl, that's for sure," Benny said, "Ya know, I didn't know I had a thing for goth girls until just now."


"Oh, was my one time attempt your awakening? Boy you're easily swayed," Molly replied, the both of them laughing as Benny approached and put his hands on her hips, tugging her towards him, making her gasp.


"It's a shame you're gonna have to reapply your lipstick," he said quietly, before kissing her. Truth was, despite all that was going on...Molly Hatchet had never been happier in her life, all thanks to the relationship between herself, Benny and Olivia. After a little impromptu makeout session, Benny and Molly arrived at the club, showed their tickets and were let in instantly. As they headed down the stairs and into the main foyer, Benny tugged at the chest of his suit.


"I'm not used to wearing such tight clothes," he muttered.


"Try wearing heels when you never do, my god, I'm going to break my neck," Molly said.


"That's the attitude to have while in here, embrace death," Benny said, making her chuckle. After they reached the bar, next door to the theatre where the show proper would be held, they stood and ordered some drinks. While waiting, they scanned the area, and after a moment, Molly pointed at two women off in the distance in black shoulderless dresses, the texture of which looked to mimic spiderweb.


"What about them?" she asked, "look at their knee high boots. I would rather wear those."


"Well we can make that happen," Benny said, "but they have to stay on in bed."


"But you really are discovering new things you like," Molly said, laughing as someone sidled up beside her and ordered a drink. Molly looked towards the man, and realized immediately it was Jackson Strange. Once he got his drink, he lifted it to his lips and then looked at Molly.


"Hey girl," he said, "how are you doing tonight?"


"I've been better," Molly said.


"You here for the show?" he asked.


"Think that's what everyone is here for, yes," Benny said, chiming in.


"Well, hope you enjoy, it's gonna be a doozy," Strange said, downing the rest of his drink, wiping his mouth on his long duster sleeve and then turning to leave. Molly shook her head and scoffed, as Benny took a sip of his own drink.


"I really dislike him," Benny said.


"Get in line," Molly said.


                                                                           ***


Allie and Zoe were sitting in Allie's car, parked outside of a seemingly rundown apartment building. Allie checked the card Rufus had given her one more time and rolled her eyes. Yes. This was, in fact, the right address. She groaned and laid her head back on the headrest, putting a hand over her face as Zoe turned her head to face Allie.


"We can just go," Zoe said, "We don't have to do this."


"Rufus said Salem Shaw knew Raymond Sykes better than anyone," Allie said, "I need as much information on the guy just in preparation for what's to come. Eventually we're going to come face to face, and when that moment comes, I need to know exactly what I'm up against."


"Well, I'm here with you, you're not alone," Zoe said, grabbing and holding Allie's hand, making her smile. The two women nodded, stepped out of the car and, zipping up their respective jackets, headed up to the apartment building. It was so run down there wasn't even any security to get in the front door, they instead just pulled the doors open and headed right inside. Once there, they stood and looked around, wondering where they might find an index of tenants and what apartments they resided in. After a moment, Zoe tapped Allie on the shoulder and pointed at the mailboxes built into the wall, with names and apartment numbers on them. They walked over and found Salem Shaw, Apartment 3B. Together, they then headed up the stairs, seeing as the elevator was out of order - and looked like it had been for years - and eventually landed on the third floor. They then began scouring the door plaques for 3B, until they finally found it. Allie exhaled, reached out and knocked. After a minute, the door opened, a chain keeping it half shut, as a nervous looking half face peered back out at them.


"Hello?" the face asked.


"Hi, I'm...I'm Allie Meers, this is my friend Zoe Fitch, we're magicians. Rufus Heck told me to come speak with you," Allie said, "I hope we're not imposing."


"Rufus sent you?" the face asked, its one visible eyebrow lowering in suspicion, "...why?"


"Can we come in and discuss that?" Zoe asked, as a second voice called out from inside the apartment.


"Open the door, Salem," the female voice said, and the face sighed, then did as it was told. The latch unchained and the door swung fully open, revealing a man who looked to be in his mid thirties with a short beard and scruffy brown hair. He was wearing a short sleeved button down shirt with a pattern on it that resembled arcade carpet and torn jeans. He stepped aside and allowed Allie and Zoe entrance into the apartment. As they walked inside, they then saw the woman from whom the voice seconds ago had come from. She was tall, over 6 feet, with bleach blonde long hair, wearing a pencil skirt and a nice blue blouse with white polka dots. Together, the two seemed utterly mismatched. She smiled at them as they entered her line of sight, and they smiled back politely.


"Hello," she said brightly, walking towards them and extending her hand to shake theirs, "I'm Jane. Rufus sent you guys?"


"Hello Jane, nice to meet you, and yes he did," Allie said, as she and Zoe shook her hand; Allie then turned to look at Salem, who had lit a cigarette and was taking a long drag before adding, "we really need to talk to you."


"I mean, I'm not...I'm not working anymore, I don't know why you'd be interested in speaking to me," Salem said, coughing as he smoked.


"It's about Raymond Sykes," Allie said, and Salem's eyes widened.


"...fuck," he whispered.


                                                                           ***


Sitting in the theatre, Benny kept wiggling in his seat, as Molly looked at him and smirked until he finally noticed her and stopped, staring back at her.


"Enjoying the show?" he asked, and she laughed, nodding; Benny grinned and said, "my seat has like a broken spring or something and it's jabbing me right in the crotch. It's very unpleasant."


Just then the lights came down and the theatre got dark, as some cheers and whistles erupted from the small crowd. Benny and Molly then covered their eyes as they were blasted with blinding white spotlights from the front of the stage, illuminating just the middle of the stage, where the infamous glass box stood. Music was playing, and after a minute, Jackson Strange, in his regalia, stepped out to massive applause. Benny scoffed and looked around.


"It's a goddamn fashion show for him, and look at how they're treating him, like he's the Saint of Magic or some shit," Benny whispered.


"He's insufferable," Molly whispered back, "but I think you're right, the adoration is far more insufferable simply because it lacks any sense."


Jackson walked to the center of the stage and stopped, putting his hand on the glass box and then, looking at the crowd, grinned.


"Welcome...to The Divine Arts!" he shouted, making the crowd erupt.


"And they said Claire ran a cult," Benny whispered, making Molly smirk.


"Tonight I will be giving you an example of the trick I am looking to pull off publicly on a large scale in just a few months time, and that is escaping from this transparent glass box," Jackson said, "the illusion of escape is an ancient one, going back all the way to the start of magic itself. And why does it entice us so? Because, at one time or another, we've all wanted to escape."


"Jesus, someone call the pretentious police," Molly whispered, making Benny chuckle and hold her hand.


"Well, tonight, I intend to prove, before this esteemed crowd, that escape is possible, even when it seemingly isn't," Jackson said, "and when I am done, you too will realize that, even when things look their bleakest, you can also pull off the unimaginable, and do the impossible. I am Jackson Strange, and this is The Glass Box!"


Another cheer erupted, as Molly rolled her eyes. This was going to be a long night.


                                                                           ***


"Yeah, I know what a bastard he is, upfront," Salem said, "I saw it firsthand."


"You worked with him?" Allie asked, and Salem shook his head as he sat on the arm of the couch.


"Nah, didn't get that personal with him outright, definitely didn't enter into some kind of business relationship," Salem said, "no, I dated his daughter. Nicole. Hearing she'd put a hole in her head was...hard. But, truth be told, I wouldn't be shocked if he was the reason she put it there. Man was a deceitful, controlling, manipulative piece of shit."


"How long were you two together?" Zoe asked, as Jane came back, handing everyone coffee mugs before seating herself on the couch, beside Salem, her free hand on his leg as if to comfort him in some sort of way during this moment.


"Not long, 5, 6 months maybe," Salem said, lifting the mug to his lips and drinking before taking another drag on his cigarette, "but the things I saw, the things she told me...Rufus was the only one I ever shared that with, and only because he and I wound up doing a charity event together. He was retired, but they begged him, loved him, so he agreed. It was a one night thing. To get to perform with your hero, how could I turn that down? Some rich kids birthday. So afterwards Rufus and I strike up a conversation, we get to talking, turns out we both the governor, albeit for different reasons. Start swapping stories."


"He's told me what he was involved in," Allie said, "Rufus, I mean. But I'm still not clear on what it is you know."


Salem leaned back against the couch and sighed. He looked into his coffee mug and waited, tapping his nails on it.


"...I watched him," Salem said, "watched him make Nicole do things she wasn't comfortable with. Perform financial alterations she didn't want to perform. Phony up tax documents, the whole thing. Nicole would tell me these things too. I didn't just see it. Sometimes, when we would get together, she would break down from the stress and tell me all about what he was making her do. Controlled every aspect of her life, using her job as a means to cover his tracks with where his campaign funds came from."


"Why did you stop seeing one another?" Allie asked, and Salem scoffed.


"That one, funny enough, wasn't Raymonds doing," Salem said, "uh...that was...ya know, I was mad about it, cause I actually really liked her. Wanted to help her get out from under his tyranny. Turns out she had a more vetted romantic interest in her own stepbrother than me."


This admittance made both Allie and Zoe recoil in disgust. They looked at one another, then back at Salem, who just smirked as he took another long drag and nodded.


"Yeah," he said, "that's pretty much the response I had too. Walked right in on 'em. Nicole obviously knew I wasn't a threat, cause Raymond never came after me, at least not for what I knew, cause he didn't know I knew what I did. From what she had told me. But he did come after me for another reason."


"...which was?" Zoe asked, almost scared at this point.


"We were careful," Salem said, "but apparently carefulness doesn't prohibit you from still fucking up. About a month after it ended, she called me up, told me she was with child. Said she didn't know what to do, was scared to go to her father about it, understandably so. Her terror was entirely justified, as I'd soon find out, because after she did, at my insistance - the one mistake I will never forgive myself for - I learned that not only did he force her to abort it, which she wasn't entirely against, but then started checking up on her regularly. In ways a father never should. About things a father never should. She was entirely under his thumb and I couldn't help her, and knowing she had dated me, he took that ire out on me. Said I'd gotten her pregnant and then left. Said I refused to come back or give her money. These lies he spread, they...they destroyed my career. Nobody would work with me. That's why winding up at that party, with Rufus...that was a blessing. Working for the first time in so long. I missed it so bad."


"Rufus told me that Raymond also told people he was sleeping with his assistant, because of their age gap, and that they ruined his career too. Seems to be his go to excuse to slander people," Allie said, "...so...if Raymond Sykes learns that we're after him?"


"If Raymond Sykes learns you're after him..." Jane started, before she and Salem exchanged a look.


"...run," Salem whispered, finishing her sentence.


Allie's blood ran cold.


                                                                            ***


Sitting in the theatre after the show had ended, while everyone else was piling out, Molly couldn't help but feel like she and Benny were the only ones not as impressed by Jackson's magic show. Sure, he did what he said he would do. He got into the box, he vanished, and reappeared elsewhere in the theatre. But to Molly, the illusion wasn't this feat of grandiosity that it appeared to be to everyone else watching. As she dug through her purse, looking for her car keys, Benny sat in his chair beside her, shaking his head, his chin on his fist, his elbow propped up on the seat rest.


"You know, I've seen some pompous people enter this industry during my time," Benny said, "but this guy might just take the cake."


"He owns the whole goddamn bakery, Benny," Molly replied.


"His entire thing is 10% magic and 90% schtick. He's nothing but a public orator, extolling how great magic is instead of just...ya know...DOING magic," Benny said, "it's disgusting. He's a magic show designed for reality TV. And all that crap about everyone wanting to vanish sometimes, I mean, sure, he's not wrong, but to tie it into this kind of faux positivity you can do anything mentality, that's even worse. He's preying on peoples biggest insecurities. Nothing more disgusting and underhanded than that. So he escaped from a box. He's not fucking Houdini."


And that's when Molly looked up. It had hit her in the middle of her brain like a freight train. How had nobody else seen this? She grinned so wide as she looked at Benny, who looked back at her, confused.


"What?" he asked.


"That's it," she said, "that's how he does it. Houdini."


"...I'm gonna need you to elaborate," Benny added.

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"Do you want another cup of coffee?" Nat asked the woman sitting across from her in the living room, her hands shaking while holding her now empty coffee mug.

"I think if you give another cup you might kill her," Corrine whispered, making Nat chuckle.

"I'm...I'm okay," the woman said, setting the mug down on the table by the couch and exhaling slowly, as if trying to gather her nervous demeanor before speaking; after a moment, she opened the notebook in her lap and pulled a pen from her shirt pocket, then said, "how about we start with your influences?"

"That's been done to death, that's like, the first thing they ever ask you when you get interviewed, even if you've been asked it a million times before. Everyone wants to start at the beginning. I think it's more interesting to start at your worst point. Like, how about, when my husband left me for my sister?"

A quiet came over the room as Jay ran his hands over his face while standing behind the couch, and Corrine snickered to herself. The women nodded solemnly and shrugged as she uncapped her pen.

"Well, you, I mean, it's your story, so sure, wherever you want to start is where we'll start, I've got not emotional stake in this whatsoever," she said, making Nat's eyes widen. The level of honesty took her by surprise, as she didn't often run into that trait from people in this industry. Nat shifted on the couch and cleared her throat.

"Right, well, uh, I guess the first thing that comes to mind when remembering that is how absolutely incompetent it made me feel. I mean, here I was giving advice to strangers every day on living their best lives and being happy with the people they love, and yet I couldn't even see what was going on right in front of my own face. Sure makes you feel stupid in retrospect. It's had its silver linings though, cause it helped me meet new people who are now important to me, but I won't say that it didn't ruin the life I had. If we'd just...no, not we....if I'd just talked to him, maybe it all could've been avoided."

Jay, leaning against the wall, heard the stairs creak and looked over to see Violet coming down the steps cautiously, pulling her bookbag strap over her chest. She stopped and watched her mom talk to this stranger in their living room before looking at Jay, who just smiled at her as Courtney came up behind her, having slept over the night before.

"Hey, you girls want to go get some breakfast?" Jay asked, and they nodded. He was relieved. He didn't want to be here to witness this. Jay grabbed his car keys and, with the girls in tow, headed outside. He figured they'd get some kind of pastry somewhere - specifically so he could get coffee - and then he'd drop them off at school. Anything to remove himself from what he saw as the fracturing of a well oiled machine.

                                                                                                            ***

"I don't think she needs advertisers, at least not the ones she's getting," Jay had said to Corrine the night before, when they were in the editing bay, discussing the influx of advertisers looking to turn Nat and Violet into influencers; Jay continued as he paced, "they aren't interested in her message, they're interested in getting someone people deem trustworthy to spread their message."

"Dude, will you stop pacing, you're driving me nuts," Corrine said as she sat staring at her monitors in her chair, "there's like a million places to sit, just pick one."

"It's just...they're trying to co-opt and then corrupt, you know? I'm not saying she's like a...a cult leader or someone with a lot of pull to people to make them ultimately rearrange their entire lives, but people DO trust her enough to take her advice seriously and this newfound fame has only brought in even more people. Parents. Families. Estranged children. And now here come the swooping vultures, ready to take advantage of that as much as they possibly can."

"My guy, they're just advertisers. They're allll sleazy, there's no varying degrees of sleaziness. If you're sleazy, you're sleazy. You're overthinking this. Besides, what are the odds that she even entertains the idea? Sure, money is enticing, but she's not stupid, Jay, give her some credit," Corrine said, tapping away on her editing board.

"I just don't wanna see her screw up, and I don't wanna see her screw Violet up. She did what she did to get her daughter back, not to gain noteriety, that's just been an unintended side effect. I'm afraid if she goes down that path, the same thing will happen again," Jay said, forcing Corrine to exhale loudly and turn around in her desk chair to face him.

"Okay," she said, "I'm only gonna say this once, because if you don't listen the first time then clearly you've indicated I am not worth listening to and so why bother repeating myself if nobody listens. She's smart. She's said multiple times that she's doing the show for the sake of those who need guidance, not for the monetary reward or the clout. With all that in mind, don't you think we should, oh I don't know, give her the benefit of the doubt?"

Jay sighed and nodded, sitting on the couch and crossing his arms.

"Yeah...yeah I guess you're right," he said, "just makes me anxious. First she's got this ghost writer coming in, and then the meeting with the advertisers, it just feels like so much is changing so fast."

"I'm no fan of change, lord knows," Corrine said, "but not all change is bad."

This statement surprised Jay, seeing how Corrine was often such a gloomy, negative person, but ever since being with Ashley, Corrine's outlook had changed a bit. Now she kind of welcomed it, since it was actually in her favor for once. Jay took in what she'd said, and he knew she was right. Nat was smart, especially when it came to her work, and she wouldn't jeopardize both that and her reborn relationship with Violet just for some cash.

...still...a part of him wondered.

                                                                                                          ***

"I hate this," Violet said, "I don't, um, I don't like this at all."

"I feel it, kiddo," Jay replied.

Jay, Courtney and Violet were sitting in the parking lot of a fast food establishment, having gotten their breakfast off the menu. They were still sitting in the car, parked a bit aways from the restaurant as they ate. Jay picked up his coffee cup and took a long sip while Violet bit and chewed, then set her breakfast sandwich down in her lap and sighed.

"She wasn't, ya know, she wasn't, uh, supposed to do this," Violet said, "she was, um, she was supposed to do the opposite. I thought it'd be different."

"It is different, for what it's worth," Jay said, "I mean, for one, she wants to include you, not that you want that. She should listen to you about that, and don't worry, I'll keep trying to get her to. But Violet, and I hate saying this because it means I'm acknowledging the fact of the matter myself - something I hate - we need advertisers, sponsors, otherwise the thing is unprofitable and unable to continue being made. MY issue is the advertisers she's courting."

"I don't mind, ya know, um, yeah, the book, the lady with the book," Violet said, "but yeah, what you said. About the...the advertisers. I don't like that. They're just after her cause of me."

"Yep. And that's what pisses me off most. Vultures, the lot of 'em," Jay said, "but Corrine told me the other night to just trust in your mother that she wouldn't do anything to harm you and your relationship with her, especially after what she did to get you back, and I do feel like she's right in that regard. Nat's always been about putting others first, helping them with what she does. I don't think she'd run the risk of hurting you again, unintentionally or otherwise. I think you leaving really opened her  eyes."

"If that's true, then why is she still meeting with these people?" Courtney chimed in, surprising Jay, who just sighed and shook his head in response.

"I wish I could tell ya. Obligation? Politeness? There's a certain attitude one has to cultivate to succeed in the entertainment industry and sadly, more often than not, you can't just outright ignore people, so maybe she feels as though she owes them her time. But one thing she doesn't owe them is her show. That's what it comes down to. Listening is cheap. Entering a partnership? That'll cost her, and she knows it."

Jay wasn't wrong, but he still had a sinking feeling in his gut that Nat was entirely capable of fucking up.

Mainly because she had, so many times, regardless of her intentions being in the right place.

                                                                                                    ***

"It all stemmed from a place of worthlessness within myself, I guess," Nat said, "this feels oddly therapeutic."

"I get that a lot," the ghostwriter replied, writing something down without looking up.

"My parents, our parents, they weren't...they weren't bad parents by any means but they were very emotionally unavailable, and I think that stunted my sister, and only enforced me to be even open more so. I wanted to help others. Ever since I was a little girl, I wanted to do the right thing, take care of people, animals, whatever. I always saw the best in others, their full potential, but...never in myself. At least not until my ex husband did."

"It's weird," the ghostwriter said, looking up from her notebook, "people always tell you that you can't find your worth in other people, and only in yourself. It's almost as if they feel trust is somehow untrustworthy if it comes from other people. I'm not saying there's a level of co-dependency that is unhealthy, but there's a level that also makes total sense, because, well....people want to be loved, and to tell someone you can't be loved until you love yourself, that's putting all the blame on an already likely overly internally judgemental person."

Nat straightened up in her posture, surprised by the ghostwriters statement. After a moment, she just shrugged and went back to writing in the notebook.

"Just something that always bothered me," she finished.

"What's your name?" Nat asked, "I'm sorry, that's so unprofessional of me, but I don't remember peoples names until knowing them a while."

"It's fine, nobody ever remembers me, that's what makes me perfect for this job," the ghostwriter said, "my name is Misty LeClaire."

"That's a stripper name," Corrine said, making Nat laugh under her breath and then immediately apologize; Corrine just shrugged and added, "what, it is."

"It's fine, she's not entirely wrong," Misty said, "I'm not happy with it, but at the same time my name is already so fake sounding that when people see it inside a book, they automatically don't think I'm a real person, so it grants me an extra layer of privacy, which I, for one, really appreciate and need. I don't want to be famous, especially not for telling other peoples stories."

Nat nodded, getting an odd sense of detachedness from her. Suddenly a knock at the door, and Corrine stood up, going to answer it. Nat looked back at Misty, who was adjusting her small round spectacles as she kept writing in her notebook.

"You wanna hear a story?" Nat asked, and Misty shrugged, still looking down as she mouthed "whatever", so Nat continued, adding, "when I was a little girl, I went to a taping of this show on public access cable. It was of this woman, Tammy Truman, and she wore this bright pink suit with black trim, and she had this really nice, straight, golden brown hair. Anyway, I went because my aunt was very 'support the arts' type, she often donated to the stations, listened to public radio, stuff like that. So there I am, I must've been about 9, and I'm watching this woman talk to the audience about 'finding their solace'. Didn't know what the hell that meant, but I could tell it resonated with the audience cause they were all kind of weepy and listening intently. Even as a kid you can read the room, tone is easy to pick up, even if it's silent. So anyway at one point she asks this woman to come up on the stage with her, this older woman, maybe in her early to mid 60s, and she asks why she's struggling to fiind her solace, and the woman tells her it's because her daughter, daughters husband and their two children died in a violent car accident recently, and how can one find solace in a world that's so hell bent on showing us pain?"

Misty finally looked up, now clearly listening.

"...and Tammy Truman, she just...she listened, and she nodded, and when all was said and done, she told the lady 'if you can't find solace for yourself, finding it for others is good too'. I know she meant, like, accepting the loss, knowing her family isn't in pain now and that these things happen and things change, but...to me...that meant that you could help others find solace when they struggle to, just like she showed herself doing that very afternoon. After that, I realized two things: the first was that I wanted to help people the way Tammy Truman helped people, and the second...was that I wanted to get paid to do it. Couldn't go to school to become a therapist, that takes too damn long, comes with too much risk, but public access? That was open to anyone willing to try, and goddammit was I willing to try."

Misty tapped her pen on the notebook, chewing on her lip, before they both looked up to see Corrine and another woman entering the room.

"I thought you got lost," Nat said.

"Yeah, how long does it take to answer a door? It was like 7 feet away," Misty added, making Nat smirk; if she was joining in on the barbs, she was clearly letting her walls down, and Nat appreciated that.

"Hello, I'm Marsha Goldblatt, from Sinful Sadness," the woman said, holding her hand out to be shaken, but nobody shook it. After a moment of awkwardness, she retracted her arm and cleared her throat, adding, "well, it's a pleasure to meet you."

"Sinful Sadness?" Misty asked, "isn't that the depression meal kit?"

Everyone looked towards her before looking back at Martha.

"Well, we like to think that we offer easy to put together meal preparation kits for people who, maybe, are just too depressed to cook healthy otherwise. Now, unlike a lot of other kits such as these, ours doesn't bank entirely on their dietary habits. We aren't aiming to make people feel bad that they can't be bothered to cook better. Most of those kits take advantage of the fact that people are busy, tired, or simply lack the facilities to do so, but we're not like that. We're not shaming anyone. We're trying to help people."

"But showing them here's another thing they can't do and taking money from them?" Misty asked, making Nat and Corrine smirk a bit, as Martha glared at her before fixing her face and smiling fake towards Nat once more.

"We know that a lot of people suffer with cooking when they are in a deep depression, and that's why we want to help. We provide healthy food that's extremely easy to create a meal from, so much so that my seven year old can do it, and we just want them to know that there are people out there who care about them, and the way they're taking care of themselves. Who think they deserve better."

"They deserve better? Than...the way they treat themselves? That's the kind of thing you tell trapped in an abusive relationship, not someone struggling with crippling chronic depression," Misty chimed in once more, "all that's gonna do is make them go 'well, I can't even treat myself right, you're right, I AM pathetic', and honestly what's more disgustingly capitalistic than a company pretending to care about your needs, and be your friend, under the guise of making money off you? Hell, so many are so transparent now that they aren't even pretending anymore."

"Does she have to be here?" Martha asked, pointing towards Misty.

"No," Nat said, "she doesn't, but I want her to, because everything she said is true. Look, I'm sure your company, as are many others, are formed with the best of intentions, but she's not wrong. You're making the consumer feel worse every step of the way. Frankly, and forgive me if this is rude, but...if anyone doesn't need to be here, I think it's you."

Martha stared in disbelief momentarily, before briskly thanking them for their time, turning on her heel and exiting from the house, slamming the door on her way out. Nat looked back at Misty and smiled.

"So," Misty said, "where were we?"

"I like this girl," Corrine said happily.

                                                                                                     ***

Violet was laying on her bed staring at her ceiling with her headphones on, listening to white noise, when Nat entered. Violet sat up as Nat got closer, but she merely motioned for Violet to lay back down, and then laid down beside her. Together, mother and daughter, they lay there in silence for a bit, just listening to the nothing that surrounded them. After a few minutes, Violet nestled up to her mom and hugged her, resting her face on her chest. Nat smiled and stroked Violet's hair.

"I was really mean to someone today," Nat said.

"Did they deserve it?" Violet asked.

"Vi, nobody ever deserves to have someone be mean to them, I mean, unless they're, like, actively hurting others or something, then I suppose it's justified. And I guess she kinda was, actually. But still. Actually, it wasn't even me who started it, it was the ghostwriter. I like her. I think I'm gonna work with her on this book. But as far as the advertisements go, I don't know how comfortable I feel. I'd like to find something not sleazy and intrusive."

Another few moments passed as Violet nodded and yawned in response.

"Mommy?" she asked, and Nat grinned, loving that her daughter still called her that even at this age.

"Yes love?" she replied.

"I don't like advertisers either, they make me feel gross," Violet said, "and I don't like being used to make money."

"I'm not using you to make money, am I?" Nat asked, sounding hurt, but Violet just shook her head.

"No, you're, um, you're okay, you're good, but I don't like the idea of them doing it. People I don't know are coming up to me, and they're, uh, they're talking to me like they know me and it makes me very uncomfortable."

"Well, the next time they do that, just be rude back," Nat said, "and if that doesn't work, kick 'em in the shins."

"I like you when you're mean," Violet said, the both of them laughing.
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"You built the Card Sharks second location, didn't you?" Agent Tropper asked, and Molly shifted uncomfortably in her seat.


"I did, yes," she answered meekly.


"What can you tell us about the job?" Agent Siskel asked, "because Allie has told us there's a vault, one that needs to be easily accessible. So can you give us the dimensions of this vault, can you give us any information that-"


"I have blueprints," Molly said, reaching down to the bag beside her and pulling out rolls of paper, placing them on the table, "my boyfriend suggested I bring them. He said a visual aide would be worthwhile. With these you can see exactly what Tony wants me to do, and how it's already being built. The problem is now that I have to keep telling him I have to minor alterations in order to give us enough time to find a way inside of it without him knowing."


"Exactly, because we need access to it," Agent Siskel said, "these should help tremendously, honestly. Your boyfriend made a good suggestion. Why didn't he come here with you today? Is he not good at moral support?"


"He's great at everything," Molly said, "but he had a prior engagement he couldn't reschedule."


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"I feel like maybe I shouldn't have let her go alone," Benny said, sitting on the couch, drinking from a water bottle as Allie sat on the arm of the couch while Rufus admired the glass box they'd acquired; Benny took a swig and added, "after all, she doesn't do great under pressure, so I really feel like maybe I should've gone with her and-"


"Benny, my guy, you need to calm down," Allie said, "Zoe's doing a solo show for us today, covering for the fact we aren't around, so we can be here while Molly hands over what she knows about the vault to the agents. Right now we need to work with them, because, frankly, they're gonna grant you guys immunity and you need that, alright? So let Molly handle it. She's a big girl, she can take care of herself."


"This thing is a mystery," Rufus finally said, "and you say this is the very same type that Jackson Strange uses?"


"The one and the same," Allie replied, standing up and approaching it.


"What's frustrating to me is I feel as though I've seen this before," Rufus said, "it seems so very familiar, and yet I can't place it. I don't know if its because of its modernity, perhaps it's been changed from its original design or what, but lord does it seem recognizable."


Allie stood and nodded, scratching her nose. Benny finished his water bottle, scrunched the plastic in his hand and tossed it to the floor before sighing and saying.


"Ya know, the only way to actually figure it out might just be to see it," he said, "I mean we've seen a few small crowds around him with it, but to actually witness it, maybe up close? He gives personal shows doesn't he? For, like, very small and elite crowds?"


"I have pull with those crowds," Rufus said, "Despite my blackballing, my name does still carry some merit for the respectable magicians in the area. I could easily get you tickets. I think Benny might be right, I think it really might just require seeing it up close and personal. I just...god, it's like it's on the tip of my tongue, you know? I just can't place it, but I KNOW this device."


"There's one coming up," Benny said, "I get e-mails telling me of all the smaller shows around town. This is seen as more of a 'black magic' show, called The Divine Arts. You think maybe we could get into that?"


"I don't doubt it," Rufus said, scratching his head before looking at Allie and adding, "but I'll tell ya one thing, once we crack this, those men are gonna rue the day they ever crossed the likes of us."


Allie smirked. She really did appreciate his lust for revenge.


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"But it's entirely concrete," Agent Tropper said, "how would you build access into something that's meant to be so thick? Wouldn't he notice? Wouldn't he, ya know, recognize that something is wrong with this scene?"


"He wouldn't because it will look exactly the same, and he's not going to be one to check for stuff like that, he just wants it done. There's a lawyer there right now, but I don't think she's working for him. He's taking her around, getting insurance policies and statements on things, but personally...I think she's the governors lawyer, and it's his way of keeping an eye on Tony, so he isn't gonna show her that either, something he's probably trying to hide from the governor. And even if she isn't his lawyer, he's not gonna show that to someone who might turn him in for it."


Agent Tropper stopped pacing and looked down at Agent Siskel who just smirked.


"She's a smart girl," Agent Siskel said.


"Please don't talk about me as if I'm a golden retriever," Molly said.


"You remember Claire, right? Claire Driscoll, serial killer?" Agent Siskel continued, "Hid her victims bodies in the walls of the compound she lived at, the abandoned ones anyway. Well, would it help to see how she did that, to maybe give you ideas on how to achieve this? Because, I gotta tell ya, when we went to get her, that place looked normal. If we hadn't been tipped off, we never would've guessed."


"...the bodies....aren't still, like...there, right?" Molly asked, and the agents laughed.


"No, no they've long since been removed and properly laid to rest. But seeing someone else work with walls might give you some ideas," Agent Siskel said, "what do you say, wanna take a little ride?"


"Beats being in this room," Molly said, holding her hand out at Agent Tropper and adding, "I'm gonna need my blueprint back, please."


Together, the three of them exited the building, climbed into a car and headed off towards Claires former compound on the outskirts of the Vegas city line. The drive over, Molly couldn't believe she was here. She didn't want to be here, of course, but...after she spoke with Allie, with Benny, about everything...it just made sense for her to be the one to speak with the agents seeing how closely tied to the project, and thus the crime itself, she was. And then she thought about Claire and shook her head. That day, when Allie came back to Benny's, her hands and shirt covered in specks and spots of blood, Molly knew Claire was the cause. Molly had only seen a few news spots about the compound when Claire had been arrested, she didn't really pay much attention, so to roll up on the place itself was somewhat...unsettling.


What once looked like it belonged to a rather bustling community was now completely abandoned. Buildings where life had once occurred now just empty shells of their former selves, likely in stark relation to the people Claire brought into the cult. Molly, Agent Siskel and Agent Tropper climbed out of the vehicle after it was parked and, bookbag full of blueprints slung around her chest, Molly followed the agents into a nearby building that had been locked up, the doors covered with crime scene tape - albeit weathered now - to likely keep anyone from interfering with the then ongoing investigation. They headed up the stairs and finally reached an apartment, where Agent Siskel dug a key from her pocket and opened the door, allowing Molly to enter first.


"They always say you can tell when someone has died in a space," Agent Siskel said, "how it changes the feeling of the room. This place definitely gives me that vibe."


Molly nodded weakly, then approached a nearby wall and, with her hands, pried it open as though it was nothing. She marveled at the design.


"It's hollow," she said softly, "obviously, because they had to hide people in it, but it's hollow. Made to look proper, but is completely hollow."


Molly grinned to herself. Claire might've been a murderer, but she sure wasn't an idiot.


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"You know why I'm here," Raindrop said, sitting in front of Tony's desk, polishing her glasses before putting them back on her face, adding, "you know he wants a rundown of your assets. He thinks you had his daughter killed. I don't believe that, personally, and I would go to bat for you if it ever came to that, but as far as the monetary discrepancies go..."


"Look," Tony said, standing upright behind his desk, pouring himself and Raindrop each a glass of Bourbon, "it's a new casino, takes a while to get the place completely up and running, whether that's in code or in funds. That's why I'm kinda glad he called you out here, because now you can tell him, firsthand, from a legal perspective, that it's just taking a while. Casinos are rarely profitable within the first year of opening, regardless of it being a second location."


"I don't think that's true at all but okay," Raindrop said as he handed her the drink; she thanked him and took a sip.


"But," Tony continued, seating himself now, "you're right, I had nothing to do with Nicole's death. Why would I? Her stepbrother was found UNDER my building, for god sakes. Not only do I have no interest in taking out a drug dealer - someone who, realistically, could only help my clientele - but then go to the trouble of hiding him underneath my own building, and then, once he's been found, take out the other child? It just doesn't make sense."


"Do you know anybody who might've had some kind of business with Sunny?" Raindrop asked, finishing her drink and wiping her mouth on her sleeve, "because if you can give us a lead, a name, anything, that would be really helpful."


"The only person I know who ever had any kind of addict problem was my mainstay magician, but she was an alcoholic, not a drug addict, at least not to my knowledge. If she was, she hid it damn well. I know she was on pain medication after her tiger attack, but that came from the hospital, and I know cause I paid the insurance directly."


Raindrop jotted all this down, but showing no real interest. It didn't seem like anything of note to her, really.


"Tony," Raindrop said, "Raymond is mad. I think you two need to schedule a meeting instead of going through third party people, like myself. He thinks you're vying against him. He thinks you want to pull out financially. He thinks you had his daughter killed. You two need to talk, clear the air. Otherwise there'll be something worse than just miscommunication taking place here soon enough."


Tony nodded, finishing his drink in one gulp and slamming the glass down on his desk. He had two businesses, the respect of his fellow casino owners, and the protection of the governor himself. How was he suddenly losing all of this?


"And Tony?" Raindrop said as she stood up and prepared to leave, "...just know, and I'm telling you this because I don't think you're a bad person like he makes you out to be...if he catches wind of anything else, you might want to leave town."


And with that, she exited, leaving Tony to turn in his chair and look out the window behind him. The vault. He needed it kept entirely secret, and he needed it finished asap. The thing was...Tony wasn't innocent of committing a crime. He just wasn't committing the crimes they believed he was.


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Allie, Benny and Rufus were seated on the couch, all staring at the box, all varying levels of annoyed, and all of them sharing a singular box of cheese crackers.


"I hate this box," Benny finally said, chewing crackers, "it's taunting me. It's living in my apartment and it's taunting me."


"It's probably not too crazy about you either, for what it's worth," Allie replied.


"I got you tickets," Rufus said, looking at his phone, "Two of you will be in attendance next week for The Divine Arts, featuring Jackson Strange. Now you just hav to decide on which two it is. They're open ended, not assigned, so, could be any of you."


The door to the apartment opened and Molly walked in. She dropped her things in front of them and stared at them on the couch.


"Claire," she said, making Allie's hair on the back of her neck stand up; she continued, "Claire kept walls hollowed out so she could put the bodies of her victims inside them on her compound. That's what she was arrested for, remember? The agents took me to see it, firsthand. It was...creepy, I'm not gonna lie, but it was worthwhile cause now I get it. Whatever it ends up being, it has to be hollow, but look the same as everything else, and function like this," she finished, putting a hand on the box, "...as soon as we figure out how it functions, that is."


Molly then sat between Allie and Benny, and rested her head on Benny's shoulder as he reached up and stroked her hair. She shut her eyes and smiled.


"She done good," Benny said, making her laugh, "she done real good. Now we just gotta crack this box. So, Molly, I hope you have an outfit for nice occasions, cause we're goin' to see a magic show tomorrow night."


Allie stood up and walked to the kitchenette, where she pulled open the fridge and got herself a soda. She popped the tab on it and started drinking, as Rufus came over, pulling on his sweater.


"You leavin'?" Allie asked, and Rufus smiled, nodding.


"I am indeed, I do have other things to do today besides figure out how to bankrupt a casino," Rufus said, "...Allie, before I go, I wanted to talk to you about something. Come with me out into the hall."


Allie glanced past him at Benny and Molly snuggling on the couch, and agreed, taking her soda with her. Once out in the hall, they started walking down the hall, towards the stairs, almost as if she were walking him to his car.


"Listen," Rufus said, "what's going on between you and your boss and Raymond is vastly different, in many ways, than what I went through, but I still feel as though it's my duty to tell you to be careful. Vegas is a cleaned up town these days, sure, lot more family friendly and law abiding than it used to be. But that doesn't mean it isn't dangerous. That doesn't mean there aren't seedy mother fuckers out there just itching to do dirty work. Raymond Sykes is one of those kinds of people. Right now you guys have gotten repeatedly extraordinarily lucky, but that luck WILL run out, and when it does, and when Raymond finally sets his sights on you....well, I just hope you're smart enough to know how to handle it."


"I'd like to think I am. I've gotten us this far, essentially by myself," Allie said, as they stopped at the top of the staircase.


"Allie, I'm serious," Rufus said, "you don't know Raymond Sykes like I did. He's ruthless. I just need you to be aware of what it is you're up against. Please, go speak to this man. He's a friend of mine, another magician. He can tell you what Raymond Sykes is really like."


Rufus handed Allie a business card from his shirt pocket and she took it, nodding solemnly. After he headed down the stairs, she looked down at the card and read the name Salem Shaw. She then finished her soda, crunched the can in her hand, and tossed it in a nearby recepticle in the hall before heading back to the apartment. Despite everything, the way Rufus had said that last thing to her stuck in her brain and made her feel anxious for the remainder of the night. And she was right to, as she'd soon learn.


Because Raymond Sykes really was a villain, and nobody knew that better than Salem Shaw.

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"Is it just me...or does this store change size regularly?" Chelsea asked as she stood upright from stocking and glancing around the building. Juno did the same, collapsing the cardboard box in her hands as she did. She thought for a moment, then nodded.


"I think you're right," she said in agreement.


"I never really noticed it until now," Chelsea said, "but it does seem to alter in size every day. Sometimes, if we don't have as much stock, certain aisles are shrunk. Sometimes they're gone entirely. It's just not something I ever really picked up on until just now."


"Maybe you have a problem focusing," Juno said.


"I'm sorry what were you saying?" Chelsea replied, grinning, the both of them laughing. The bell over the door rang, and neither even went to see who it was. They knew. It was Polaris. It was always Polaris, in on his usual once a day stop and shop visit. As he came round the corner of the aisle, dressed in a dapper black and blue pinstriped suit with a bowler hat on his head, he stopped and looked at the girls who also stopped and looked at him.


"If you're having to restock this often," he said calmly, "then Luna needs to hire more help. Clearly you're understaffed. That isn't running a tight ship. That's barely running a ship at all."


"Nobody asked you," Chelsea said.


"And yet here I am, giving my opinion on the subject. Funny how that works, isn't it?" he remarked.


"We sell antifungal cream?" Chelsea asked.


"That's weird, cause there's entire beings here made of fungus," Juno chimed in.


"Well, someone wants to keep them away apparently," Polaris replied. Together, the girls gathered up the now empty boxes and walked them to the front of the shop, where Juno then took them all under her arm - they were all relatively small - and carried them to the dumpster out back as Chelsea took her place behind the counter once again. Polaris leaned against the counter, pulled his lighter from his shirt pocket and lit a cigar, puffing on it.


"So," Chelsea said, leaning on the counter and opening a bag of chips, "what non business do you have here today?"


"Actually, my cynical friend, I do have business here today. I am meeting Luna," Polaris said, which surprised Chelsea. She raised an eyebrow as she shoveled some chips into her palm and then into her mouth, speaking while chewing.


"Why is she meeting with you?" she asked.


"Don't talk with your mouth full, it's disgusting," Polaris said, "one of the few reasons I'm happy not to have one. We're meeting because, as you know, she doesn't want me here and yet I am here constantly. We're going to discuss that, amongst other things."


In all the time Chelsea had known both Polaris and Luna, she'd never once gotten the impression that they'd ever meet and talk. Then again, she really had no concept of their history together. Come to think of it...she didn't really know much about the store or The Elsewhere for that matter at all. The bell over the door rang, and in floated an enormous eyeball that constantly blinked. It approached the counter and stopped, looking down at Chelsea.


"Can you help me?" they asked.


"Depends," Chelsea said.


Just as this happened, Luna entered the store and, walking briskly past everyone, snapped her fingers at Polaris, who turned and followed her on her heel into her office. Juno finally came back in, picking at her fingernails.


"You know," she said, "it wouldn't hurt someone to clean the dumpster now and then, because-"


She stopped and looked up, seeing the giant eye and sighing.


"Now what?" she asked.


                                                                               ***


"I really don't like that we have to speak," Luna said.


"Well, we could just sit here in awkward silence if you prefer that," Polaris said, seated in the chair in front of the desk, his long legs up on its solid wooden frame. Luna sighed and seated herself behind the desk, then shook her head.


"I know we have to speak, I just wish we didn't," she replied, "but seeing as you are part co-owner, I suppose it would behoove me to include you. Right now I'm dealing with something that requires...your input. Much as I hate to admit that. There's a landowner looking to develop the block. He's not a very up and up individual, not that many are in The Elsewhere, but even by our standards he's sleazy. He's pressuring me and other shop owners, and frankly, it's gotten to the point where it feels threatening. They all asked me to turn to you."


"Awww," Polaris said, still puffing on his cigar from before, adding, "So what do I need to do then?"


Luna bit her lip and exhaled, then opened a drawer on her desk, pulled out some papers and slid them across to him. Polaris sat upright and leafed through them with his slender fingers, chuckling as he did.


"I don't like doing this," Luna whispered.


"Well, good thing you won't be then, isn't it?" Polaris remarked, "after all, I'm part owner, so this is my responsibility."


                                                                                 ***


"Okay, do you have a certain brand you like?" Chelsea asked, as she, the eyeball and Juno all stood - or floated - in a nearby health care aisle. The eye blinked a few times, then shut its lid and shook itself in a 'no' manner. Chelsea nodded, then started looking through the available options.


"Well," she continued, "we have Retinox, which seems to be the favorite to be honest. It's the most expensive, but from what everyone who buys it tells me, they wouldn't entrust their eyes to any of the others."


"Retinox will be fine," the eyeball said.


"Now the question remains how we're going to do this," Chelsea said, "Juno, you can climb on my shoulders and administer them from above him, if you're not too scared of heights."


"Not really the height that's making me uncomfortable in this particular situation," Juno said, as Chelsea grabbed a box of Retinox and, with the others, headed back to the counter; as they walked, she looked up at the eyeball and spoke.


"So, how long have you been having irritation problems?" she asked.


"My whole life," the eyeball replied, "I get itchy and watery a lot. Sometimes I think that if I had a full body, all my problems wouldn't congregate in one particular place, but being just a singular eyeball, I think that's why I have these issues, because there's just nothing else on me to affect."


They reached the counter and Chelsea sat atop it, unboxing the Retinox and undoing the cap to make it easier for Juno to apply. As she did this, Polaris walked back through the store, but didn't seem to give them any attention whatsoever, which seemed strange to Chelsea. He usually stopped and chatted, or perhaps made a little quippy remark, but this time he was just out the door lickety split, no time to waste. She shrugged and handed the Retinox to Juno.


"Alright," Chelsea said, "now climb up here and get on my shoulders. Sir, can you float lower, maybe?"


"I can," the eyeball said, dipping down below them a bit as Juno pulled herself up onto the counter and then, clutching the Retinox in her hand, began to carefully get on Chelsea's shoulders, exhaling nervously.


"The things we do for paychecks," she muttered.


                                                                            ***


Morgus Yantil was exactly as Luna had described him.


He was shady, he was sleazy, but he was charming and charismatic and those traits seemed to cover up the less appealing ones and made him interesting to folks. So he wound up in the real estate business because he knew that The Elsewhere had a lot of open market worth developing, and he wouldn't even have to actually develop a sizeable portion of it and nobody would notice. But he hadn't counted on Luna, and the neighborhood her shop resided in, which was a pretty tight knit group. Sitting behind his desk, tapping his pen against some forms, he needed to figure out a way to get her to sell the land her shop resided on, but in a non threatening way. Not that there was really any legal ramifications in The Elsewhere to worry about, but moreso his reputation was at stake if he went down that path and others might not sell to him. Suddenly his office door opened and Polaris stepped through, causing Morgus to look up in confusion.


"Do we have a meeting?" Morgus asked, leaning back in his chair, still tapping his pen.


"I doubt it," Polaris said, "because those who schedule meetings with me often are aware of them. No, my name is Polaris, and I'm the co-owner of The Last Shop on the Left, with my business partner Luna. She and I had a...discussion, earlier, about you wanting her to sell the property?"


"Did she finally send someone over to do that, because that would be fantastic, I need to get permits going and-"


"Oh, no no," Polaris said, laughing as he sat down on the desk and loomed over Morgus with his tall, spindly frame, "no, actually, quite the opposite. I'm here to tell you to back. off. Leave her and the shop alone. See, she didn't want to bring me in on this, but the others on the block insisted she do so, and here I am. So just allow me to give you this warning once and once only...end your plans for the block development. Please."


"Wow, who knew being threatening followed by the word 'please' would be so convincing," Morgus said, smirking, "actually, I appreciate you coming down here, but I'm in no way interested in doing that. See, that block is prime real estate, and right now it's housing mostly trinket shops, small food marts, drink carts and, of course, your store. None of which, aside from yours, really, are worth saving. Now the shop you two have built is certainly worthwhile, and hell, lemme buy in and we can even relocate it and nothing will change except location. But as far as it stands, I'm going to continue with my plans, thank you."


Polaris stood back up and sighed, putting out his cigar, finally, on the desk.


"I'm sorry to hear that, because now I have to do this," he said, reaching up and unbuttoning the shirt under his suit coat, then pulling it slowly open. A blinding white light appeared, filling the room, and Morgus started to scream as his skin began to blister and bubble. Polaris walked closer, still letting this occur, as he spoke again, saying, "I gave you a very reasonable chance to pull out, do not forget my leniency now that you're suffering the consequences of your own decisions."


Morgus thrashed in his chair, looking half cooked now. After another minute or two, Polaris buttoned his shirt back up, straightened his tie, fixed the collar on his coat and then leaned across the desk to the now slumping, panting Morgus, who was having trouble keeping his eyes in their sockets. Polaris put his palms firmly on the desk and stared him right in the face.


"Let it be known that conceding isn't failure, sometimes it's simply a way to continue living," he whispered, before his head split down the middle and all the flesh on Morgus's body was sucked inside. After he finished, a now nearly skinless corpse laying in the chair behind the desk, Polaris stood back upright, turned, and exited the office. He told Luna he would take care of it, and she knew what that meant.


But he was starting to understand her hesitancy a bit.


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"It's a miracle," the eyeball said happily, floating up and down like an excited dog wagging its tail, "I can see! It's clearer than it ever was! This stuff is amazing, oh thank you so much for your help! How much do I owe you?"


"You know what, since it's a medical issue," Chelsea said, trying not to laugh at how cute they were being, "how about the first few are just on the house, okay? Because nobody deserves to live in pain and nobody should have to pay to not be."


"That is so kind of you!" the eyeball said, taking its little bag with a few boxes of Retinox and turning to leave, "Thank you so much!" and as they started to float away towards the door, they stopped, turned back and said, "You two are maybe the single best employees I've ever deal with. Your genuine interest in helping me has not gone unnoticed, and I hope you keep in mind just how good of folks you are. Thank you again."


And with that, they were out the door. Chelsea was touched. She was almost crying. This job was usually just so much selling snacks, cigarettes, lottery tickets, or other generic items one might find at a shop like this, that when she actually got the opportunity to help someone, to truly help someone, she felt like she was doing the world a service. Juno sat on the counter beside her now, tugging at her braid.


"You know," Juno said sullenly, "nobody has ever really thanked me for my help. I guess maybe I've never done anything to really warrant being thanked, to be fair. But...but if today has taught me anything, it's that it feels good to help others, especially those in dire need."


"I appreciate your help, I couldn't have done this without you," Chelsea said, patting Juno on the shoulder, before hopping down and getting back to work, doing restocking, reordering and the like. Juno remained on the counter, swinging her legs as she chewed on her braid and thought. She thought about how she'd never felt like she fit in anywhere, how she'd never really been appreciated, and how suddenly all that was beginning to change. This place, this shop, it was becoming a home of sorts to her, and she was both scared and excited about that prospect.


That evening, Chelsea stayed overnight in the shop in the backroom with her sister. She'd turned it into a mini studio apartment of sorts, and now had books to read, her laptop with which to watch things on, and, of course, her sister to keep her company throughout the night. Besides, the shop had plenty of food and drink, so she didn't even have to go out to find stuff. Chelsea had even brought a small futon mattress and laid it on the floor so that she and Maddy had a comfortable spot to sleep in. And that's just what they did. Her little sister cuddled up to her, her arms wrapped around her, Chelsea never felt more at home than she did here at the shop. Maybe she'd entertain the idea, one day, of living in The Elsewhere forever.


Meanwhile, a few blocks away at a food stand, Polaris and Luna were standing in line, waiting to order. Luna dug her hands into her coat pockets, but Polaris simply shook his head at her.


"There'll be no need for that, your money is no good here, I'm paying," he said.


"I wasn't offering, I'm just cold," Luna said, the both of them laughing, "but thank you. So...how did it go?"


"It went about as well as could be expected when dealing with men of a certain nature, if one could call them men," Polaris said, "but rest assured, he won't be bothering you or anyone else on the block anymore."


"Did you...do that to him?"


"I did."


A long pause, and Luna shook her head.


"I know we've known one another a long time, and I know we're in business together, but I have to ask...what the hell are you?" she whispered, and Polaris adjusted his hat and stood up straight, not looking at her but instead staring straight ahead at the line before them.


"I am nonexistence. The void. That liminal space you fear so greatly between life and death. I am obliteration, the end of everything and the beginning of nothing, but what I am most of all, my dear Luna," he said, finally looking down at her, "...is hungry. I am hungry."


Luna chuckled, because he had a way with words, and then she shivered. But that wasn't from the cold.

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It was "Pride Week" at Wild Kingdom.

Pride Week was yet another event that was framed to get more than the usual number of guests to come visit, much like Birdapalooza, and this one was even more popular to be honest, because, well, kids love giant cats. Pride Week saw lion tamers come in from the local circus and do very basic and very safe tricks with the lions. Simple "jump through hoop" type tricks. Nothing that would irritate, aggravate or in any way harm the lions. As a result, this wound up being one of the most popular events of the year, and Nelly had to miss it, sitting in her office, doing paperwork. The door opened and she looked up, only to see Harvey slink on in. She smiled, pulled her glasses from her face and hung them around her neck.

"How can I help you today sir?" she asked.

"I have two deliveries for you," Harvey said, approaching the desk, and, with one palm placed firmly on the topside, leaned across to kiss her, then added, "that was the first, now here's the second."

He pulled his other arm out from behind his back and handed her a stuffed Alligator. Nelly took it and giggled. She leaned back in her chair and after a few moments of appreciating it, looked back up at Harvey, who'd now seated himself on the corner of the desk.

"Well this is cute, nobody has given me a plush as a present since elementary school Valentine's day," Nelly said.

"His name is Mr. Chomps," Harvey said, "I won him in a machine. Figured, ya know, he'd like it here more, at the zoo."

Nelly played with Mr. Chomps momentarily in her hands before hugging him to her chest and looking back up at Harvey, who was just smiling gently down at her.

"You're really cute, do you know that?" he asked, and she shook her head.

"No, I don't, you should tell me more," she said, grinning.

Seemed like everywhere around the zoo, love was in the air.

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"That was incredible," Robin said.

One of the performers who'd worked with the lions that day, an older woman named Maria, was sitting out during her break, as Robin sat along with her. Robin had no tours scheduled for the day - nobody did in fact - considering it was an event day, and so she spent most of her early afternoon simply watching the lion tamers work with the animals in front of crowds.

"How did you even get into this line of work?" Casper asked, sitting alongside Robin.

"Well, as I'm sure you're aware," Maria said, taking a long drink from a bottle of water, "it isn't exactly the kind of thing you often just plan to wind up in. Nobody goes to school for lion taming. It's a little...off the beaten path, you know? Technically, my job falls under the title of 'animal trainer', not just lion tamer, because you've got to be proficient in a handful of areas. Originally I was gonna be a veterinarian, cause I always had interest in animals, but then once I got into college I had this boyfriend who took me to a circus cause he had a cousin who was in it. Seeing her perform with big animals, that was all it took, man. I changed my entire career path that afternoon."

"Aren't you scared?" Casper asked.

"Of course I'm scared, it's a giant fucking cat that could tear my throat open with ease," Maria replied, laughing, "but, you know, you do what you do with confidence and hope for the best. Besides if you're properly trained - I mean I'm not saying accidents don't happen even with training but still - then you're much less likely to have that sort of accident."

"Hey nerds, what're we talking about?" Fletcher asked, taking a seat at the table, eating a churro and, surprising to everyone else, handing them their own as well.

"Lion taming," Robin said, biting into her treat.

"That's pretty cool," Fletcher said between chews.

"What's more dangerous in your opinion," Kyle asked, "lions or tigers?"

"Or bears? Oh my!" Fletcher said, making them laugh.

"Frankly," Maria said, taking another long swig of water before capping it shut, "I would say Tigers. Lions, I think are more powerful, but a lion really is just a giant cat. A tiger is a totally different breed of animal. I mean, sure, it's a giant cat too, but it isn't the same. You see plenty of wildlife photographers taking photos of themselves lounging with lions in the Savannah, you only ever see people interact with tigers during Vegas magic shows. The two are not the same."

Robin looked around at the people milling about, enjoying the event, and wondered where Sophie was. She said she'd join her when she was done with her janitorial shift - during events they always hired extra help for the day so she wasn't the sole one keeping the zoo clean - and yet here it was, early afternoon now, and she hadn't shown up. Robin took another bite of churro and, as she chewed, she just hoped everything was alright. Things between them were crystal clear now, emotionally, so she had no real reason to worry.

And yet, by the end of the day, she would be.

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Harvey and Nelly had gone for a walk through the zoo, Mr. Chomps tucked tightly beneath Nelly's arm, as they each ate their own stick of cotton candy that was colored like lions. Harvey, after finishing half of his, held the stick away from his face and grimaced.

"I don't like the color of this," he lamented, "it makes me feel as though I'm eating pee in physical form."

"Ew, come on, I'm trying to enjoy this," Nelly said, laughing.

"I'm just sayin'," Harvey responded, shrugging, "fluffy pee treat."

They continued walking aways until they each finished, tossing the sticks into a nearby garbage can, then leaning against a small rail looking into a pen full of lion cubs and mothers. They were all laying around, being groomed by their respective parents, and Nelly smiled, hugging Mr. Chomps to closely to her chest.

"I keep thinking I'd like children one day," she said, "but, god, with the job being the way it is...would I even have the time to be a mother, you know? The animals are my children. I mean, ya know, not really cause giving birth to a giraffe as a human would probably kill me-"

"Not to mention raise a whole lotta questions about the depth of your-"

"-but still," Nelly continued, interrupting, holding back laughter, "you know what I mean. This zoo is what I care about. It's my child. It's what I worked my whole life to achieve, you know? I'm so happy to be in charge, and the last thing I wanna do is screw it up, much like a child, actually. I just worry that I wouldn't be capable of giving a kid the kind of attention it deserves. But god it would be nice."

"I imagine what it would be like to have kids sometimes," Harvey said, "but I totally get where you're coming from. It's a lifelong endeavor, and one that you're scared to do wrong. I guess it's okay to substitute stuff in the place of having a family, but...having a family, a proper family...there's something really nice about that. Knowing that, at the end of the day, you have something to come home to that loves you, that you work to protect and nurture. I like that."

Nelly blushed. Harvey wasn't like the other men she'd been interested in or involved with. In fact, that was mostly what she liked about him. She could tell her cared about things like family and love. That he held her interests close to his heart. She'd never felt so...claimed.

"I just wouldn't wanna do it wrong is all," Nelly said.

"You never could," Harvey said, "even if you tried to, I promise you never could."

"Hey," Nelly said, grinning, "how about we go into the butterfly hutch and make out?"

Harvey laughed as she took his hand and led him up towards the building. In so many ways, he made Nelly feel like a teenager again, and she loved it. As the doors to the Hutch closed behind them and Nelly locked them within it, all she could think of was how Mr. Chomps didn't need to see the adult acts that were about to go down amongst all these beautiful butterflies. He was simply much too innocent for that.

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Fletcher and Casper had each gone their own ways, leaving just Robin now sitting with Maria as Maria prepared for her next show. As she stuffed things back into her backpack and got her costume back together, Robin bit her lip and finally spoke again.

"Do you ever regret not doing what you initially set out to do?" Robin asked, "like...say you had gone to veterinarian school, right, and gone on to work in the medical field helping animals instead of this. Would you feel fulfilled or would you feel like you'd missed out?"

"Well, I don't know that I'd feel like I'd missed out because unless I partook in it firsthand I wouldn't know what it is I'm missing to begin with, right?" Maria asked, putting her baton on the table and turning to face Robin, hand on her hip, "but I'd always wonder. That's the killer, I think. The things you don't do you always wonder for the rest of your life what it'd have been like if you had done them. And besides, if you can so easily be swayed by something different, then you weren't really all that attached to the original thing in the first place, were you?"

This statement was what Robin needed to hear. The last few months, working at Wild Kingdom, her blossoming relationship with Sophie and hiding it from Kyle...she'd had this twinge of guilt, as she rightfully should. She was, in essence, having an affair. But hearing someone tell her that, in the end, it was because she wasn't happy to start out with...well, that alleviated a good chunk of her guilt.

"And besides," Maria said, continuing, "the risk is worth the reward, I would say. It sure was for me. In a way, I'm still helping animals, because I know there's worse trainers out there, and I know I do it with a gentleness they wouldn't bring to the job, so in a way, I'm protecting them."

Robin nodded absentmindedly. Again, her thoughts turned to Sophie. Sophie had told her about how everyone she'd ever tried to be with had hurt her or rejected her, and Robin knew she would never do that. Robin knew she would only ever treat her the best that she could. Robin stood up from the table and pulled on her jacket over her uniform.

"It was really nice talking with you," Robin said, pulling her hair out from under her jacket, "and good luck with your next show, but I really have to go do something."

With that, Robin climbed into the nearby cart and started driving away. She really had to find Sophie.

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Harvey and Nelly were laying on the floor of the Hutch, both breathing heavily, both nude. The Hutch had drop down shades, so nobody could see inside, and the entrances were locked, so nobody could walk in. Nelly ran a hand through her hair and sighed, grinning widely as Harvey coughed a few times. Nelly rolled her head to face him, and he did the same, smiling back at her.

"Who knew you were such a girly girl, wanting to fuck in a butterfly hutch," Harvey said.

"I'm allowed to be girly," Nelly said in response, giggling, "it's just a nice space. It's quiet and, most importantly, it's capable of being locked off and blocked off. Between the door locks and the shutters, we're completely alone in here. That's more than I can say for most exhibits around here."

Nelly rolled onto her side and looked at Harvey, who just kept looking back at her, smiling.

"What?" he asked.

"Nothing. Nothing at all," she said quietly, "I'm just happy to be here with you. Doing this. Really, it's...it's all I've wanted for a very long time. I'm just...happy. I'm happy, and I don't...I don't really know how to feel that or to trust it. How do you trust it when you've been so unhappy for so long?"

"You just gotta," Harvey said, shrugging, "you just gotta give in, know that it's worth it, worth the risk. I know how you feel. It's taken me a long time to trust the happiness too, cause for so long I was convinced I didn't deserve it. But that's what you have to allow yourself to believe. It's selfish, but there's nothing wrong with that if it's for your well being. There's differences between positive and negative selfishness. Happiness is not on the negative spectrum."

Nelly nodded and rolled back onto her back, looking up at the butterflies fluttering away overhead. Did she deserve it? So many people had told her she didn't that she'd internalized that belief herself now. She chewed on her lip and thought about her last relationship. How much he'd taken from her. How much he'd belitted her. How much he'd made her think so lowly of herself. But she'd worked hard to get to where she was now, and she was proud of being the one in charge of Wild Kingdom, and she was happy being here with Harvey. Suddenly he rolled over, pinning her down a bit, making her laugh in surprise as he looked down at her face and gently brushing some hair from her face.

"It's beautiful in here," Harvey said, "but I think I'd rather look at you than butterflies."

With that, he leaned in and kissed her, then kissed down her jaw to her neck and to the crook of her shoulder. Nelly let herself go, just enjoying the moment as it started to rain outside, the water hitting the glass of the Hutch. He was right. Sometimes it was right to be selfish.

She was gonna try that someday.

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Robin pulled over her cart near The Lions Den - a small playground area filled with lion themed equipment - and parked. She looked around until she spotted someone sitting underneath the slide, wearing a yellow rain slicker. Robin climbed out from the cart and, zipping her jacket up and tugging the hood on over her head, began walking towards them. As she reached the space, she sat on the end of a seesaw beside the slide and just waited, but the figure didn't move. That was when she could hear them crying. Sophie reached out and put her hand on their knee, causing them to finally look up.

"What are you doing out here?" Robin asked, "especially now that it's raining?"

"Where else would I be?" Sophie asked, wiping her face on her slicker sleeve, "this is where I belong, right?"

"What?" Robin asked, confused.

"...this morning, I overheard my parents talking...talking about me," Sophie said, "about my sister. My father said that they really got screwed cause one didn't get to grow up physically, and the other didn't get to grow up mentally, and as a result, they just had two failed children. It isn't my sisters fault she died, and it isn't my fault I'm stunted."

"You're not-"

"I am, but there's nothing wrong with that," Sophie said, interrupting, "I have no shame in it. So I figured, well, if everyone sees me as a child, then maybe I should only exist in childish spaces. I came here after my shift and I've just been hiding here ever since. I didn't think you'd come looking for me since it's an event day. I figured you'd just, ya know, have fun."

"Can't have fun without you around, you know that," Robin said, smiling as she shifted from the seesaw down to the underside of the slide, putting an arm around Sophie; Robin sighed and said, "you know, this event? It's about pride. About...about lions and their prides. But what you just said...you have pride in yourself, in who you are. No shame in your mental abilities. No shame in your queerness. I wish I had any kind of pride remotely close to what you have. It's inspirational, admirable."

Sophie looked at Robin, who ran her other hand up to Sophie's face and wiped at her eyes, then ran her thumb over her lips.

"So if today is about pride," Robin continued, "maybe we should be proud. Not hiding away. This lion tamer I talked to today told me that if she hadn't taken the chance to see what doing the career she had now was like, she would always be wondering. That's how I feel about what we have. It was scary, but it's been so worth it. The most worth it of anything in my life. So I'm gonna take pride in being brave enough to take that risk, to walk away from the heternormaitve path and, instead, embrace something else. Embrace you. Cause god are you worth it. What do you say? What do you say we try having pride instead of shame?"

Sophie nodded weakly and leaned against Robin, pushing her head under her chin. Robin smiled and gently held her close, stroking her hair as the rain fell on the plastic and metal playthings around them.

"I'm glad you're in my pride," Sophie whispered, and Robin chuckled.

"There's nowhere else I'd rather be," Robin replied, kissing her on the head.

Robin Glass had attempted to be an actress. She was still trying to do that, best she could. But if she'd followed that path, she wouldn't have met Sophie Hart, she wouldn't be at Wild Kingdom. Sometimes, as Maria had put it, the best things in life aren't the things you plan for at all. Robin hadn't planned to come work here, and she sure as hell hadn't planned to meet Sophie and fall in love. But it definitely was the best thing in life, now.

And she took pride in that fact.
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"Hello boys and girls, and welcome to Mr. Magic's Guide To Trickery!" the man on the tape said. He was tall, thin, with a good head of hair and dresses to the nines. A suit, a cape, a hat, the whole nine yards. And Allie sat there completely entranced, freshly 11 years old, her eyes glued to the television screen with a slackjaw sense of wonder on her face. She'd seen magic done before, but something about the way Mr. Magic did it...it was spellbinding. Mr. Magic went through his entire repertoire of tricks, teaching her how to do them one by one, and by the time the tape was finished, all Allie knew were two things. The first was how to do all these tricks, and the second...


...was she needed to watch that again immediately.


Allie spent weeks watching that tape on repeat, doing her best to mimic Mr. Magic's abilities. Soon enough, she was performing in the school talent show with her cousin, Megan, doing magic, and shortly after that she wrote a letter to Mr. Magic who, much to her surprise, wrote her back. His words, like his demeanor, were kindly and supportive, and he also sent along a signed photo for her. Allie framed and hung these things on every wall of every place she ever lived, always pulling inspiration from then when she felt her lowest. She had no way of knowing it, either, but the very same effect he had on her, she would wind up having on a young girl named Zoe Fitch. But...not quite in the same way.


In fact, Zoe had been there the night of the accident, and even that gruesome display hadn't lessened her want for being a magician and working with Allie when she got older. Even her parents were sympathetic to what had happened, as anyone normally would be. But as Zoe got older, and as Allie spun out further, all Zoe ever heard from her folks was "I don't want you working with that woman, she's a bad influence." Zoe was determined to prove them wrong, and in all honesty, she kind of had. Considering the success they would find together, she did prove her parents wrong. Unfortunately, it also came at the near cost of her freedom and sense of self.


                                                                             ***


"It can be hard to recognize when those closest to us abuse us or use us," the woman leading the group said, "especially if we love them deeply. We want to give those we love the benefit of the doubt, want to believe they can change, which is why some people will stay attached to toxic partners, friends, family, far longer than they should."


"How do you know someone can't change?" a voice asked, and the woman leading the grou, Harriet, glanced in the direction of the voice, only to see a teenage Zoe sitting there; Zoe asked again, "how do you know someone can't change, how do you know when it's a lost cause?"


"Well, I wouldn't say people are lost causes, it's more that-"


"But you just said that some people can't change," Zoe said, interrupting, "you just said that if people can't change, and those types often won't, then they deserve to be left. So how do you know when to finally write someone off for good?"


Harriet didn't have an answer, and even if she did have one, it never would've sufficed for Zoe. She wasn't going to let go her hero worship anyway. In another few years, she would run away to live with her sister in Vegas and, hopefully, eventually work with Allie Meers. But to hear her parents tell it...Allie was now nothing but a former shell of herself. A once great but since tarnished shadow of who she'd once been, and frankly, by using large tigers, she was setting a bad example for other young magicians who might, by following in her steps, might lose more than she had. When Zoe got home from the group, she went immediately to her bedroom, popped a VHS into her TV's built in VCR and pressed rewind. Once it was finished, she pressed play, sat and watched Allie's latest live show she'd ordered on pay-per-view one night and recorded on this tape. How could anyone think Allie was dangerous? She was just a magician. You can't be a bad influence by simply doing entertainment, especially one so milquetoast as magic.


If only Zoe knew the future in that moment.


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"I have to say, I'm flattered," Mr. Magic said, "to have kept something this mundane from someone like me all these years."


"Wasn't mundane to me," Allie remarked, leaning against the wall nearby, "after all, you were who I looked up to. To think that Raymond Sykes used you the way Tony's using me...it's sickening. I figure that's why you're more than eager to help me accomplish my goal."


Rufus made a noise and cleared his throat, turning around and looking towards Allie as he walked to the couch in the suite and sat down. Allie walked over and sat down on the ottoman across from him.


"Raymond saw the value in what I do as a means to an end," Rufus said, "perhaps Tony actually saw potential in you as a performer."


"If that were true, he'd have told me what he was involved in."


"Maybe he didn't in order to keep you safe," Rufus said, shrugging, "I'm just playing devils advocate, Meers. All I'm saying is that just because Raymond did that to me doesn't automatically mean it's happening again to you. I think, before you go ahead any further with these plans, you first need to ensure that that's where it's headed. The worst thing you could do is assume his intentions instead of knowing outright. Wouldn't wanna ruin the business for no good reason."


Allie sighed and nodded. She knew Rufus was right. She knew she should ultimately make sure that Tony was, in fact, attempting to use her to hide money, but how would she even go about that? And then she remembered the lawyer Zoe had mentioned. Allie looked back towards the letter framed on the wall.


"...all the tapes..." she asked, "were they part of the ploy too?"


"That was how we made the money," Rufus said, "it was a good financial move for us both at the time. Didn't realize how it would only screw me over and benefit him in the long run. But despite that, my love for the act of magic was never fraudulent. I hope that at least was clear."


"It was," Allie said, before looking back at Rufus and asking, "so...how do you get someone to incriminate themselves?"


"It's the same as any magic trick, Allie," Rufus said, leaning forward, hands cupped between his knees, grinning, "it's all about misdirection."


                                                                            ***


Zoe studied that tape of Allie as much as Allie studied the tape of Mr. Magic. She was enamored, and determined to get things right no matter what, simply so, when the moment came, she would be considered good enough to be worthy of working with her idol. Even still, she tried her best to temper her expectations. When her parents would ask her about her plans after high school, she of course would tell them she was going to go to college, but, realistically, she had already made plans with her sister, Thea, to live in her apartments spare bedroom in Vegas. And there were other reasons to get away from home, but it was mostly the magic.


After the incident at her cousins birthday party, especially, setting them on fire accidentally during a magic trick, Zoe and her parents drifted even further apart. They simply refused to acknowledge the interest, nay the obsession, she had for magic. They sure as hell wouldn't want her to go work with Allie, who, as they claimed, had been a bad influence. Bad enough to, perhaps, set her cousin on fire. Now their fears felt validated.


The day Zoe arrived in Vegas, she put Allie's show tape in the VCR in her bedroom, curled up on the bed, and sobbed until she fell asleep. The thing was, Allie's influence on Zoe was different than Mr. Magic's had been on Allie. After all, he'd inspired Allie to take on magic as a career. Allie had influenced Zoe to work with Allie. For Zoe, Allie was the safety net, the obsession, not the magic. Sure, she liked magic well and good, but it was much more about her attachment to Allie, something that only felt more confusing the longer she grew to know her in a personal capacity.


A few weeks after hiding Sunny's body, Allie and Zoe were having a snack in between shows at the casino, and all Zoe could think of was how, somehow, in some warped way...


...her parents had been right.


And how much that hurt to admit.


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"You know," Allie said, "when I was attacked by the tiger - something that was inspired by you, by the way, so thanks for that - and wound up in the hospital, my parents never even came to see me? My boyfriend, who was my nurse at the time, I had him bring in your tape so I could watch it in the hospital VCR."


"Boy, that's pretty pathetic," Rufus said, smirking, making Allie laugh.


"To be fair, I was on a lot of heavy pain medication, so I guess the need for comfort items was at an all time high. Also, my hand had been nearly ripped off, so there was that too. Anyway, it helped. I didn't have any family, but...in a way...someone I'd looked up to my whole life was there in spirit, at least."


Rufus felt bad. He didn't know that Allie had put so much stock in his presence in her life, even if it was just through a videotape. Rufus stood up and started to pace, Allie staying seated on the ottoman, watching him. After a few minutes, he finally stopped and looked out one of the large windows of the suite and shook his head.


"You say you have a partner?" he asked, "an assistant?"


"She's not my assistant, not anymore, she's my full on partner now," Allie said, "why?"


"...I had someone like that too, at one point," Rufus said, "this lovely young lady, fresh out of college. She'd majored in theatre, so she figured she'd be perfect for it. In a way, she became a daughter to me. She had had a bad home life, and I, never having had any kids, liked having someone who looked up to me for advice. It was nice. When Raymond and I started in on this little business venture, she could see the morality issues attached to it. I wish I'd listened to her, but...I was so desperate to break through. To make it big. To have more influence. As usual, money wins over people."


Allie looked at him sadly, sensing the loss in his voice. Rufus continued, putting a hand on the window.


"This city takes so much from you," he said quietly, "I wanted to leave. Wanted to stop things, take Anika with me, and leave the city. Go somewhere better. Somewhere less..."


"...poisonous?" Allie asked, and Rufus snapped his fingers, pointing at her.


"Bingo," he said, "but I just couldn't walk away from it. When I finally tried, Raymond blackballed me from every venue, telling everyone I was having relations with my assistant, and considering the age gap, this was problematic, even then, even in Vegas. It was sleazy, but they still held their performers to some kind of standard. And Anika...she was so torn apart by the allegations, despite knowing full well they weren't true, that she simply left on her own. So, I'm sorry I put you in the hospital, Allie, even if albeit unintentionally. Seems all I do is damage young women."


Allie stood up and walked up the window, standing by his side, looking out of it, folding her arms.


"I feel like I do the same," she said, "between my partner, my friend Molly, and so many others, it seems like I just do irreperable damage to the younger women around me when really I just want the best for them. How did you rectify that within yourself?"


"I never did," Rufus said meekly, "don't let yourself become me, in that way, Meers. Don't be a bad influence."


Allie nodded. She knew what she had to do that evening.


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Zoe was sitting at the restaurant, at a table with candlelight, playing with the utensils in front of her. She'd had the menu for about 15 minutes, but she'd opted to wait to order anything. She felt someone walk by her and looked up, expecting to see the waitress coming back yet again, but instead, this time, it was Allie. Allie sat down at the table and looked across at Zoe. Zoe smiled at Allie, the finally picked up the menu and perused it.


"About time, I was starting to starve," Zoe said.


"I hope it wasn't an imposition to get together like this," Allie said, "I tried to invite Molly, but she didn't answer."


"It wasn't," Zoe said, chewing on her lip, clearly hungry, before looking up from the menu and asking, one eyebrow raised, "what is this about though? Cause we don't normally do this kind of stuff and-"


"I have to apologize to you," Allie said, "...I know I...I know I've done it before, probably a dozen times over at this point, but none of, in hindsight, has really felt sincere. That's what I'm aiming to correct here. Because I've tried to come up with so many different explanations, so many different excuses to alleviate myself of any if not all guilt associated with what's happened, but...the fact of the matter is, Zoe, everything is my fault and I can't deny it any longer. All you wanted was to be my assistant, and I took a lifelong dream of yours and turned it into a nightmare. All Molly wanted was to work on a new casino, and I dragged her into my malarky. Got her caught up in an entire tax evasion scheme. She just wanted to create buildings."


Zoe set the menu down fully and looked at Allie.


"In essence," Allie continued, "yeah, it's all cause of me. And after a few discussions with someone I admire greatly, I realized that I was no better than Sunny or Claire, taking advantage of people who were stupid enough to be tricked by my charm. My manipulation tactics have never been stronger. But that doesn't make it okay, and, unlike them, I acknowledge that what I'm doing is inherently wrong. That's why I'm trying to make it right. When the agents and I met, right before....well....before she died, I made a deal with them. I'd offer my help and, in exchange, all of you wouldn't be touched. You've all been granted immunity. I'm taking full brunt of the fault, since the fault is mine to begin with."


Zoe's eyes widened. She had suspected this might be the case, but to hear it...jesus.


"So I'm treating you to dinner, and an apology, I guess," Allie said, "and I just hope at least one of them was worth coming out for."


Zoe smiled and nodded. Allie was right. Her apologies thusfar had been rather lackluster and insincere, but this one...this one was genuine. Zoe picked up her water glass and took a long drink, then pushed her bangs from her face and exhaled.


"Well, for what it's worth," Zoe said, "nobody else has apologized to me for the things they've done or said, so in that sense, you're already ahead of the curve. You know, my parents used to say you were a bad influence."


"Funny, cause my parents used to tell me that about myself too," Allie replied, the both of them laughing.

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"What the fuck is a Peropkop Bar?" Chelsea asked, opening a box to stock a shelf in front of the counter.


"That's an energy bar made from these little creatures called Peropkops," Monica said, "They're these cute little guys who get harvested specifically because they give you a ton of energy, but they're also kinda addicting from what I've heard."


"What does a Peropkop look like?" Chelsea asked, looking over her shoulder at Monica.


"Like a mix between a badger and a hyena," Monica replied, as Chelsea started stocking the bars.


"That doesn't sound very cute to me," Chelsea said.


"You get stuck here for a long time and see how your tastes change," Monica remarked, the both of them chuckling. While Chelsea was doing this, she'd given Juno a small laundry list of tasks to manage around the shop, just so they'd get done faster, and it must've been working because she hadn't seen her in over an hour. The bell over the door rang, and a tall completely black humanoid creature lacking any facial features and their body moving like TV static shambled in through the doorway. Chelsea and Monica glanced at him as he approached the counter, and Chelsea sighed.


"Take care of these please," Chelsea said.


"Number one, I don't work here, and number two, I can't really touch things cause I'm a ghost," Monica said.


"That's horse shit, I've seen you touch lots of stuff, stop using your incorporeal existence as a means to avoid things," Chelsea said.


"Okay well the first part still stands," Monica said.


"I can pay you, if you'd like."


"The hell do I need money for? What am I gonna buy? There's no makeup line for ghosts, Chelsea," Monica said, making Chelsea laugh loudly as she finally scuffled around behind the counter and looked up at the tall creature in front of her. Chelsea waited patiently, smiling politely, until they finally craned their head down towards her.


"Can I help you?" Chelsea asked.


"I'd like 150 scratch off tickets please," the creature said, "the ones at the top, the Genies Wish."


Chelsea nodded, turned and went to grab them, when she noticed a small piece of paper hanging beside them. On it was a photo of this creature, and in big bold words it said 'do not sell to'. Chelsea rolled her eyes and sighed. Nothing could ever just be easy, could it?


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Juno had, in fact, been taking care of that list Chelsea had given her. She'd done some inventory, removal of old stock, swept up, all sorts of little things. Now she was back near the dumpster behind the shop, tossing yet another box of expired bags of FluKus into it. Juno sighed, tossed the box in after as well, and turned to start heading back through the door when she heard a rustling from the dumpster. Juno stopped and turned back towards it, raising an eyebrow.


"Hello?" she asked.


Some more rustling, and Juno approached cautiously, always aware it could be something potentially dangerous.


"Someone there?" she asked.


"You just throw anything away, huh?" a voice asked, as the box she'd thrown in climbed out and sat on the rim of the dumpster; they wiped themselves off best they could, then added, "that's kind of rude, you know. Just because I'm cardboard means I'm automatically disposable garbage?"


"No, I...I'm sorry, I didn't..." Juno stammered, half confused, half trying not to crack up at the absurdity of it all.


"Oh, you think this is funny?" the box asked, "really? This is humorous to you? Tossing a lifeform with thoughts and feelings and emotions into the trash huh? Yeah, real comedic. You know, young lady-"


"I'm not so young," Juno mumbled.


"-you could stand to learn some manners, some respect for others, especially if they don't fit into your ridiculous beauty standard criteria of what you think a sentient creature is," the box finished, and Juno nodded in agreement.


"Anything that gets me out of work. I'll take sensitivity training any day of the week," she replied. Anything to get her out of restocking.


                                                                               ***


"So," Chelsea said, returning to the counter, "...I'm apparently not supposed to sell these to you. I have no reasons as to why, but I do have a sheet of paper with your photo on it that specifically states I'm not supposed to sell to you. Do you maybe wanna clue me in on why that is?"


"She put up a sign?" the creature asked, just as the bell over the door rang and Polaris strolled inside. He passed by, patting the creature on the back.


"Hello Garvin," Polaris said, "what brings you in today? The usual?"


"She won't sell them to me!" Garvin replied, "Luna's put some kind of blanket ban on me!"


"Well, thankfully, Luna isn't here, is she, Chelsea?" Polaris asked, turning his eyelass gaze in her direction, which always made her uncomfortable. She shivered, then bit her lip and regained her composure, putting her hands on her hips.


"I'm not selling anyone anything until I at least hear a remotely viable reason as to why you have been banned from purchasing them," Chelsea said, proud of herself for sticking to her guns, adding, "then, and only then, will I even consider it. Why are these so worth getting in trouble over? They're just scratch offs."


"Did you read the name?" Polaris asked, taking one from her, "they're Genies Wish. If you win, you get the chance to grant one wish, and have it fully granted. Now why wouldn't that be appealing to, oh, just about anyone? After all, Chelsea, isn't there a wish you always wanted to have come true?"


Chelsea's mind immediately went to her sister, but she'd done that by brute force via Todd. She sighed and nodded, turning back and taking the entire box from the shelf, then splitting them between Garvin, Polaris, Monica and herself.


"Okay, but if we're gonna do this, we're gonna do it together, alright?" Chelsea said, "that way we're all held partially responsible."


"That sounds fair," Polaris said, as she reached into the register and gave all 4 of them a single nickle each to use. With that, the 4 of them started leaning over the counter, scratching away. Chelsea really hated going against Luna's wishes - this was her shop, after all, and she had given her this job - but Polaris was so damn good at convincing her to do otherwise that she just couldn't help herself. In a way, she was starting to understand why Luna didn't want him around. He was clearly manipulative, even if not for bad reasons.


"Are wishes transferrable?" Chelsea asked.


"It's just a ticket, Chelsea," Polaris replied, "whoever holds the ticket gets the wish granted, not whoever uncovers it."


"That seems like kind of a sketch reward system, that means if someone wins it, then drops it on their way home, they lose their chance," Chelsea said.


"That's why it's often smarter to just use the wish the minute you win it," Monica said.


"You know..." Chelsea said, stopping momentarily, "I don't think I've ever done a scratch off ticket, or any kind of lottery or gambling. Until coming here, I lived a pretty sheltered life. You know, I'm starting to think you guys might be kind of bad influences," she finished, grinning, and everyone chuckled.


                                                                                ***


Juno had jumped up on the lid of the dumpster to sit with the cardboard mimic, swinging her feet back and forth as she did. Juno had never actually met a mimic in all her time here, which was surprising cause she'd always gotten the impression that they were fairly common. The mimic was still cleaning himself off from the various debris he'd been dumped in with before finally looking up at her.


"I guess I don't know what to say since I've never interacted with one of you before," Juno said, shrugging, "do you get mistaken for trash often?"


"More often than not, yeah," the mimic said, sighing, "it's hard. I didn't ask to be born this way, you know? It's just a happenstance of nature, and I had no say in the matter, and now I'm saddled with this issue for the remainder of my life."


"I know what that's like," Juno mumbled.


"It's not so much the conditioner that bothers me, as it is others perception," the mimic continued, "I like myself plenty. Others are the ones with a problem with me, and that's where I take offense. Just cause I look like trash don't mean I am trash. But...well...most folks aren't too eager to take advice from a piece of corrugated cardboard, so."


"How did you learn to like yourself? Cause that's been hard for me," Juno said, "I'm also different than everyone here, and I know they're all constantly judging me for it, even if they're doing it unawares. Nobody really knows much about me, if anything at all, but even still. So how do you get past the hangups you have with yourself?"


"You just convince yourself they aren't hangups, that's really all you can do," the mimic replied, "...you wanna see something?"


Juno nodded as the mimic hopped down onto the ground, Juno following its lead. Together, they started to walk away from the shop, and Juno couldn't help but wonder if it was safe to follow this random mimic to whatever it was they were leading her to, but, really, who would even notice she was gone. Nobody ever really did. Nobody ever had before, so why would they now?


                                                                               ***


"These things aren't a scratch off, they're a rip off," Monica grumbled.


"Sore loser isn't a personality trait, you know," Polaris said, making her glare at him as they each continued, taking another ticket individually and still searching for a wish. Chelsea opened another bag of chips and started eating them as she kept doing her own scratch offs, Garvin finally sighing and tossing both his tickets and his nickel on the counter and burying his head in his hands, his elbows on the countertop.


"This is hopeless," he said, sounding like he was going to cry, "this has always been hopeless, she was right to ban me from buying anymore of these...these...paper lies."


"Hey man, you never know, the next one might-"


"I just wanted to go home," Garvin whispered, and Chelsea looked up, chewing, tossing her hair from her face; he continued, his voice low and shaky, "I just wanted to go home, that was all. But I'll never find a wish. I'll never get to go home."


"Are you...not...from here?" Chelsea asked and he shook his head.


"I used to be like you," he said, surprising her as he added, "I used to live in a home with a family and everything. I miss it all so much, and I just wanted my old form back, so I could go home again. I don't want to be here anymore."


"How did you get this form?" Chelsea asked, and Garvin sighed.


"It was an optional thing. I thought it'd help me fit in better in The Elsewhere," Garvin said, "and, it has, but at the same time...all I want now is to go back. I thought I was doing, at the time, what was right for me, and now all I've realized is that, what was best for me, wasn't what I initially assumed it was. I just-"


"I got one!" Monica shouted, gleefully holding up a ticket and giggling as everyone looked in her direction before saying, "boy, it sure is tempting to use this to be alive again...but..."


She glanced over at Garvin, his eyes wide, and she sighed, smiling and handing it over to him.


"You need this more than I do," she said, and he cautiously took it, shocked. Holding it in his hands, he looked around at the others, and then exhaled, looked down at the ticket in his hands and spoke gently.


"I wish I could go home," he said, "and have everything be like it was before."


And with that, a blinding white light filled the store, and when everyone unshielded their faces, Garvin's skin was crumpled up on the floor, and whoever he was was gone, leaving behind this husk. Chelsea smiled weakly and stood up, gathered the remainder of the tickets and started to restock the shelf with them.


"Well that was anticlimactic," Polaris said flatly, adjusting his tie and standing up straight, stretching, "I suppose I should head on out. I do have other things to do than spend my entire day here."


"Don't lie to us," Chelsea said, grinning at him. He bid Chelsea and Monica goodbye, and once he was out of the door, Monica sat down on the counter again and crossed her legs while Chelsea continued to clean up the counter area of all its empty snack containers and putting the rest of the tickets away.


"I really wanted to keep that wish," Monica said, "but...I guess I need to just accept that this is my home now, this is my afterlife. Besides, can't leave you alone here. But boy it would've been nice to be alive again."


"Eh, being alive's a little overrated, but I'm sorry, Monica. For what it's worth, I'm glad you're here," Chelsea said before glancing around and asking, "where's Juno?"


                                                                               ***


Juno and the mimic had been walking for a good fifteen minutes now, further and further away from the city, and closer towards a small landfill, a deep hole in the ground where all the garbage got dumped. Presumably, Juno though, including all the garbage from the shop. As they approached, Juno started to get an anxious feeling chewing in her gut.


"This isn't going to wildly depress me, is it?" she asked.


"Depends on how easily you get depressed," the mimic said, shrugging, "I just think it's something worth seeing is all."


Juno nodded and stayed quiet until they reached the rim of the hole and then she put a hand over her mouth, her eyes widening a bit. Inside the hole were a thousand other mimics, all of differing variety, as if they'd been exiled to this space. None of them even looked up at them, and instead went about their business of moping. Juno looked down at the mimic, who kept staring out at its friends.


"This...this is where they all go?" she asked quietly, nearly whispering.


"Why wouldn't it be? Nobody likes something pretending to be something else," the mimic said, "so why shouldn't they cast it out, right? Who could ever trust something that acts as though it were a totally different thing? That's lying on such a high level that trust could never possibly be rebuilt."


Juno, sadly, knew exactly what they meant. She nodded slowly and sat down on the edge of the hole, mimic still standing beside her.


"Don't you have to get back to work?" they asked.


"...in a bit," she said, "this is more important."


When Juno finally arrived back at the store, Chelsea was already getting ready to leave for the night. She'd done the rest of the restocking, cleaning, and other little chores that she often had to do before her shift ended. When Juno came back in through the back door and wound up in the main area, Chelsea finally looked up at her and, broom in one hand, put her other hand on her hip, tossing her hair back.


"Where did you disappear to?" she asked.


"I took the trash out," Juno mumbled, before looking at the floor and noticing the husk of Garvin on the floor.


"Is that skin?", she asked, "Do you want me to sweep it up or hang it on the wall like a jacket?"


"Heh, do whatever you want with it," Chelsea replied, chuckling, "and then, after we're done here, how about we go out and get something to eat together. I think we both could use some company."


Juno smiled weakly and nodded. She might be familiar with the problems the mimics faced regarding identity, but...at least she with certainty knew that she would never be tossed in the trash.

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"Whatever I get her, it has to be perfect," Robin said as she, Fletcher and Kacie stood in the gift shop, admiring all the trinkets and other various zoo related items for purchase; she picked up a small, glass Giraffe and examined it, then exhaled, "all this stuff is so...kitschy. And not in the quirky kind of way. In the 'I bought it at a zoo gift shop' kind of way."

"Yeah, well these are your options," Fletcher said, biting into the half wrapped taco he had in his hand. He, Robin and Kacie had walked down the street to a small taco cart and purchased lunch before coming back to the gift shop and perusing. Kacie pushed some lettuce between her lips and cleared her throat.

"You know, I could help you do something," Kacie said, "I have a lot of skills. We could always buy something here and then screw with it to make it unique."

"Why are you even doing this, aren't you two already, like, a thing?" Fletcher asked, sipping the soda he and Kacie were sharing, clutched in his other hand.

"I mean, kind of, but I wanna make it official official, you know?" Robin said.

"Women, always needing clarification," Fletcher said, smirking, making it apparent he was joking.

"I just need her to know that, yeah, what we have currently is lovely but I want her to officially be my girlfriend, I need a label," Robin said, "...Kacie, what kind of skills do you?"

"What kinda skills you need?" she asked, grinning.

                                                                                                        ***

Harvey, Casper and Nelly were sitting in the employee lounge while Harvey put his sandwich back together after applying his condiments. He then took it to the table and seated himself beside Casper, across from Nelly, who was eating a burger she'd ordered in.

"Why do you wait until now to put your condiments on?" Casper asked, eating from his ramen cup.

"Because if you put it on at the start of the day in preparation for lunch, by the time lunch rolls around, it all soaks in and is no longer fresh," Harvey said and Casper nodded, his eyes widened a bit.

"Yeah, that makes sense," he said.

"Does it though?" Nelly asked, making Harvey look up at her; she tossed her hair and added, "I mean, you could just put 'em on, then stuff it in the fridge so it retains its coldness and doesn't do that. You don't have to wait."

"Hey, you're not the sandwich master here, okay?" Harvey said, biting into it as the door to the lounge opened and Doug walked inside, causing everyone to shout in surprise. Doug stood there and looked around, hands on his hips, then exhaled.

"Welp, doesn't look like much has changed here lately," he said.

"When did you..." Nelly asked, grinning, approaching him, "you didn't even tell me you were coming back yet!"

"Well, to be fair, this was a sudden decision. I was actually scheduled to come back next week, but Arthur told me that today would be just fine. Says he's feeling much better, doesn't need me around the house as much now," Doug said, "so what's been goin' on since I left?"

Harvey and Nelly - Harvey chewing his sandwich as she sipped her coffee - exchanged a look.

"Not much," they said in unison.

                                                                                                          ***

Robin was sitting on a child sized chair shaped like a rhino when Kacie sat beside her in one shaped like a hippo. Fletcher was off across the store looking at books about bird watching. Kacie glanced over at Robin, who had the most exasperated look on her face, and for a brief moment, their eyes connected. Robin sighed and buried her face in her hands, presumably to hide her frustration.

"I'm probably not the best at giving dating advice, considering I've had maybe two previous relationships in my life, but in my experience, what you get someone doesn't matter nearly as much as the fact that you got them something to begin with," Kacie said.

"Yeah, yeah, 'it's the thought that counts', I know, but still, that feels lazy. I want her to know that I took a lot of time, put in a lot of effort, and not because I want the recognition, that could mean less to me, but because I want her to know that she means that much to me that I'd be willing to do so," Robin said, "I've never..."

Robin chewed her lip and sighed again.

"...I've never felt like this before. Whenever I dated someone in the past, and admittedly I've only ever dated men, I never went out of my way to make them feel special to me. To make it seem like I was thinking of them or caring about them deeply. That isn't to say we wouldn't do things. Like, for our birthdays, for example, we always did nice stuff for eachother. But this is so different. I want to make her happy every. single. day. I want her to realize, every waking moment that passes, she is loved more than the moment that came before it. It's like...it's like my heart is a hostage and I don't know how to deal with it."

Kacie smiled, reached over and patted Robin on the leg.

"How about this," she said, "how about you get two animal plushes, animals she likes the most, and then give them to me so I can do something with them. Trust me, it'll be unique, and nobody else will have anything like it."

Robin looked over at Kacie and smiled weakly.

"Why are you so interested in helping me?" she asked, half laughing.

"Because, until a few weeks ago," Kacie replied, "I also thought I wasn't really worthy of being loved, and from what you've told me about this girl, and what I've noticed firsthand, she seems to kind of suffer from that too. So, if I can help someone prove to someone else who felt the way I did realize they're wrong, then that's a win in my book."

Robin looked towards Fletcher, who was now acting out a little puppet show with animal hand puppets for younger kids across the store, making them laugh. She smiled and nodded, looking back at Kacie.

"He's surprisingly good, isn't he?" Robin asked.

"He really is," Kacie agreed, "and...I think that's what matters. Seeing the worth in people who either can't see it in themselves, or have been told there isn't any. A lot of people think Fletcher is a goof, an idiot, a jerk, but he isn't any of those things. I mean he's kinda goofy, but, hah. But the thing is, he didn't internalize any of that. Sounds like this girl might've."

Robin nodded, remembering the stories Sophie had told her last week about growing up, about how her mother had spoken to her in regards to her mental disabilities. Robin sighed, stood back up and walked over to the plush shelf, gathering two she knew she'd love, and handing them to Kacie, who smiled upon receiving them.

"Let's go get you a girlfriend," Kacie said, grinning.

                                                                                                             ***

Nelly and Doug were walking through the zoo - seeing as Doug had just returned on a whim, sooner than he'd been anticipated, he didn't really have a schedule yet, so Nelly thought she'd just walk around with him for the afternoon - near the endangered animal section. They stopped at a certain kind of tiger and looked into the encasement, Nelly still sipping from her coffee as Doug shook his head.

"I'm still worried that he needs me at home," Doug said, "how can I be so good at taking care of animals and so bad at taking care of people?"

"Because they're not the same, Doug, you...you do realize that, right?" Nelly asked, the both of them chuckling as she continued, "like, caring for people is so much harder. Animals are base. That isn't to say they lack intelligence, but it all comes down to, essentially, base instincts. What to eat today. Where to sleep today. Is it safe here for me. A Kangaroo likely never wondered if its love interest was cheating on them, for example. Humans are messy. Complicated. Honestly, relationships, platonic or otherwise, are generally too hard and not worth the effort."

"Jeez Nelly, what happened while I was gone," Doug asked, making her laugh again.

"I'm just tellin' it like it is, that's all," Nelly responded, shrugging, "people are hard to deal with. More often than not they'll disappoint you. How do you do it, Doug? How do you trust that it's okay to love someone?"

"You just do," Doug said, "I don't know, you just do it. It's a conscious decision, but it's one you make every day. You tell yourself 'this person loves me and I deserve that', and some days that's harder to believe than others, but hopefully whoever you're with will continually prove you wrong even on the worst of days."

Nelly smiled and sipped her coffee. Doug had always been her go to for relationship advice, and she appreciated having him back. She patted him on the back as they kept looking at the tiger.

"I'm glad yer back, I missed ya," she said.

"You're not just sayin' that?" Doug asked and Nelly laughed.

"No, I'm actually not just saying that," Nelly said, resting her head on his arm, "I really am glad you're back."

Doug had been gone for months at this point. After his husband, Arthur, had been diagnosed with a serious medical issue, Doug had to take a large amount of time off to help care for him, something that Nelly allowed him to do while keeping his job and still retaining a paycheck. Being the one in charge of the zoo, she was able to do that, so long as she doctored his time cards accordingly. Thankfully for Doug, Nelly was always willing to do the right thing for the right people.

Unless the person was her, of course.

                                                                                                       ***

Sophie hadn't had the best day.

In fact, she'd had a pretty lousy one. She'd had to clean up multiple instances of vomit, had a drink thrown on her by a 2 year old and then, to top it all off, had been expecting to get a pay raise and been declined yet again. So yeah, it was safe to say Sophie was feeling, more or less, like shit today. Now sitting in the janitorial closet near the Hyena exhibit, she found that hiding was in her best interest. She was leaning against the wall, her legs pulled up to her chest as she read a kids book she'd brought from the library about bats, when the door suddenly opened. Light spilled in, and she put one arm across her face, squinting to see Robin enter, shutting the door behind her.

"Figured I'd find you here," Robin said as she sat cross legged in front of Sophie, a small plastic bag by her side.

"...how did you know?" she replied.

"Cause you weren't in any of your other usual spots, and I know you like to come here when you're not feeling good," Robin said, and Sophie blushed.

"You sure do know me now, don't you," she said.

"I'd like to think that every day there's something new about you I could learn," Robin remarked, making Sophie blush; Robin then cleared her throat and added, "listen, um...there's something I wanna talk to you about. About us. Whatever, like, us is. You know I like you, like, a lot. I know you like me a lot. I know that, for me, these kinds of feelings are new and scary, in a way, and that for you they're also kind the same. Um...that being said, I also know that when I find something that matters to me, I do everything within my power to keep it. I want to keep this. I want to keep...you."

Sophie smiled. Her heart lifted a bit. Maybe today wouldn't be so bad after all.

"And," Robin continued, swallowing nervously, "uh...I guess I...I've never done any big, like, declaration of feelings, and I think it's cause, until you, I didn't have anyone who warranted it. Most of the people I dated - well, actually all of the people I dated - were men, and I never felt attached enough, emotionally, to want to do that for them. But you..."

Robin raised her eyes to meet Sophie's, and saw her smiling at her, which made Robin blush, made her knees weak, her heart beat faster.

"...god...you...you are someone worth doing that for. You're worth doing everything for. Things that scare me don't scare me when I think about doing them for you, and...and I want this to be official," Robin continued, "I want us to be official. If you'll let that, if you want that too. I got you something."

Robin reached down to the bag beside her, picked it up and handed it across to Sophie. Sophie took it, curious, and opened it, reaching inside. She then pulled out a turtle and a giraffe stitched together in a sort of Frankenstein's monster way; the turtle body was still in tact, but i had the head of the giraffe coming out of the shell, along with the tail out the back. Sophie's eyes widened, and she put a hand to her mouth.

"...nobody's ever done anything like this for me," she whimpered.

"Good, cause that means I get to be the first," Robin replied, "so...will you be my girlfriend?"

Sophie looked back at the plush, and then, clutching it to her chest, she got on her hands and knees and crawled closer to Robin, kissing her. Robin happily kissed her back, giggling, as Sophie rested her forehead on Robin's and nodded.

"Nothing would make me happier," Sophie said, before curling up in a ball between Robin's legs, squeezing the plush to her chest and resting her head on Robin's stomach. Robin reached down and gently stroked Sophie's hair, as Sophie whispered, "thank you. I had a really bad day."

"Well, that's what girlfriends are for," Robin remarked, "making bad days better."

"Well then, I have a pretty great girlfriend," Sophie said, making Robin smile.

                                                                                                              ***

Harvey was driving home, but the entire time, his mind was on Nelly.

He hated himself. He loved Nelly, but he hated himself. He should stop and pick up dinner, he thought. Anything to make things less conspicious about his late arrival. So he did. He stopped and he got fried chicken from a restaurant, and then he got home. He walked in through the back kitchen door, as he always did, to find his wife, Maria, sitting at the table, scrapbooking. She looked up at Harvey and smiled at him, and he forcefully smiled back at her as he placed the bag from the chicken restaurant down on the nearby counter. He then stood behind his wife, hands on her shoulders, and watched her do her hobby.

"What's the theme of this one?" he asked.

"This one's theme is 'mothers I wish I had growing up'," Maria said, making Harvey laugh.

"That's extremely specific," he said.

"Well I have specific issues that need to be address," Maria replied, the both of them laughing as he kissed the top of her head. Harvey walked to the nearby standup mirror and started removing his uniform, wearing a basic shirt and his shorts underneath, while he could hear Maria rustling in the chicken bag in the kitchen, and he sighed. He wished he could be an animal.

Preferably one that mates for life.
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So Happy Together is a dramedy about couple Aubrey & Brent. After Aubrey plays an April Fools joke on Brent that she's pregnant, Brent confesses out of panic that he actually has a secret daughter with an ex wife, and everything changes overnight.

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